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Since I was 11 years old, I have wondered why I wasn't born a girl. It was more than that, actually; I wanted to be a girl. Sadly, of course, I had the wrong plumbing, and to make matters worse, I began having these desires in 1940, just as the U.S. was gearing up for World War II. It was an era in which boys had to be boys and gear themselves to eventually go fight a nasty war. It was no time for a boy to be anything but manly. Why, I wondered then, did I desire to dress as a girl?
I was able to venture a few times into the attic where I sneaked into some of mom's skirts and dresses. There I discovered how truly girlish I could look, due largely to my slender, softish arms and my pretty legs (according to some snide remarks I had heard when in shorts). In 1940, the idea that a boy could become a girl was about as far-fetched as getting to the moon was then. So I dreamed. And I wrote.
At first, I scribbled my snippets of stories on school paper, writing in my room, hiding my efforts from my two nosey brothers and my mom and dad, usually tearing them up into pieces when I was done. No one must ever find out about my weird desires to be a girl. Of course, I worked at being a "normal boy," playing ball (never very well, to be sure) and picking up usual male skills. To pay my way through college, I worked for a beer distributor, hustling case beer and 184-pound half barrels in the warehouse, and as a truckdriver delivering to taverns and stores. I further proved my manhood through Navy service, marrying, fathering five children and becoming by all who might have noticed, a "normal" man.
Into that busy, family-filled life, I found a few spare moments to dress in my meager stash of panties, bras, stockings, skirts and blouses, always hiding my efforts in shame. I always wrote, continuing to hide my efforts so that they'd not be found; nor would anyone ever read them either. My stories became a way for me to dream and to make the dreams become more real.
Finally, about 15 years ago I discovered there were websites that featured authors writing about crossdressers and transgirls. First it was fictionmania and then bigcloset and a few other sites where I found an opportunity to post my stories. Since then, writing under the name of Katherine Day, I have published numerous short stories, several novellas and seven novels. (Check them out, if you wish. Meanwhile look over the stories of other writers; there are some real gems if you look)
All, of course, are written about boys, young men and older men who are finding their femininity. I find myself invariably living through the heroines I create; they become me; it's an intoxicating venture - and a welcome respite from the cares of one's daily life. Of course, neither I, nor any of the other writers, are paid for these efforts; it just seems we must write these, and we're happy if someone else reads them and finds value in them.
As long as I have a breath, I'll be writing these stories, learning as I type away about the wonders of being a woman.
A secret little vice of mine is that I was addicted to BigCloset for about 6 months, and as I started to rediscover my feminine side reading stories was one of the first things I started to do. I still go there and read occasionally - you're right, along with the trashy stuff there really are some great writers!
Thanks so much for sharing this side of you - here and in your stories.
April
This is fascinating. I will make an effort to seek out some of your stories to read.
I have read over the years a lot of these stories mainly on crystals storysite, but would be very keen to converse with someone that was directly involved.
Thank you so much for sharing, and giving this insight.
Sue
HI, i can identify with your post. I too posted my fantasies on paper and posted on Crystal's storysite as Josephine Gonsalves.
Vera Jane
Josie, it's always great to find others like myself. This site makes it happen. I took time to read your "Manish - The woman on the train" story and found it stimulating. Since I'm in USA, not India, I learned more about train travel, too.
Hope you're still writing. Katie
Thank you so much for sharing.. I will definitely find more of your articles and other authors
MsKAtie,
I believe you may be the most "seasoned" member of our site based on your DOB -surpassing Donna Dameron whom I believe is 82. I too have long enjoyed the less salacious stories on BigCloset and FM sites and I am fairly certain I have read some of your posts. Having grown up in he 70s and 80s (born 1965) I cannot imagine how difficult it must have been being CD/TS in the years of your youth. Thanks you for sharing this story. I would love it if you could PM me the names of what you consider your best/most popular works-the ones hat meant the most to you! I think it would be quite enlightening to learn more about how you came up with your story ideas too!
Cyn
Good for you, hon. I wrote some stories for fictionmania, nifty, and others back in the day, but it's been a while.
I had to do some looking but finally found the sites MsKatie referenced. To save others the trouble of looking them up, I hope the admins allow me to post those here:
www.fictionamia.tv and www.bigclosetr.us
I haven't read the stories but look forward to doing so.
Thanks, Rosally for posting the links. To further assist any readers, to find my stories, suggest you go to "Authors" and then look for "Katherine Day," my author ID. Hope you enjoy.
I read all these stories about how as children people had a burning desire to dress & be feminine---I'm not sure I had that--I got really into it around my late 40s-
I do remember my second yr in grade one(I was a brat & they actually failed kids those days)--I spent a summer being dressed up by some neighbourhood girls as probably my best summer memory as a kid--(then we moved)--
By the time I was about 15 & working I started wearing panties all the time but that was as far as it went till my first wife & her friends started dressing me , tieing me up & putting makeup on me---I loved it--
Fast foreward 20 yrs & my new wife introduced "Dressing" into our sexlife---Now I wish I could be fem 24/7---
I've thought about things long& hard---& think that because of my family(raised with 4 brothers & an ex army father--Plus the culture of the time where less than masculine behaviour was punished by society as a whole-- Was why I spent most of my life playing the Tough guy--
Thanks for sharing your whole life experience. Have you thought about self-publishing on Amazon Kindle?
I write fiction too. Well I say write but more dribble words onto pages, but its a start. Mostly recently it has been about my discovery and allowing the person hidden in me to blend with the physical me and also some erotic fiction (blush). One story is about a woman discovering herself and the other is about a CDer doing the same. Really they are the same story, just the main charactor is "plumbed differently". It is an exercise in discovery for me and may never see the light of day, but maybe one day they will feature somewhere and I might make a dollar out of them - probably not...LOL
Hello, Katie---1929(is that fiction?) LOL hEll i was born in 1940 on a farm in the south.
You talk about straight laced-Duh. That we even survived in and with our feelings as being
girls is amazing in its self. That we can today be our true selves is just Super Duper. I think our message to all our Young Beautiful Girl friends out there is this. Don't give up. Don't ever give up. Be bold when You can and always be true to Yourself. The road to true happiness may be long, rough and there may be lots of dead ends but know that You are not alone in the Journey. God Bless All and CDH>
