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🌟 Staff Spotlight: Meet Allie, Assistant Managing Ambassador, Video 🌟

Allie · 2025-05-09T12:00:56Z

Hi! I’m Allie. I have just recently been appointed Managing Ambassador, Video. I will be responsible for creating, curating and leading the video section on CDH. You may be more familiar with my welcomes to new members. This was one part of my role and responsibilities here as a Forums Ambassador, and I’ll continue to do that. I also make contributions to forum topics and I've written a few articles. Behind the scenes, I’m one of the staff who help to keep CDH the safe and family-friendly place it is, by screening applications from potential new members, and gently (more or less) advising those that seek what we don’t offer, to look elsewhere. I also read through forum posts to ensure that our rules and guidelines are adhered to, and I'm involved in other projects and initiatives. These include helping to plan our CDH@LFF event on the first Friday of August, at which I’ll be one of the “Big Sisters”. I found and joined CDH in January 2024. Such is the change in me, I now see my life as divided into ‘Before CDH’ and ‘Since CDH’. My earliest memory of crossdressing is at age 10 or 11-ish, being fascinated by nylon stockings, not necessarily adorning legs. I was drawn to the sheer, flimsy fabric. They were nothing like my male socks. One late afternoon, returning home after school while Mum was at work (this was in 1965, when it was deemed safe for ten-year-old boys to be home alone for a couple of hours, at least where I lived), curiosity saw me take off a sock and put on one of her nylons. The other sock was quickly removed as well, and I discovered the addictive swish as I crossed my legs, like I’d seen Mum and other women do. The next 60 years saw me follow a common path, furtively taking opportunities to do what I could, when I could, feeling wrong and right at the same time, and not really understanding why. I mentioned “addictive”. That’s what it felt like, something beyond my control. I often wished that I could be done with it and just be “normal”, like everyone else. Since my late teens, I have suffered from depressive episodes - sometimes triggered by unfortunate events, sometimes for no apparent reason. I sought medical help more than twice and took anti-depressants for around ten years. I even got referred to a psychologist, who had one hand tied behind his back on my case, since I told him nothing about “my secret”. I tried going “cold turkey” and just stopping taking the tablets. It was three times before I managed to stick it out long enough to break the habit. Thanks to Mum’s belief in alternative treatments (I will never drink cabbage water again!), I tried St John’s Wort and found that it worked as well as any prescribed pharmaceuticals. One evening in late 2023, about nine or ten years after the last time I had crossdressed, my wife was out somewhere - I can’t remember where, but that’s not important right now. Out of nowhere came the idea to try on a dress again. Luckily, my wife has a few of what are now called Boho-style dresses, loose and easy for me to get into. Once I was wearing one, I thought “a necklace might be nice with this” - so I picked one from her jewellery box and put it on. I nearly cried as I looked in the mirror and, for the first time ever, saw myself. A different me, one who recognised the woman looking back. For the next couple of hours, I just sat in the living room watching something on the television - it doesn’t matter what - I just felt so at peace and right. Of course, I had to put it all away before my wife came home. I thought I’d done a fair job until she said, within a minute of arriving, “What have you been in my jewellery box for?” I didn’t make up an excuse; I told her to sit down and that I had something to talk to her about. She sat and listened while I opened up honestly about this secret that I’d carried for so long, and how something felt very different that night. After she'd asked me if I was gay or bi, did I want to be a woman, and was there anything else I’d been keeping secret, she said, “Oh, is that all? You’ll have to get your own stuff, ‘cos you’ll just damage mine”. The next month or so was spent - and I mean spent! - acquiring clothes, lingerie and shoes. I’ve kept very little of this, to the benefit of the local charity shops, and any crossdressers that may have spotted the size 11 heels and XL dresses. Thanks to the acceptance and support of my wife, I was finally beginning to understand that there is a female part of me, so I decided to look for an online forum for crossdressers. I wonder how many crossdressers have looked into first few search results typically returned, and thought, “If that’s me, I want no part of it”, and slunk back into hiding? I was about to do exactly that, when I saw Crossdresser Heaven, and thought, “one last try”. I didn’t even spend much time looking through the site. Something just felt right about it and I signed up. I could stop here and say that the rest is history, but ...

