It's a Start...or is it?

Sabrina,
Your article hit home with me. I feel the exact same way almost all the time. Gender fluid? Is that what I am? Could be...my journey is just beginning, even as I get closer to the finish line. I battle against what "they" say my life should vs what I WANT my life to be. Also I think it's not a choice, it's how we are made. But the awareness took long to come to the present. And present is all we have everyday.
Again, thanks for sharing. One day we'll grow up and BOOM, we're doing what we love.
Peace and love,
JaiymeLynne

Wow! I just exhaled fully for the first time in months. This article hit me over the head and brought me to the realization that this is me. Everything the author wrote is exactly what and how I feel. At 57, I have been trying to blur the lines between male and female more and more. Crossdressing on and off since my teen years, my feminine side has been pushing harder and harder to break out. I have been lingering in the Pink Fog for years. My sexuality has become so confusing, sometimes even I don't recognize myself. I don't know who I am anymore, but I am searching for acceptance of both my sides in a relationship that won't allow it. Do I want to lose family members? No. Friends come and go, so that is what it is.
In a direct quote from the author, "Somewhere along the way, the inward looking became more of a search for understanding and acceptance, and recently an acknowledgement that I’m neither male nor female, and I don’t know which one I want to be. I’m not sure if I would find the elusive contentment by undergoing physical and chemical alterations—would they just shift my perspectives—and anxieties?"
Someday a choice will be made, and I'll have to live with it, that will push me in the direction I belong. Until then, the search will continue. Thank you for reading this.
Marlie