To my lovely and faithful readers,
As I progress further in my journey to womanhood I’ve had ample time to reflect on where my voyage began. My first post to Crossdresser Heaven was the innocuously entitled ‘Hello‘ that I shared with the Internet on January 27th 2008 – 3 years, 7 months and 11 days ago. At the time I thought I was a crossdresser, embarking on this journey to understand these strange longings within me, and hopefully to purge this demon from my mind. Many of my earliest postings dwelled on how to cure crossdressing as I furiously sought to save my soul, sanity and the sureness of my marriage.
This wasn’t the first time that I had tried desperately to understand myself, but it was when I first began in earnest on a quest that would stop at nothing less than finding a cure. As constant readers would know, my journey was at times arduous and tiring, but the joy of self discovery kept me moving forward.
Today I’m here to share two things with you. The cure for crossdressing I discovered, and the launch of a new website to share my continued pilgrimage to gender enlightenment.
The Cure for Crossdressing
I transitioned in November 2010, and for the last 10 months I have neither crossdressed, nor felt any desire to. I’m not only comfortable in my gender expression and role, but happier than I have ever been. Cure would not be a generous enough word to describe my experience, because transitioning has done more than just remove uncomfortable compulsions. Transitioning has been like a rebirth – colors seem brighter, tastes are sweeter and life is more joyful than I could have ever dreamed or imagined.
Yet this is also why I need to find another way to share my gender sojourn in a more authentic manner. To be honest, I have struggled to share my inner self on Crossdresser Heaven lately because the title is no longer something I identify with. I’m not a crossdresser, and I found it difficult to be true when the very title of what I was sharing was not.
Follow Vanessa’s Authentic Journey to Womanhood at TransgenderHeaven.com
I feel compelled to share my story, if only to make one other person’s burden a bit lighter. I’m excited to announce a brand new website – one where I am comfortable sharing my truth again. I invite you to head on over to www.transgenderheaven.com and join me in my gender peregrination. You can also subscribe to receive regular updates from Transgender Heaven.
What will become of Crossdresser Heaven?
I have a deep love and care for all who are going through their own struggle with gender. Both for those whose struggle is internal, as well as those who stand alongside them. I have received hundreds of emails and notes from those who are desperately seeking answers – my heart goes out to them, and I couldn’t in good conscience let a valuable resource for the broader gender community fall into disrepair.
Crossdresser Heaven will continue to operate, with a renewed focus on those just beginning their exploration of gender. I will post more articles that are particularly relevant to crossdressers. From makeup and fashion tips, to questions about telling loved ones, or how to deal with the initial conflicting emotions. I think this will allow me to better serve the community, and let you get answers quicker to your questions.
I am excited about what lies ahead, and would be blessed if you would continue to be by my side.
With love and blessings,
Vanessa
