Hi ladies. This article is written from the heart. It is in no way a reflection on other people’s views or motivations, although of course, many will be able to relate to what I am about to say, so here goes, this is my true to heart, testimonial of the wonderful site we all know and love, Crossdresser Heaven (CDH).
I joined CDH back in October 2018. Before that, crossdressing for me was a lonely, empty activity, all dressed up but nowhere to go. I had to hide everything I owned in a corner of my room and limited my activity to times few and far between. I so much wanted more, but it was truly impossible to do at the time. Years and years went by with the same old routine; underdressing, waiting for an opportunity to dress, the frustration slowly eating away at me. I so badly wanted to dress, but it was like being in a desert, dying of thirst, but no water available. Despair turned to sadness, and sadness turned to depression.
Then I found a miracle, well it was to me. I found somewhere I could go and be welcomed, and not feel isolated and alone anymore. It was Crossdresser Heaven. I must admit, I was very nervous at first, probably we all were at the beginning, but that was soon replaced by confidence and more importantly, happiness.
So. How does CDH differ from other sites? CDH is not a fetish site; here you have real people with real lives, and a real community offering top notch support, love and the biggie… acceptance! I never had that before; true, I never really tried, but I was sure I was the only one in the world who felt this way and that there was no way I could find a site that would answer the plethora of questions I needed to ask. I like the fact it is not a smutty, sexual site, the members here are loving, supportive and many will go on to become, I have no doubt, true friends of mine, wherever in the world you reside.
How has it changed me as a person? Well for one, it has given me a place to go. It’s like my second home. CDH has become a very important part of my life, as it’s not a fantasy; this is for real, a proper chatroom with real people with real issues, forums with great advice and members always at hand to help you with any problems you might have. I have become at one with myself, contented and satisfied. That in itself was great, but as time went on, I realized it was time to give something back. Now anyone that knows me, will say, I always give, I hate taking and not giving. CDH gave me the confidence to open up and start to talk, and from there I started to post.
At the end of the day, I am nothing special; I am just another crossdressing guy that seeks acceptance and love in what I do. I certainly have received that here, and in a way I do feel kinda special, certainly in the way that I have made friends and finally opened up. The truth is, we are all special here. We are like a family, happy in each others company, something we all strive for in our daily lives. Whether you are rich or poor, your race, color of your skin, it has no bearing, you are loved! And thats the end of it! I only wish society was as accepting.
CDH for me has also achieved another important thing. It has turned me into a more positive person. True, I do have my ups and downs, and I have posted some silly things in the past, saying I’m going etc. Strangely enough, it made me realize just how empty I would be if I did go. Not much chance of that happening! Without talking to other members here, I would not have realized how big the true picture really is. It certainly puts many things into context for me.
Where do I currently stand? Well, I am grateful that at least I have somewhere to go to share experiences, help members and gain and give support. My final goal is to finally meet someone at some point, although I have to say I am incredibly nervous about this! but I am positively sure, it will happen one day.
I hope that CDH has proved to be an important part of your lives too. Its a great place to get away from it all and embrace a positive atmosphere. The only negative is when I log out!
I end this with a gracious thank you to the owners of the site, and the ambassadors for their tireless support and welcoming, and last but not least, the members for making CDH what it is, true heaven! I wish CDH many more happy and productive years ahead 🙂 .
From a very grateful member,
Fiona Moss xxxxxx
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