Those From Our Past

The past, not any past, but your past. Was there someone who knew about you, and totally disapproved. Told you negative things about you or even things that were not very nice. The things such as you need counseling, or even left you because you are the way you are. Maybe even got angry with you because you are such a girl. Maybe you even went through a few ladies because no one accepted you for the person that is you.

Such ladies in my life made statement as “it’s just a bad habit”, or another stated how I needed counseling. Maybe there were those ladies who mentioned how it was against all the laws of nature, and even God. Once a family member told me boys, part their hair on the left, and girls on the right. One of my girlfriends even told me how a woman got very ill from the dye of pantyhose because the woman didn’t wear panty’s when she wore pantyhose. I started wearing panties with pantyhose. Yep, she still wasn’t happy. One woman told me “no one would want me this way, and my only option was to be with her.” Where do they get this stuff?

All in all, the total sum of these experiences was what helped me make the decision to just be honest with myself and others because the worry of it all was just too stressful. We are who we are. Those women didn’t and wouldn’t change so why should they expect a person to change. Can we truly help that when we see a cute pair of heels we get excited? The next thought we have is simple, do they have them in my size? These are real thoughts are they not? So, what’s the problem?

Years ago, at a family dinner this aunt was talking about man who was dressed as a woman while waiting for a bus. She went into great detail about the dress, heels, hose, and how he even had a purse. She just wouldn’t let up on the subject. The man wasn’t bothering anyone. Everyone had something negative to say of someone they didn’t know or see. I just sat there eating my dinner in my Sunday best with my panties, and pantyhose on underneath my pants. Surely many of us have had similar experience such as this. What would you say now to anyone from your past about yourself?

Many of us are in a different place now. Let’s say a better place. Would you say “yes, the nylons drying in the bathroom are mine”. What is wrong with pierced ears? Earrings are nice to wear. Maybe you’d tell someone they need a lesson on how to walk in high-heels. Just because you’re a girl doesn’t mean you know how to be in heels.

We probably have these stories in our memories from the past. What are your stories? My mother did not like this part of me and let me know when I told her. She got very angry. Years later as a grown adult she made a comment how young ladies wore flats, or sneakers to the office and changed into heels once in the office because you can’t always walk a long distance in heels. My response was simple. I know mother, but heels are so much prettier, and fun. Then we had some great girl talk. Love you mom.

Thank you girls for taking the time to read my story! I look forward to your comments regarding my story!

Sincerely, Patricia