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Archives: April 2010

Michelle's First Outing Dressed

Categories: Crossdressing Success Stories

Published on: April 29, 2010

I’m excited to share Michelle’s crossdressing success story with you, dear readers. I thought it was wonderfully timed, given how we’ve just been talking about feminine voice, and how it can sometimes prove a daunting challenge to even the most courageous among us.

If you’ve had a crossdressing success please share your story. Even if it seems like a small triumph, your words will bring comfort and inspiration to other readers. So without any additional preamble, I’m pleased to introduce Michelle.

Meet Michelle

Michelle's First Crossdressed Outing

I am 38 years old and married. I just recently been dressing with the support of my wife. I remember when i was a kid trying on my moms clothes. But as i grew up I stopped mainly because of my family and friends. I live in a small town that does not look favorably on it. My wife and I started roll playing and I finally admitted to her I like dressing in femme. She accepted fairly quickly and is very supportive with it. We buy clothes and jewelry together. It has been great doing this with her.

Michelle’s Crossdressing Success Story

I have been just dressing at home not really going out. If we go out it was always after dark when no one would see me. I finally decided that Michelle needed a day out. Being that we live in a small town where everyone knows everyone. We decided to hit a near by bigger city. Where we could go out to eat and shop. I picked a nice spring dress out. Put my makeup on and fixed my hair with alittle help from my wife. Put on some low heels that would be more comfortable for a day of walking. Michelle was ready for her first day out. Our first stop when we got to our destination was some food. So we stopped at a nice sit down reetuarant. When we went in I became really nervous. It felt like everyone in there was staring at me. Even though they payed little attention to us.

The hardest part was trying to talk to give the waiter my order. My voice as been the hadest for me. Well with a very uneasy voice I ordered which gave me away. But he took it well and was very nice and stayed with us till the we payed. After that having been made was tough on me. So we just drove around alittle then made our way home. I am not going to give up though just work harder. It was a blast being out as Michelle. And looking forward to the next time. Hopefully with a litte more success.

When Is A Crossdresser a Transgender Woman?

by Vanessa Law

Categories: Crossdressing Polls

Tags: transgender woman

Comments: 10 Comments

Published on: April 26, 2010

Pam, a dear reader of Crossdresser Heaven asked me a rather insightful question over email last week. When does a lady move from being a crossdresser to being a transgendered woman?

Now, many of us use the term “transgender” as an umbrella term to cover many points along the gender spectrum. I covered some of the terminology in an article that helps readers understand crossdressing. For the sake of the question though, I’m going to assume that Pam is referring to transgender as a step somewhere along the journey to full womanhood.

When I first started Crossdresser Heaven I thought of myself as a crossdresser. A man who enjoyed dressing in woman’s clothing and expressing as the feminine gender. Over the last two years I’ve started thinking of myself as transgender. I no longer think of myself as male, at least not fully male. Rather than an occasional activity I consider presenting as a woman the true expression of my gender identity. There is a joy, peace and rightness I experience when I present as a woman in the world. The seductive thrill of escape has been replaced by a freedom – a musical symphony of the soul – that I have never experienced before.

In my opinion one moves from being a crossdresser to being a transgendered woman when they consider themselves a woman – they identify as a woman. What do you think? When is a crossdresser no longer a crossdresser?

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Bringing out your feminine Voice?

Your participation in the regular polls on Crossdresser Heaven always brings me joy! I love hearing your thoughts on all sorts of topics related to the transgender community. If you have a poll you’d like to run on Crossdresser Heaven get in touch and let me know what you’d like to ask the lovely ladies in the community. You could be featured on the next Crossdresser Heaven poll

In last week’s poll you shared your secrets for sounding more feminine and expressing your transgender voice. Almost half of you talk softly to mask your masculine voice, with a quarter keeping your voices even softer and trying not to speak unless you absolutely have to. I can well understand the fear of speaking as a woman, and how easily it is to out yourself. It requires a lot of practice to develop a passable voice. Talking softly can help you get by if you occasionally crossdress and find that many hours spent practicing just aren’t worth the payoff.

I’d also encourage you to be confident, smile and be yourself. There’s nothing like a pleasant disposition to lift another’s chance of acceptance (if not the tone of your voice…). If you avoid speaking at all costs you could very well seem stranger than a woman with a full bodied voice

Until next time – may your life song sing with a voice as sweet as the divine feminine within you.

