I was reading Psalm 86 today, and was reminded again of the beauty and wonder of our God. I’ll quote a portion of it, and I encourage you to read along in your own Bible, or if you don’t have one, to request one from your local church (they will be happy to provide one for you!).
Teach me your way, O Lord,
and I will walk in your truth;
give me an undivided heart,
that I may fear your name.
I will glorify your name forever.
For great is your love toward me;
you have delivered me from the depths of the grave.
For the transgendered a Christian walk can sometimes be a struggle. It is easy for us to get lost in the struggle against an uncaring church, against our unsatisfied conscience, against the body God gave us. We would do well to heed the wisdom in David’s prayer, asking God with fervent prayer to teach us in His ways. When we focus our attention on pleasing God our strife fades away. When we allow ourselves to become enamored with God’s will He makes our purpose clear, and gives us strength to walk in it.
When I think about an undivided heart, I think about putting aside my quest for wholeness, and following God’s plan. You cannot worship yourself as a woman, and God at the same time. I know how hard this is. Who we are plays such a large part in shaping our life experience – it is hard to go a day without thinking about our unique character. We need to be careful that we do not put our obsession with self ahead of God.
Once we do that we are blessed to glorify God forever, and experience His great love towards us.
If you’re reading this and feeling lost, alone and unloved, I want you to know that Jesus Christ will never leave you. He loves you so much that He endured death on the cross to allow you to have a relationship with God. If you are hurting, leave a comment, reach out. I will say a prayer for you.
Love
Dear Vanessa, I so wish I could find a church that had room fo me. My only outlet is to go downtown. the funny thing is I end up talking about God to anyone that will listen.
ive only recently began to contemplate this, i am young, and conflicted within (it may be that this is a passing desire that does not run deeper than wishing to be as free as women are in their choices)
prayer would be greatly appreciated, for this that i have not shared yet.
ive only recently began to contemplate this, i am young, and conflicted within (it may be that this is a passing desire that does not run deeper than wishing to be as free as women are in their choices)
prayer would be greatly appreciated, for this that i have not shared yet.