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For about as long as I can remember there are two aspects that have been an enduring part of my life. Even though they make strange bed fellows, my fascination with women’s clothes and my love for Jesus Christ have been constant companions to me. I’ve shared some of my thoughts on Christianity and Crossdressing already on this blog, though I feel as though I’ve yet to scratch the surface on such an expansive topic.
I’m blessed that readers of Crossdresser Heaven are from all walks of life, of different nationalities, races and creeds. In particular I know that many of you don’t ascribe to the Christian faith. You may be of another faith, or you may have been treated poorly in the past by those claiming the true knowledge of Christianity. I realize that at the mention of Jesus you may be tempted to leave and never come back. I understand how you feel.
I assure you that both Vicki and myself welcome contrary thoughts and opinions – even if we disagree it’s our sharing and conversation that will shape us into more informed, more compassionate people. In particular I welcome those of other faiths who would like to share their trails and breakthroughs. I know that will be a blessing to many, and encourage you to use the comment section liberally (if you’ll pardon the pun…). If you’re still not convinced then at least stay for the crossdressing tips and crossdresser success stories 🙂
Okay, I’m almost done with the long introduction.
It’s with great pleasure that I introduce you to the first official columnist on Crossdresser Heaven. A sincere and loving Christian lady who has offered to share her inspired (and sometimes verbose 🙂 ) thoughts on Crossdressing and Christianity. She will be sharing her thoughts on a regular basis in her new column Vicki's Inspirations for Crossdressing Christians. Look for them right here on Sunday mornings and I’m sure that her words will be a blessing to you.
Meet Vicki – A Christian Crossdresser and Our Newest Columnist
When Vanessa asked me if I wanted to try and write a regular column for Crossdresser Heaven, I knew right away that I had to. For a couple of years now, I have felt that God has been calling me to serve Him in some way to the crossdresser community. Well, the call is much larger than that, to encompass not only CD’s but also any and all in the LGBTG world. I feel strongly that God may even be asking me to explore becoming a Pastor and then utilizing that to help serve those needs. But right now, I am doing a lot of discerning prayer, and exploring Scripture, current Christian thought and journals, and asking others to pray for me that the way might become clear. I am also maintaining a prayer journal, that may contain seeds for a future book, or maybe future sermons. Who knows, while the end is still a little bit off in the distance, I feel firmly that the path I am now on is the right one.
Out of those journals I had shared a meditation I had done, with Vanessa, and asked her to either post it for me, or help me with getting it on my own blog. She immediately offered me the chance to write this column. It seemed that God had opened another mile of the path and I wholeheartedly agreed to commit to this. GULP, as they say. But I know in my heart that there is a need for CD’s and our LG and B as well as TG brothers and sisters to hear that God not only loves us as we are, but wants us to use our unique talents and perspectives to help others in His world. So I begin this endeavor, not sure where it may end, but firm in the belief that God does have Her hand in this and that God’s Will be done.
So now a brief bio and it is hard to know what to leave in and what to leave out. I’ve been told that I may be a bit verbose and must adjust my style for the typical blog reader’s attention span, myself included in that company. I’ll try. I’ve been dressing since I was 13 and to say why would require more space than I have here. Hopefully in my columns more of my personal story and how I got here will emerge. I am now 53 and the divorced father of two wonderful young men, who are not aware of their father’s other side, or if they are, choose not to bring it up. I think if you ask my ex wife and myself we’d both say that the dressing was not the primary cause of our marital difficulties, but in my refusal to give it up and her genuine distaste for it, were symptoms of some deeper issues in the marriage that probably would have led us to some quietly bitter and unfulfilled years together in old age. At this point I would also say we both would agree, we are both better for the breakup. I am now with a woman that not only loves me for who I am, but encourages me, helps me with dressing, makeup, deportment and other feminine mysteries, and quite honestly without whose help, I would not be where I am today, starting this column, and excited for the possibilities of living out life as my complete self.
So how am I doing on space Vanessa? [Ed: I think our combined verbosity used up all the allotted space for this article two paragraphs ago 🙂 ] OK, quickly, I have a Bachelor’s degree in History from the University of Washington and have done some post grad work, but that was years ago. I live in Seattle, though as of yet, Vanessa and I have not met face to face. I work full time in drab and devote whatever free time I have to dressing and exploring my Spiritual path and now writing about it. I am a lifetime Lutheran but am currently between church homes. I am excited to be beginning this and pray that comfort be given, that I make some new friends and acquaintances, and this. In other churches that I have been a member, I led the occasional Bible Study and assisted in a new member program by facilitating small group discussions around Scripture. Despite the fact that I was the nominal leader, it never failed to amaze me that I took so much more from others than I ever brought to the table. I hope it is the same here, I invite discussion, I invite questions and criticisms, and I invite us to share our joys, our sorrows, our hidden from all but God concerns, so that we may learn and grow, but mostly so that we can lift each other up in prayer. I have found that one of the greatest privileges of my life is to be able to pray for another child of God.
In Christ’s Name
Vicki
Vicki and Vanessa,
Thank you, thank you and thank you again. This post was badly needed by me today and I look forward to reading Vicki's thoughts on a regular basis.
There are times that I feel very much alone in the Christian world. Vanessa's occasional posts have been great. I am highly committed to my faith but must keep my desire and need to crossdress hidden both from my family and my Christian brothers and sisters. These are wonderful folks that I care about but they would not understand what I do nor will they be accepting if they did know. This is hard for me because I care deeply for my church family and my own spouse and grown kids.