Taking the Plunge

by Vanessa Law

Categories: Vanessa's Transgender Experience

Tags: transgender therapy

Comments: 19 Comments

Published on: April 22, 2010

Taking the Plunge

When you look back on life changing decisions you can always point to the moment it tipped. Before that moment there was discussion, thoughtful contemplation and perhaps even some emotional bargaining. After that moment the path forward becomes clear. You’ve decided. You’ve cut yourself off from any other alternatives – you’re going to see it through for better or for worse.

Today was one of those moments for me. After many years of contemplation, investigation and thorough reading of more than a few wonderful resources on the Internet (such as tsroadmap) I’ve finally decided to take the plunge and go for transgender therapy. My aim is to validate that transitioning is the right thing for me, and to find a partner who will assist me on the next step of the journey – hormone replacement therapy.

As I’m writing this I’ve just completed my first session of therapy. I must admit that it felt good to share myself so completely with someone else. While I’ve been blessed with a loving spouse and tremendous friends, it’s a different feeling talking to a therapist. Not only is a therapist open, objective and non-judgmental, they also have many years or decades of experience working with people – asking the right questions, helping you to talk through and untangle feelings and thoughts.

I must admit though, the hardest part was decided how I should present myself to the therapist. On the one hand I could go as a man and spend the hour awkwardly unbottling my true self – slowly sifting my soul through the traitorous layer of my male facade. On the other hand I could go as a woman, and risk shock from the therapist and perhaps reinforce my preconceived notion of the end result. I finally decided that compromise was a good compromise, and aimed for a feminine leaning androgynous presentation. One where I have set aside my masculine mask, yet not quite fully decorated my feminine soul.

I ended up choosing a feminine pair of blue boot cut jeans, a low heeled pair of brown ankle boots and a green cami under a long sleeved collared shirt. Just enough to feel comfortable sharing my true self. After an hour with my therapist she welcomed my request to come as a woman to the next session. One dilemma solved.

While my therapist has experience working with people with gender identity issues, she isn’t able to recommend hormones herself. Though I’m quite pleased that she offered to find someone who can make the recommendation, perhaps it’s for the best that I’m not so relentlessly focused on getting hormones for the first few sessions. This will make it easier for me to explore my true feelings without worrying that saying the wrong thing could hinder my journey to womanhood.

I look forward to the path I now travel. I pray that I am able to enjoy each step I take, and relish the experience as much as the lofty ideal I carry in my heart – to live who I am with passion every moment of my life.

When You Find Out You're Not A Woman

by Vanessa Law

Categories: Crossdressing: The Lighter Side

Tags: single lady cry

Comments: 6 Comments

Published on: April 20, 2010

Sometimes it’s hard not to become distraught when the reality of your masculine prison presses upon you. For some of us this realization occurs at a young age, as you can see in the video below.

P.S. Kudos to dad for posting this to youtube. I imagine that’s one of those parenting moments you can’t predict until it happens

Voice of the Divine Feminine

by Vanessa Law

Categories: Crossdressing Polls, Feminine Voice

Tags: transgender voice, voice feminization

Comments: 19 Comments

Published on: April 18, 2010

I love spending a day as a woman out in the world. There’s nothing quite as liberating and uplifting as when I look out with the eyes of the woman inside and dare for a few hours to live the life I long for. When I’m truly in my feminine zone it’s as if the shafts of sunlight themselves are signing a chorus of beautiful music just for me to hear. It’s those same soprano voices that quickly dissipate when I open my mouth to speak, unleashing a discordant clang of the deep unwelcome stranger within. Needless to say this can be quite jarring to the unsuspecting person I’m talking to, and many a time I’ve seen a flighting look of perplexed surprise dance across the face of my conversation companion.

It’s with a longing for the beautiful music of my femininity to continue that I have spent (and am yet to spend) countless hours practicing my feminine voice. For the last few months I’ve been following the Voice Feminization training program created by Kathy Perez. I must admit that all the pitch and resonance practice seems to be paying some small dividends, though I realize the path to a ‘passable female voice’ is still yet long and arduous. I’m learning slowly to not to hesitate before I speak, and not to hold back because I’m afraid my voice will out me.

What do you do to sound more feminine? Are there specific exercises you practice, techniques you use or training courses you’ve taken to hone your transgender voice?

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It’s Official – Crossdressers Sit To Pee

In the last crossdressing poll I asked how many crossdressers sit to pee. I was surprised at the overwhelming number of crossdressers who sit to pee at least some of the time. 95% of you lovely ladies share in one of the more inconvenient necessities of life as a woman. It makes me proud that so many of you are willing to sit for a while in their shoes.

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