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Years ago Wife kind of hinted that she suspected, but stated whatever was going on, I should make damn sure I'm discreet enough so she never hears of it. We both hint at it now and then, and when she saw a 3-pack of panties listed on the receipt with my new jeans I had no response. I've been tempted once or twice to spill it, but I know that's a bell that can't be unrung.
The witch has taken over me. I've decided I don't want to bear the burden of hiding the witch.
My wife discovered some of my clothes a while ago, and we talked, and the purge began.
She came back stronger, and now I'm not planning on purging. We've been very angry. I've told her I have things to do, I'm thinking about taking hormones, and I haven't even seen makeup yet.
I know that by taking small steps I can calm the witch and not think about going that far. Right now, I'd drop everything and be Carla 100%. We also lack a relationship and sincerity in our marriage. I can't stand cheating on my wife.
We've decided to give ourselves a second chance, talk to each other more, and be more proactive. But we got off to a bad start; she hasn't wanted to establish how the witch appears in our relationship. And now it's something very important to me. The witch has all the cards to win.
A kiss 💋 to all
This is the biggest thing holding me back from fully diving into dressing every day, and even more holding me back from saving the money for the tip surgery that would greatly increase my happiness and men l mental state, I have to keep that side hidden from my job. While my SO is getting more confidante the thought she could decide she no longer is comfortable with me continuing my journey, is always there nagging at me... how easy she could say she was done... it's a big worry
So well said and true:
"But in that dark-side place, that no-man’s-land of worry, you constantly wonder, is there a metaphorical bullet with your name on it? And it eats you up. Stealthy is unhealthy, you'd best never forget."
Thank you for your essay and insights, much of it all too familiar. Wishing you all the best.