The Long Game

Since my first article, not much has changed between my wife and me. She is still accepting but not overly supportive. I am allowed to get dressed up each evening for a couple of hours after the kids go to bed. As I work from home on Fridays, I get to have 6 hours dressed while the kids are at School. However, I desire to have more time dressed as Sarah. Like most of us here, I really want to take Sarah out in the public domain.

However, as much as I want to do more I am willing to bide my time for a couple of reasons.

- I need my wife’s acceptance in allowing me to go further with my crossdressing. I need her to understand the reasons as to why I feel this way. She needs to come to terms in her own time. One thing I have learned about my wife, over the last 11 years, is that she can be quick to say “No” to something at first, but later on she’ll come back with a compromise or better.

- Because I need my wife to be accepting I know I have time to work on my look. I recently purchased two new wigs. My wife gave me an unimpressed look when I told her about my purchase. I wear them each night now. I’ve also not dabbled in makeup yet; this is something I really want to try before I step out as Sarah.

She also knows something is up. I brought two handbags, which she saw, and then asked me, “ Where do you want to go?”

“ Nowhere!!” was my reply. It’s a half-truth as I wanted them as an accessory for photos. It was also in the back of my mind, because when I did go out as Sarah the last time it was difficult holding my phone and car keys. It made me realise that a handbag is an important accessory.

I’d ventured out in public wearing a facemask. Although I could do this again, it is now not the norm in New Zealand as we have been Covid Free for quite a long time now.

So, I am playing the long game with the goal of eventually heading out into the public arena as Sarah. I use CDH as a learning tool, reading as many articles about as many topics as possible. I find that learning about everyone else’s experiences is helping to tame my frustration at not being able to do more now. Reading all the articles helped my confidence, even before Sarah had a chance to become he true self.

Thank you to all of you that write about your experiences and offer your opinions. Even when I don’t agree with something, reading it allows me to absorb different points of view and adapt my own thinking. Eventually, it will help me blend in better when I do get the chance to venture out.

Keep them coming ladies. I know by the comments posted on each article that we are all in this together. Anything we can do to help each other is so important, no matter how early or far along we are with our crossdressing.