It always helps to know that there are those like myself who have been down the road ahead of me. Your insights will be a blessing!
LeeLee
LeeLee, it's wonderful to hear from you. I look forward to hearing your thoughts as the discussion about Christianity and Crossdressing continues. In my heart I know that God never meant for His laws and sacrifice to bring such pain. I'm too am looking forward to Vicki's columns and the discussions they motivate.
Hugs,
Vanessa
I also welcome the unification of spirituality with crossdressing. I have begun to feel more and more that the shame and guilt we have been made to feel over the years had more to do with the misinterpretation of people than the true will of God regarding this activity. I think like with anything else you need to have balance in your life and not let any one thing take over it. In other words let common sense and love for your fellow beings and God be your guide..
Joanna
LeeLee and Joanna
Thank you for taking the time to comment on our little start up column here. I think that if these are the only two comments we get then that is reason enough to continue. Both Vanessa and I believe though that there are so many more out there who need to hear that God loves's us and made us this way for a reason and that nothing can separate us from the love of God. Oops is that giving away future columns? God bless you both and all who have read, and will read. You are both now in my prayers.
Vicki
Hi Vicky,
This is a welcome topic. I feel, from your brief bio, that I can relate to you. At least in regard to how you interact with the body of believers around you.
I have been dressing consistently for about 12 years. My wife of 10 years doesn't know and would not understand (as is the case for most Christian CD's I imagine). I have a lot of questions about what God says in His word about men wearing womens clothes as well as the guilt about feeling so very sexy in my outfits. I'm not trying to take this is a perverted way, I'm just being honest.
I'm definately looking forward to more of your posts in the future.
Kallie
Hi Kallie
I don't like to leave folks wondering about whether I'll respond to them or not. So I will read every comment and at least say a thank you. I hope you can be patient as most of my responses will be made in future columns. Of course if it seems like a hot topic, then I will gladly join in the discussion. For now, trust me, I've been there but in the end, God is good and what He makes is also good, and He made you. I and others will be praying for you. So thank you for reading, for commenting and bottom line, God loves you for who you are.
In His Name
Vicki
I LOVE all you ladies!
I have just recently accepted my CD side as a true part of my life. I have been a Christian for most of my life (except for a downward spiral during my 20's) and have been secretly CD'ing for almost as long as well. I just recently started medication to help some mental disorders I have. That has opened me to the joy that life is instead of the fog of sadness I lived in for almost 20 years.
I have realized that my CD side may be my cure to pornography for me. How can I disrespect the beautiful women I aspire to look like by lusting after them? They are God's beautiful girls, and I love them. I love myself now that I feel better inside & have accepted Daniela as part of me. I just got done praying (1st in a long time for me) thanking God for my life and his Grace. I was laying in bed in women's sleepwear smiling ear to ear and just glorifying God.
Thank you all and keep being beautiful!!
Dani
Wonderful to hear Daniela, it's a blessing that you're worshiping God for all the gifts He gave you, even if some are ... unorthodox 🙂
I happened onto this wonderful website a couple days ago, I am hooked. I greatly appreciate the time and effort you ladies put forth to do such a thing. I will keep you all in my prayers.
For the past four years I have been doing a lot of Bible study and research into transgenderism trying to find a way to hold onto my Christianity while being transgender. What Vicki wrote here really connected with me. I am trying to sort out my life to move forward in a way I can actually have love for myself as God made me. I have hated the person I am for so long it finally came to a point I had to do something. Living a life of lies and deceit grew to the point it wasn't bearable any longer. I am so happy I turned to God. I am finding there was never really any reason to feel so ashamed and condemned. I am now feeling much better in my relationship with God. I am looking forward to the day I attend church in a pretty dress before God in total truth of who God created me to be.
In my research I come to realize it is all about love. God's love for me. My love for God, that pushed me to seek Him. My new found self acceptance, love of self. And how my new love of self allows me to love and appreciate others for who they are. I have been away from my church for quite a few years now. I grew up a LCMS Lutheran so this is part of the connection I felt as I read this article. In my study I have come across a few things where I am in disagreement with the LCMS church. I am currently looking for a church where I can feel comfortable and accepted as my true self.
I found comfort in listening to Joyce Meyer and reading a few of her books. I also subscribed to the Girlfriends In God daily devotionals and found them to be of great use. Now I can add your writings to this list. It is so wonderful to have like minded souls sharing their connection with God. I too feel God calling me to do His work in the LGBT community.
Keep up the good work ladies, God's work, and know you are cherished and in my prayers. God bless you all.
Your Sister in Christ, Velvet Kay
Thanks for stopping by Velvet, it's wonderful to have you as part of our community!
You are a beautiful, wonderful and loved human being - please never forget that!
Thank You!
Looks like I have a lot of reading up to do...... every article has so much substance and starts a chain reaction..... btu i am going to catch up with the current blogs...
Vera Jane
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Thankyou,I have been reading these articles for three hours now,because I like crossdressing ,and have been mostly away from it
for more than a year
At work before I retired from the railroad,no one knew about my desires to xdress. I am a Xdresser which means sometimes I dress as a woman,95. Percent as a male
I feel comfortable and maybe some what passable as a female when I go to a club or party,I would not pass at church,too brightly lit
So I don't go to church as a woman.im not trying to fool Christ or God
When I do some church work I do it as a man
I am also alcoholic so I go to AA for my recovery.
We have AA parties around Haloween so I do get dressed up for those. That's how I work life and I'm sticking to it.thankyou