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Fran LaRosa

Ambassador

May 11, 2025 11:48 am

(@gafran)

Famed Member Warner Robins, Georgia, United States of America

Joined: 1 year ago

Lights, camera Allie!
Video Queen and Gaurdian of the CDH Pink Fog Girls!
Congratulations!
Thank you for your hardwork and dedication!
Fran 🥰

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Allie

Managing Ambassador

(@alexina)

Joined: 1 year ago

Illustrious Member Fife, United Kingdom

Posts: 2795

May 11, 2025 12:02 pm

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Fran LaRosa

@gafran

Ha ha! Thanks, Fran, I'll do my best 👍

Allie x

Fran LaRosa

Ambassador

(@gafran)

Joined: 1 year ago

Famed Member Warner Robins, Georgia, United States of America

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May 11, 2025 12:20 pm

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Allie

@alexina

Your welcome, Allie

I have no doubts in your abilities! 🥰

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Jeanette Pour

Duchess Annual

May 11, 2025 3:55 pm

(@fashionforever)

Active Member Troy, Ohio, United States of America

Joined: 2 years ago

Congratulations on your new position . Looking forward to seeing your work . Your personal story was good to read and I am glad for you being able to be who you are .
Jeanette

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Allie

Managing Ambassador

(@alexina)

Joined: 1 year ago

Illustrious Member Fife, United Kingdom

Posts: 2795

May 12, 2025 12:13 am

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Jeanette Pour

@fashionforever

Thanks, Jeanette, love your username!

Yes, I also love being able to be my authentic self.

Allie x

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Shawna Mackenzie

Princess Annual

May 11, 2025 4:49 pm

(@highcountrygirl)

Honorable Member Colorado, United States of America

Joined: 4 months ago

Thank you, Allie! I love getting to know my sisters here on CDH!
XO Shawna

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Allie

Managing Ambassador

(@alexina)

Joined: 1 year ago

Illustrious Member Fife, United Kingdom

Posts: 2795

May 12, 2025 12:16 am

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Shawna Mackenzie

@highcountrygirl

Thank you, Shawna. Yes, it's a great community and I love that geographical distance means nothing when we can share stuff so easily.

Allie x

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Christine Thomas

Lady

May 12, 2025 11:35 pm

(@christineth)

Noble Member Brussels, Brabant, Belgium

Joined: 3 years ago

Hey Allie, congratulations on your new role. Wishing you great success. I and, I am sure, all the other girls really appreciate your work and efforts in making CDH the great site that it is and for creating such a wonderful community spirit. Hugs Christine

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Allie

Managing Ambassador

(@alexina)

Joined: 1 year ago

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Posts: 2795

May 14, 2025 12:39 am

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Christine Thomas

Thank you, Christine, for your congratulations, and your lovely comment. It's a pleasure to do what I do, I benefit from it as well.
Hugs back.
Allie x

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Dawn Jensen

Ambassador

May 13, 2025 8:40 pm

(@beach-girl)

Prominent Member Florida, United States of America

Joined: 8 years ago

Similar story, Allie.

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Allie

Managing Ambassador

(@alexina)

Joined: 1 year ago

Illustrious Member Fife, United Kingdom

Posts: 2795

May 14, 2025 12:43 am

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Dawn Jensen

Thanks, Dawn. I see lots of similar stories here and, after feeling alone for most of my life, it's wonderful to feel part of this family.

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Alli Katz

Lady

May 22, 2025 2:20 am

(@sunnyday)

Reputable Member Oxford, Oxfordshire, United Kingdom

Joined: 2 years ago

You'rs looking very nicely co-ordinated Allie.

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Allie

Managing Ambassador

(@alexina)

Joined: 1 year ago

Illustrious Member Fife, United Kingdom

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May 22, 2025 8:43 am

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Alli Katz

@sunnyday

Thanks, other Alli (ok, but spelt differently). I've been spending time...er, a lot of time, thinking about putting different outfits together, it's great fun.

I'll have to get rid of more unused male clothes, my wardrobe is very busy now 🙄.