One reason I joined this site was that I feel I need to write about some things. There are things that my wife really can’t fully underdstand. Granted she has known that I am a crossdresser since day 1, and that was 8 years ago, when it really comes down to it only another crossdresser could possibly understand.

I am not looking for answers really but just kinda “talking out loud” and if someone reads it and/or replies than great.

I started working from home about 2 years ago as a web developer so that has given me the opportunity to dress every day. I will get out of the shower and go pick out my outfit. I will then wear that outfit until no less than 6pm. In the past I would try to only buy womens clothing that would be considered sexy… not something you would wear to work. And I think I did that as a way of dealing with crossdressing by telling myself that I was dressing purely for the sexual thrill and not because dressing was a part of me. But in the last 2 years i find that i am buying clothing that even my mother would wear… like long dresses and skirts, 2″ heels instead of 3″+.

Added to my changing attitude about what I should wear is the fact that not long ago I told my mother that i am a crossdresser. It wasnt that I could go either way, tell her or not tell her, it was that I have to do it… she must know. After, I thought to myself “why did I tell her?”… “what did I gain from doing so?” I couldnt and still cant find in myself any reason for telling her but I had to do it. To my suprise, it was no suprise to her… she told me although she had never seen me in womens clothes, she knew.

What does all this mean.. I dont really know…

EnFemme

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JaneS
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JaneS
7 years ago

Those who’ve never experienced it can rarely understand how deep the need to cross dress is. In essence, it’s more a choice of what to wear rather than to wear or not.

Having the support of loved ones is also invaluable and thankfully becoming more common and society becomes more exposed to transgender people.

Thank you for finding that ‘something’ to write about.

Paula Ann Wilson
Paula Ann Wilson
7 years ago
Reply to  JaneS

" In essence, it’s more a choice of what to wear rather than to wear or not."

WOW… your statement is so incredibly true for me… probably for most I bet.

MacKenzie Alexandra
Duchess
Member
7 years ago

Thanx for sharing. I have similar feelings. Whether I am dressing as a man or a woman, I prefer to be comfortable. That being said, most of my feminine wardrobe are everyday and casual wear. For me, it is about being true to who I am, and not meeting the definition of others. I too have a supportive spouse which has made this journey much easier, but I also wish I could disclose to my family. I do not like keeping such a secret from those for whom I care and love.

Jessica Hiver
Jessica Hiver
7 years ago

Thanks for sharing, Paula. It sounds like you feel pretty comfortable with things as they are. Good for you. I am not able to share my cd with my SO at this point but it seems that must be quite liberating. Jessica

Tammy
Tammy
7 years ago

Thanks for posting, Paula. I work at home too, and I am so glad to be able to wear what I want. Sort of like Mackenzie, though, my fashion style is so casual that I don’t think people notice when I’m wearing in public.

skippy1965 Cynthia
Ambassador
Trusted Member
7 years ago

Agree with Jane-I can’t NOT wear my femme clothes-it literally gives me severe anxiety when I can’t for any extended period of time. Love your story Paula!

MaryJo
Baroness
Member
7 years ago

“In the past I would try to only buy womens clothing that would be considered sexy… not something you would wear to work." I know what you mean. The majority of what I have is…well, kind of on the short side. I’m not so sure at this point i could feel comfortable going out in many of them. But they’re not so short that I haven’t seen other women out in similar ones; I guess it’s a matter of confidence.) I also have some long skirts and dresses that I love too. “I thought to myself “why did I tell… Read more »

Paula Ann Wilson
Paula Ann Wilson
7 years ago

Heres an update… my mom sent me some pictures in the mail of me when i was little, somewhere between 2 and 4… and guess what I was wearing? A dress! She sent a note along with the pictures saying that I would cry at times if she didnt put me a dress… but somewhere around 4 years old I stopped.

Brenda_an
7 years ago

Well Paula Ann, your fortunate that you have a way to earn money, and maintain a partner in a relationship (your wife).

I suppose, the fact, that you are able to have an activity on the side (crossdressing) is a fringe benefit.

I know some folks that are self employed…are proud of the fact, that they can sneak away to the golf course, pretty much when ever they wish.
I guess you sneak away, into a role, to which, you prefer to be.
No harm done. Enjoy.

Paula Ann Wilson
Paula Ann Wilson
7 years ago
Reply to  Brenda_an

I am fortunate to work at home… in the last 10 years I have worked at home, for myself, about 8 years total. I love the fact I can slip away and do what I like to do which is fly model airplanes… my photo area has a few images of me holding one of my current models.

Paul Ann

Codille Benton Baer
Ambassador
Member
7 years ago

Paula Ann, I like you over the last few years have come home to work. My wife has know forever but my kids really only since Christmas. Originally it was all sexy clothing and sorry only 2″ heels but now I wear whatever feels right that day. Skirt and Blouse, ok, Business dress, no problem, new this year sweaters, and then I like you made a change that was like an evolution, jeans and t-shirts….when did that happen? I think we all evolve, now like you I am a chameleon I never thought would exist. You know, I am really… Read more »

Adelle
Adelle
7 years ago

I find shopping for clothes as a larger man to be a pain in the ass so my hat is off to you that can shop both ways.

Stef Smith
Duchess
Active Member
6 years ago
Reply to  Adelle

Try long tall sally or
Wonan within

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