A view from the other side

It’s been a long time since I’ve been back to this blog, and I apologize for that dear reader. In a way, I suppose, my writing over the last few years brought me to the point of acceptance. It helped me to explore a part of myself I thought was my deepest dark but ended up being my truest self. And once I embraced my truest self I discovered a joyous life – a life outside of the struggle to find myself. A life filled with friends and adventure, lovers and passion, growth and discovery.

It’s been three years since I went full time, and two years since my surgery. I could not have wished for a more blessed entry into the fullness of womanhood.

It’s difficult for me to imagine sometimes, that I once looked from the other side of this chasm. The struggles I went through, the fear and heartache just to be. Just to be – really a basic thing that every person is entitled to, yet used to seem so elusive.

I pray dear reader that you are able to find your own peace in your journey. A place where your life path and your heart intertwine in a joyous symphony of your being. Where your song echos through the universe for all who choose to to hear.

It’s late at night, and I’m pondering many things. I don’t know if I’ll be back, or when I’ll be back should I decide such. It… brings mixed emotions to look back on my journey. To remind myself of how far I’ve come.

I’m filled with gratitude for the past, yet I’m filled with longing to continue my journey into the future free from it.

To all of you reading this. I love you. You were my strength when my spirit flagged, and my beacon when I had lost my way. I only wish that my words, my journey will continue to light the way for others to come.

Blessed journey.

EnFemme

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Janean
Janean
10 years ago

I shout this with all the strength i posess and with joy for your continuing journey…
YOU GO, GIRL!!

Elizabeth
Elizabeth
10 years ago

I remember that first week I met you at Esprit, you shared how you were so terrified and yet so desperate too. It was a desperate time for me too.

I am glad to see how you’ve blossomed. There were many friends I made that May, so many have grown into the wonderful women that they are today. I’m very happy for you; I’m also very happy for me.

I do think your words will help others and I thank you for sharing them.

–Elly

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Wanda(fem name)
10 years ago

God bless you! I envy you. I know you have been through a lot. You are one great woman.

Megan Rose
Megan Rose
10 years ago

Thank you! You and others who went before me, showed me the way. Now I look back with some sadness that my day didn’t come sooner, and, with some inspiration that this journey has given me strength to face more daunting challenges as well.
Best of luck to you!

Mike P.-Samantha
Mike P.-Samantha
10 years ago

This is awesome, thank you so much. I hope you continue writing, and glad you are happy.

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lucinda50
10 years ago

i am so glade you are female now since your surgery. its a blessing for surgery for some females that are trapped in a male body and need to be female. i am so glade for you. wish i could do the same for i struggle with my feminine side on a day to day bases.i love every thing about female attire and love wearing them from head to toe and even wearing a pad and perfume, jewelry, make up, i can not get enough of it at times. good luck with your journey to woman hood

kelly house
kelly house
10 years ago

I have just now in the last new year have found my true self I am trapped in a mans body and so unhappy with it I am truly a woman and need all the love and support I can get your letter has inspired me to be strong and I no I will be that

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Tammy
10 years ago

Vanessa hunnie i feel i have been on that journey with you, i have laugh and cryed with you. Your wisdom has been such a help to me & comfort, what ever you do next go for it girlfriend. iI will keep you in my prays MISS YOU
Blessing Tammy

Alicia Masters
Alicia Masters
10 years ago

Hi Vanessa, I am so happy for you. I cant believe it’s been two years already since your surgery. WOW! How the time has flown huh? It took great courage of you to be who and what you are.To move forward and change and embrace your true self. I’ve often wished and waited and dreamed of being just as you are. Now when I look into the mirror all I see is an old man (I’m only 59 but for some reason i look older..), meaning an old woman. I had decided to put my true self on the back… Read more »

Alicia Master
Alicia Master
10 years ago
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Thanks so much Vanessa for your words of encouragement and hope. You are truly awesome!

Samantha R
Samantha R
10 years ago

Vanessa knowing you are well makes my heart jump for joy. prehaps i climb the mountain to one day. hugs and best wishes samantha

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