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Oh Mia
Im soo glad I read this very powerful and emotion writing. It so sums up my entire existence since being a child. My mind has been constantly wondering the whys, hows, and how do I cope. Constantly shoving this very real part of me to the back burner of my mind. Constantly thinking this will eventually fade away. Am finally coming to grips that this is who I am and love this part of me very very much. Sorry to babble but this was a very powerful letter to read. Thank you soo much for offering this up for us to read and cherish
huggs
Ellie
Ellie 🙂
Thank you so, so much for this beautiful message. You didn’t babble at all: every word you wrote resonated deeply with me. It means the world to know that my letter echoed your own journey… that ache of pushing a part of ourselves away, hoping it might just disappear, only to realize it was never going anywhere, because it is us.
I’m so proud of you for embracing that part of yourself and starting to love her. That’s such a powerful shift, and it takes incredible courage. We’ve spent so long thinking we needed to hide, when all we’ve ever really needed was to feel whole.
Sending you the biggest hug. Thank you for reading it with your heart open.
I see you.
Mia
This is such a beautiful and heartfelt letter. I feel like I am stealing Laura's words but I cannot think of any better to describe this. Its as if you were in my head ( and heart) speaking for me. To say it resonates with me would be the understatement of the century. Thank you so much for sharing this with all of us - you speak for so many of us. The guilt, the longing, the denial and the conflict are all too real. But yes, that girl patiently waits for us no matter how much we try to ignore her.
Thank you so much for this beautiful reply. It means the world to know that my words resonated with you—that something so personal could echo in someone else's heart too.
We can each carry these secret parts of ourselves, convinced we're alone in it… only to discover there's this incredible sisterhood of souls who've felt the same ache, the same guilt, the same quiet hope. Your message reminded me that none of us are truly alone in this, even when it feels like it.
That girl inside us—she does wait so patiently. And maybe, together, we can all help her take those first brave steps into the light.
With gratitude,
Mia
@mialanieri I had not realized you wrote a letter to yourself as well, Mia - right before I did! I guess great minds - or I'm following a great mind! It's an absolutely beautiful sentiment your letter contains, and I think it's such a great way to move down the path towards self-acceptance. I've heard previously that most of us would never be as mean to others as we are to ourselves because if we were, everyone would hate us. It's even harder when we have a side that we're constantly trying to hide, to bury, and - using your word - to delete. To give that side air, a voice, and to hear the beautiful sentiment it has even after years of being beaten down brings a tear to my eye. Thank you for sharing your thoughts!
Amanda, thank you so much for this beautiful reply. Your words really touched me—like a soft echo of exactly what I was feeling when I wrote that letter.
I love what you said about how we’d never treat others the way we treat ourselves. That’s been true for me for so long. I spent years speaking to myself in ways I’d never dream of speaking to someone else, especially the softer, more vulnerable parts of me. I don’t think I even realized how cruel I’d been until I gave that part—her—a chance to speak.
And yes… to hear love and hope coming from a voice I thought I had silenced? That undid me. I cried writing it, and I’m crying again now, reading your response.
Thank you for your kindness, your resonance, and for sharing this path with me. I’m honored to be walking beside hearts like yours.
With love, Mia x
I love this Mia! We’re all walking together, supporting one another through our words and sharing our stories!
Beautiful and heartfelt. Wonderful article. Good luck Mia.
Thank you so much, Catherine—that truly means a lot to me. Your kindness and support are felt deeply. I’m so grateful to be part of a community where hearts like yours shine so brightly.
Wishing you all the best on your journey too.
Mia
Wonderful…thank you ❤️
You shared a very positive message of hope and promise. Thank you.
Thank you so much, Donna.
That truly means a lot to me. If my story can offer even a little hope or encouragement to someone else, then sharing it was more than worth it.
Wishing you peace and joy on your journey, wherever it leads.
–Mia
Fabulous article, thank you Mia. Sadly it took me most of my life to realize this as well, and I also slowly came to the realization that Amy has been with me my whole life. She has been there influencing my actions so often even though I really had no idea at the time what was going on.
I'm so much happier now but I do lament the decades lost in the fear of myself and what the outside world will think.
Amy, thank you so much for sharing that with me. I really felt your words, that quiet, lifelong presence of a part of ourselves we didn’t fully understand at the time... it resonates deeply. I think Mia has been with me all along too, whispering in the background, waiting patiently for me to be ready.
I’m so glad you’ve found happiness now, even if there’s some sadness for the time lost. I feel that too sometimes. But the strength it takes to finally embrace who we are— after everything—is something truly beautiful.
Here’s to both of us walking forward with more joy, more truth, and way less fear. I’m really honored you shared this with me
Mia
Dearest Mia , this is a one of the most awesome wonderful articles !
