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This past February, I wanted to try something new and up my crossdressing to another stage, but with any crossdressing session that I get to have, I need to be careful and wait for my house to go to sleep. It's my secret from my family and I want to keep it that way.
I waited till about 11pm when everyone was in bed or will not bother me. First, I got all dolled up in full makeup to go with the outfit I'd picked out. I went with a shadowy eye look, also a new first for me, which I found by following a YouTube video. I added a fair amount of blush to bring out my cheek bones and applied some red lipstick. It helps to take the focus off my masculine features and bring out my female appearance. I think with the right light and angle, I can be very convincing.
Once my makeup was sorted, I got dressed in my black tights and black and red 4inch stiletto heels, a short tight black pencil skirt, and my favorite top that shows some cleavage. In pictures, I can make it look quite convincing that I have real breasts. I wear a short, light brown curly-haired wig over my own real hair, which is longer. The styling of the wig is better at bringing out my inner-female.
On this night, I wanted to go a bit further and try something new. After some advice and tips from others on Crossdresser Heaven, which helped a lot, I went online and ordered some nail glue and false nails—not too long; I wanted to see how it felt to have longer nails. I decided to buy them in a dark-red, which went great with my makeup and many of my outfits. I think that red and dark colors go well with my complexion, too. It was the first time and I was very excited, also scared, but I didn't let that stop me. I enjoyed every second of putting them on and wearing them.
The feeling of having long nails made me feel more feminine; I'm so glad I gave it a go. I stayed done up all night and into the early morning hours. I chatted with other ladies on this site till nearly 5 am. It was fun learning to type with long nails and also tapping on the side. It made me smile and giggle; a reminder of how much I enjoy doing these things and feeling feminine.
I searched out and joined Crossdresser Heaven because I was struggling with issues and thoughts about my life and crossdressing. I came to this site for help, advice, and a safe place to be me, which is exactly what I found. I'm so glad to have found this place as it's helped me so much.
My night was also a bit scary. I felt so comfortable, and my mind was so calm that I actually fell asleep all done up. The sleeping part was good; I needed sleep. It's hard to calm my head, but when I awoke, everyone in the house was up and moving about, less than a meter away. I was lucky that no one came in, normally they can be quite intrusive, but they didn't. I managed to change and remove my makeup before anyone caught me. As scary as it was, it was also fun and exhilarating. This is a picture from that night.
Bethany
Looking great, girlfriend!!
Hi Bethany,
I'm really glad you had such a good time and you look very nice.
My wife knows of my cross dressing and I dress sometimes when she's up.but sometime its fun to wait till after every ones asleep and go to the basement and try on cloths and shoes.
I would love so much to try those nails all day.
Than you so much for sharing I really enjoyed.
Patty
Congrats Bethany on venturing outside your comfort zone a bit. The more you do it the easier it gets. Take it from someone who started out terrified to leave my room and now has flown cross country in full Cyn mode! Thanks for sharing your story -I know it will encourage others to do things they had only dreamed of before too.
Cyn
Beth you look great 🙂
you look great. you should not hide it instead show it off
Hey bethany, congrats girl.
Wow, you look amazing girl. Its a shame that your not ready to share Bethany with the wider world, but maybe in time. I'm shy about it myself but am beginning to realise that most people aren't as bothered about it as I once thought.
Jessica x
You look terrific. Congrats on your experience.
You look wonderful ! People like you are an inspiration to me !
Your flawless baby girl cant wait till you dont have to hide it xoxoxox
Hi Bethany, you look great, and are totally passable. I too have to hide what I do. I went out for the first time yesterday, have you ventured out side to let the world meet Bethany?
Keep at it!
Hi Bethany You look both cute and very pretty. Its sounds like you had a wonderful exciting night. It is always exciting when you get to express the fem side of you. It even better when you can express it with other girls like you. I wished this technology was available when i first started cross dressing, Maybe i there would of been less guilt and shame associated with expressing how i felt. There is one thing about mothers they will always love you no matter what clothes you decide to wear. They know more than you think. My mom found me in my sisters night gown early one morning and ask me what was i thinking and to hurry and get out of those clothes before my father woke up and saw me. She was a little mad and scared at the same time. We did not talk about it. She did all the talking.She told me that only sissy boys wore girls clothes and you would not want to be considered a sissy boy. So just stop it. i understand now what she was saying. She really did not know how to handle it. She did not want any harm to come to me and she knew how society treated people like us. What she did not understand is how much shame and guilt she made me feel when ever I even thought about wearing girls clothes. Her words to me that morning impacted me for the rest of my life. I did not want to be considered a sissy boy. This is a few things i have learned along the way. You defiantly are not alone as you have found out here. There is nothing wrong about wanting to express a special part of you that identifies with the female gender.Every one wants to express how they feel. That is very natural and it feels good when you do. Most of society does not understand why and most of us want to understand it also. Maybe one day there will be a answer that society will accept that should not prevent you from accepting your self today. The important thing is to be true to your self. In other words be honest with your self that will allow you to be honest with others who love you and those you love. You are among friends that truly understand what it is like to want to express themselves in the gender they identify with. Not the sex they were born
Luv Stephanie
