Hi ladies. This article is written from the heart. It is in no way a reflection on other people’s views or motivations, although of course, many will be able to relate to what I am about to say, so here goes, this is my true to heart, testimonial of the wonderful site we all know and love, Crossdresser Heaven (CDH).
I joined CDH back in October 2018. Before that, crossdressing for me was a lonely, empty activity, all dressed up but nowhere to go. I had to hide everything I owned in a corner of my room and limited my activity to times few and far between. I so much wanted more, but it was truly impossible to do at the time. Years and years went by with the same old routine; underdressing, waiting for an opportunity to dress, the frustration slowly eating away at me. I so badly wanted to dress, but it was like being in a desert, dying of thirst, but no water available. Despair turned to sadness, and sadness turned to depression.
Then I found a miracle, well it was to me. I found somewhere I could go and be welcomed, and not feel isolated and alone anymore. It was Crossdresser Heaven. I must admit, I was very nervous at first, probably we all were at the beginning, but that was soon replaced by confidence and more importantly, happiness.
So. How does CDH differ from other sites? CDH is not a fetish site; here you have real people with real lives, and a real community offering top notch support, love and the biggie… acceptance! I never had that before; true, I never really tried, but I was sure I was the only one in the world who felt this way and that there was no way I could find a site that would answer the plethora of questions I needed to ask. I like the fact it is not a smutty, sexual site, the members here are loving, supportive and many will go on to become, I have no doubt, true friends of mine, wherever in the world you reside.
How has it changed me as a person? Well for one, it has given me a place to go. It’s like my second home. CDH has become a very important part of my life, as it’s not a fantasy; this is for real, a proper chatroom with real people with real issues, forums with great advice and members always at hand to help you with any problems you might have. I have become at one with myself, contented and satisfied. That in itself was great, but as time went on, I realized it was time to give something back. Now anyone that knows me, will say, I always give, I hate taking and not giving. CDH gave me the confidence to open up and start to talk, and from there I started to post.
At the end of the day, I am nothing special; I am just another crossdressing guy that seeks acceptance and love in what I do. I certainly have received that here, and in a way I do feel kinda special, certainly in the way that I have made friends and finally opened up. The truth is, we are all special here. We are like a family, happy in each others company, something we all strive for in our daily lives. Whether you are rich or poor, your race, color of your skin, it has no bearing, you are loved! And thats the end of it! I only wish society was as accepting.
CDH for me has also achieved another important thing. It has turned me into a more positive person. True, I do have my ups and downs, and I have posted some silly things in the past, saying I’m going etc. Strangely enough, it made me realize just how empty I would be if I did go. Not much chance of that happening! Without talking to other members here, I would not have realized how big the true picture really is. It certainly puts many things into context for me.
Where do I currently stand? Well, I am grateful that at least I have somewhere to go to share experiences, help members and gain and give support. My final goal is to finally meet someone at some point, although I have to say I am incredibly nervous about this! but I am positively sure, it will happen one day.
I hope that CDH has proved to be an important part of your lives too. Its a great place to get away from it all and embrace a positive atmosphere. The only negative is when I log out!
I end this with a gracious thank you to the owners of the site, and the ambassadors for their tireless support and welcoming, and last but not least, the members for making CDH what it is, true heaven! I wish CDH many more happy and productive years ahead 🙂 .
From a very grateful member,
Fiona Moss xxxxxx
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Lovely article Fiona, thanks for sharing.
I felt like you did when I first joined up back in 2015. A little nervous and not sure what I was doing.
But I’m so glad I did, I now have so many amazing sisters and friends !!
Hugs,
Samantha
Hi Samantha. I am so glad you have made many friends, it feels so much better doesn’t it! i’m so glad you enjoyed the article 🙂 xxxx
Hey Fiona! Welcome to the team! I found this site because I saw an ad for a contest for a set of forms. I entered that drawing and didn’t win them -but I won the BIG Prize-I found a home that I had been looking for years-a community of people like me. After years of being isolated and alone, the last three and a half years have been like leaving Kansas and reaching OZ! (Guess that makes Vanessa Glinda the good witch ? Cap’n Di as the scarecrow? Cloe as the tin woman? and I’ll claim the role of the… Read more »
Ohhh Cyn, thats it! ive gone! hanky out! tears of joy though, not sadness 🙂 . i’m totally overwhelmed by all the lovely comments, I really did not expect it at all. Good analogy from the wizard of oz, although i’m not too sure if Di would be happy being the scarecrow! but then maybe youre right! who should be put forward for Dorothy? cant be me, ive no red shoes, and I have blonde hair! 🙂 xxxx
Hi Cynthia. Can I be one of the Flying Monkeys??? I used to be a Flying Fool but they took my Huey away!
Veronica
Anytime you want Dame Veronica! 🙂
I think EVERY member here is Dorothy as we each find our own unique yellow brick road!
Di is the scarecrow cause she has the BRAIN
Beautifully said!
Hi Chrissie. Thankyou for reading my article and appreciating what it had to say 🙂 . xxx
Adding to Fiona’s testimony. (Amen Sister!) this place has been a saving grace. it has helped me be emotionally healthy and has given me an outlet for my feelings that otherwise had to be pent up. Thank you to everyone who started this website.
Hi Olivia, well said! I should have put that in my article! thanks for reading it 🙂 xxx
Love your article Fiona, hit so many of my feelings spot on. I re-read it when I feel a little lost, it’s my compass back home
Oh! Lori, i’m so glad you enjoyed it and that it has given you comfort as well. Thankyou for your kind words xxx
CDH helped me when I needed it most on my gender journey. It provided a safe place to share a part of me I kept repressed for way too long. I would always be thankful for this site for helping me. Even though, I have come to accept that I am a transgender woman. I will always feel that I will always have a safe place to come to whenever I need it.
Hi Jaime. Well said! I feel for many, CDH is a refuge, a place to come where acceptance is paramount and no judgement is passed. xxx
Welcome Fiona. I joined around the same time as you did and also find this community of like minded friends a great retreat. At the moment I haven’t come out yet but will in the near future. That will be a huge change in my life. Will keep everyone posted. Take care for now. Virginia (Ginny) Stately
Hi Ginny, doesn’t time pass quickly when you have fun! the last three months have been a whirlwind of emotions, love and prospects. I wish you well with your coming out. xxx
Hi Fiona,
You are someone special. I really enjoy, appreciate and look forward to your posts and replies. Like you, I revel in this site, CDH. I really miss it when I’m not able to at least login and have a quick glance. It is truly a god send for all the reasons you point to.
And like CDH remember, you too are unique, appreciated and loved for who you are! Fiona or otherwise!
Love and Hugs,
Rebekka!
Hi Rebekka. Youre making me blush! I tell everyone ‘i’m just me’ because thats all I am! but yes Rebekka, I reciprocate all the kind words you say about CDH. Thankyou so much for your heartfelt words 🙂
Wow couldn’t have said it better myself
I really enjoy this site too and for many if the same reasons
I especially enjoy that its not fantasy porn
Hi Stef 🙂 . Thankyou for taking the time to read my article, and yes, you are right in everything you say 🙂 .
This place is very wonderful , don’t know where i would be , or who to talk to with out it. I think being able to talk about whats bothering you is like a therapy , it helps you to relate to who you are. Thanks Fiona , you are a good friend to all here and i always look forward to hearing from you.Love ya , leslie
Hi Leslie. Thats one of the qualities CDH has brought to me and many others, the fact we can talk without fear of judgement and ridicule. Thanks for your very kind words, its so nice to feel appreciated 🙂