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Hi Robyn,
I’ve been journaling since seventh grade when my English teacher suggested it after I began writing short stories I read weekly in class. My journals are private thoughts I’ve harbored that document every significant cross-dressing experience. Many of these entries included times when I dressed in my immediate family and some of my relatives’ clothes in my youth. There were exciting times that I wrote about as a teen when I also dressed with some of my friends. Like many, I went through a slow period of a few years when I was dating that seemed to push my desire to dress somewhere deep in my subconscious. I even included those two times when I swore to give up cross-dressing forever, purging everything to start a new life.
After I married, I started secretly dressing again and chronicling the times I wore my new bride’s clothes. I especially enjoy re-reading an entry the night I came clean and told my wife I enjoyed wearing her lingerie. It’s funny how you think you remember how things unfolded, only to find the written truth more interesting. I also journaled (and photographed) the many items I bought over the years and what it felt like to wear authentic vintage lingerie and extravagant dresses from the 1940s and 1950s, which became my obsessive hobby.
Eventually, my journals filled three large volumes, and I was haunted by the fear of others finding and reading them. Luckily, in the 1990s, optical character recognition technology allowed me to scan those handwritten entries to hide nearly 300 typewritten 8 1/2 x 11-inch pages on 3 1/2-inch floppy drives. Of course, today, they reside on tiny conventional thumb drives.
Gosh, the stories my journaling could tell. Re-reading some of those experiences today seems unbelievable, but they really did happen in my life so many years ago. If my house were to catch fire, my wife, pets, and that little encrypted thumb drive are among the first items I would rescue.
Lisa Ann
@lisadouglas I can certainly relate. Thank you for sharing that bit of your history and the connection to writing.
Robyn
I don't journal but at the end of 2023 I stepped on the scales and told myself it's time to lose the weight. So for the next few weeks I kept a record of everything I ate, the time and why I felt like eating those things. The record allowed me to finally see why I was overeating. I used that to make dramatic changes in how I approached food. I lost 6 dress sizes and a lot of weight. I don't think I would have been successful had I not recorded everything. I do see how journaling can be helpful but I don't have the patience to do that.
