My Escape

Thank you for sharing! I can completely relate. Being Jen is both a part of me and an escape. When I can freely go between my male life and my femme life it helps me feel balanced. It's taken a number of years for me to finally accept this. Unfortunately, since my secret is no longer a secret, I no longer get to have that release. I've lost that sense of balance when forced to be "manly" 24/7. I, too feel like a better version of myself when immersed as Jen. I feel bolder, braver, kinder, and more beautiful when en femme.

Jen

Hi April, Thank you for a very well written heartfelt article.
You have touched my heart with your words.
Enjoy April and rejoice.
-Terri Anne

Hello I’m new here and am looking forward to meeting you

I can relate to how important it is to be able to have that calming escape. Many years ago I went through seriously tumultuous events. I was outsourced from my job of 23 years and divorced shortly thereafter after 22 years of marriage. It felt as if my entire world was crumbling.

Although Tricia was at that time unnamed, her calming influence helped carry me through that dark period. I really don’t know if I could have made it with my sanity intact.

When everything settled down, I really was thankful to have that calming escape of my second self and she even gave me confidence to move forward into my current relationship with my wife. My life is now the best it’s been. The only thing I need to try to overcome is to let my wife know about Tricia someday. But she is still thriving even if hidden!

You know I am kind of a little guy. I have even gotten smaller lately as I like wearing hot young miss clothing. When i dress the femail in me is more attitude than looks. As a woman I have more power. I have men calling me honey and sweetie and opening doors for me. The same guys that would look down at me as less than their idea of a man.

So not all men like me but some do and I make them all respect me. I hear a man laugh to me and I confront them. So it has been only African that made fun of me so I know exactly what to say to the in regard to being different and a minority. I also tell them is that most of us sissies have no choice in the matter. Several men have lost their wife over it. I just lost a girl friend of 8 years mydelf. She will say it is because I am the F word or the B word. I was already leaving her before Brandy come out because she is a mean person. On facebook she made friends just so she could use shaming me in front of the as a manipulation too. I could tell the first time she seen me completely dressed that she was going to tell everyone no matter what I did. And it was true. She went on facebook and talked about all she knew and took license wear she didn't. She talked about me shaving my whole body, leaving a landing strip dow there she talked about me constantly stealing clothes from her4 and that I run arould our neighborhood.in daisy dukes (short shorts for our non American friends. She went on about the gay sex although I had not had any while 5we wore togeher. Our fights got worse and worse. Sometimes the fight takes on a life of its own and although we both wanted to get back together at one time or another we never both wanted it at the same time. But we had issues long before Brandy come out. That is a ver funny story I will tell on my own thread. The on thing we seem to have is our love of being girls. I use the ladies room any place I know for sure there are no children. I dont like to expose children personally but dont hold against others as long as they follow the rules of common decency

Enjoy your one life girls

Hi April......that was a lovely story about yourself. April sounds like a great girl and I would like to hear more about her new life and adventures! Wishing you all the happiness you can find, sweetie. Go for it girl.

Lady Veronica

Hello April,
Thank you for sharing your story with me. I too need to escape into Samantha even if only for a little while. I repressed her for too long and am now just truly coming to terms with who we both are. This gives me hope that I can find a better balance for myself.

Love,
Samantha

I know how you feel , I started since I was eight years old , mine started from unconditional love of a sibling of my older sister she had a stroke when she was a baby and my father and mother gave her more attention than me and order to get that attention is to dress like a girl just to be loved by a parent , And now I'm older now, And I still depend on stephaine to help me from my depression and the stress from broken marriage and the last time I seen my son since he was six years old and now he's nine years old and even today I still don't know what he likes or what he eats. I really enjoy having stehpaine in my life and if I didn't I would hung myself in the family tree , I love her so much and when she looks out my eyes she make everything more beautiful and brings everything make more since in my life,her touch to my skin makes me feel like I'm touching her instead of myself, all women are very beautiful in many ways, I have study my wife for 20 years and learn how to dress and put on make up and even learn their emotional woman things and how they tick from the good to the bad, I'd like the bad because she dressed very fetish, she went from dress pants to slutty tramp. I just don't like unhappy people that have a judgemental attitude , I always tell them don't judge a book by its cover get to know them before you judge them . love sissygirl.1969@gmail.com

April,
Do not give up on being who makes you happy! I know how you feel and being Joanna just makes my life less painful ! Joanna needs friends like you and would love to met and go shopping sometime!
Love,
Joanna

I know that feeling so well.