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afternoon hope all is well just thinking to myself what fears we all have as a CD. i say one must have one if not many,so if you like to share please feel free thank you. my self as a CD i must say is being caught and my emotions i must face and the repercussions too others that may follow.
For me it's the two faced so called compassionate, liberal minded one's that clam support in front of you. But can't wait to laugh at you behind your back! 🥰
@erinb I fear the fallout. Losing loved ones and friends. It doesn't seem fair. Being punished for being my authentic self. Although someday I may do it anyway.
@dee2 completely understand your feelings indeed that’s a big one for myself as well we aren’t hurting anyone but some I’m sure will see it’s not right bla bla bla and probably dislike use unfortunately
@dee2 if you lose friends and loved ones then i guess they weren't really true friends. as far as loved ones go, you are the same person now as you were before they knew.
@prettytoes the thing about love one's, is we hide our true self to them so they will feel OK. They should love us more when we show them everything about us. But.... what people don't understand they hate and fear and so they lash out. Sad but true!
@erinb Hi ladies
My biggest fear is the deep ignorance that surrounds the CD world.
1- who is a CD is not a monster or an alien, but only a person with a free spirit and who loves to wear what he wears
2- who is a Transgender is not a monster or an alien.
Ignorance only creates discrimination
Greta🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️❤️.
@erinb an ignorant person is an ignorant person but two ignorant people together become a group of socially dangerous people
@mocha unfortunately I feel there is a lot of them in this world today discriminating judgmental have to have there noise in everyone business I personally say just my opinion it’s a sad world we live in today unfortunately
@erinb - I have already faced some of my biggest fears, primarily the fear of self acknowledgement - that this is how I am wired and it is good. I actually feel empowered as a crossdresser. That courage allowed me to come out to my SO and has allowed me to do some level of dressing around her - mostly lingerie. I used to worry about the embarrassment (feeling shame?) of others finding out, although now that I have been dressing more androgynously and been seen by my friends and family as having a taste in clothes that clearly is feminine, I'm pretty sure most people who know me also know that something is up. My confidence has grown the more that I go out with the clothes I feel comfortable in. At this point I have not done 'full femme' in public (dress, heels, wig, makeup); however, as I gain more confidence I feel i will get there some day.
@3s3eve enriching reply truly happy things are working out indeed especially having an acceptable SO a lot of use wish we had just that but unfortunately it’s the way the cookie crumbles you eventually get there fully dressed out on the town and I’m sure it will be a very special moment with wonderful memories TC
@erinb I agree with you that getting caught - and the consequences of getting caught - are the two things that worry me the most. The relentless push for you to be "normal" and "respectable" have really left their mark on me.
@erinb Hi Erin, definitely the fallout. I would hate to upset, disappoint my friends and family. I love my family and friends I’m afraid some May disengage from me and that would break my heart
Wow, I managed to select almost exactly the same as everyone else. But interestingly, not ‘shame’. No, I sort of hold my head up high. ☺️
@valentina16 Same here VV. It’s a select few who crossdress. A cut above the average Joes I like to think.
@valentina16 must say a good head on the shoulder is a really good thing keep that head high regardless hugs 🤗
@erinb I keep trying Erin, I keep trying. Bast***s haven’t ground me down yet. ✊
Take care now. 💚
I think I have been through all of those along the way. The path is never easy but if there is a goal the hurdles have to be overcome.
Terrified of being caught but I’m also coming out more and more , going on shopping trips , getting my nails done and wearing lots of feminine clothing and carrying a hand bag
My biggest fear was losing friends. Yes, a few dropped away when I announced the other me to the world, but these were not really friends. Of the three or four that dropped away, three are now back having met Cerys at various events. My real friends were more than supportive, as were my family.
My wife had a lot more fears, which is why it took so long for me to come out. She has now realised that those fears were unfounded. She still fears he work colleagues finding out.
Cerys
@dazzler sorry to hear but so true we hope are real friends and family especially will understand and support myself never been there so can’t give an honest opinion unfortunately thank you ☺️ hugs 🤗
@erinb Nearly everyone realised that I'm still the same person, just wearing female clothing. One friend was worried about me attending certain events for fear of how others might react. That fear was quashed when I attended such an event, and apart from people that knew me, no one noticed, or cared. All was good.
Cerys
you have one life to live. there are no second chances. it's your life so be happy with who and what you are. think positive and good things will happen. don't live in fear.
My biggest fear would be discovering who of family and friends would turn on me. People that know me well, like me (I believe) and yet would shun me simply because of my choice of self-expression. Not that I would miss them if that were the case, but it would be depressing to find out who was really only a fair weather friend.
@cherylt indeed would be interesting to see for sure the ones we think that are so close could turn in an instant from one choice we made
For me it would be the fall out. I have a very fun male life and the family and friends are a big part of it. I’d hate to lose the role and image I hold amongst them. I also love my fem life and have a lot of fun in it, especially when my wife is in an accepting and supportive mood (not always the case, but when she is it’s amazing).
I know that some friends and family would shun me and/or laugh behind my back because they know and like me for being the man’s man and family role model. I’m content living a double life with my wife and a few supportive individuals who know me for both personalities that I am.
I came out to my wife 18 months ago. She is very accepting and we do have discussions of me transitioning. So she been very encouraging about my lifestyle, our lifestyle!
Before then I was in fear of being discovered and ruined. I was moody, depressed and angery (at myself). I knew I had to do something and I did. We sat down and talked for over 3 hours, I should say I talked for over 3 hours. When all was done she understood and excepted me for me. I now dress 24/7 as I wish. It only took me 44 years of marriage to get it together enough to let it out.
Now I am one of I am sure of a few that have a positive outcome like this. Many others I am sure have a different outcome. But I know I had to reveal myself to keep my sanity. Once you let that cat out he isn't going back in. Please be careful to whom and what you say. I felt like I was always walking on glass and at any moment the glass would break. I nightly dreams were of being caught, or me walking in to a meeting forgetting to change. Once I was out the nightmares ended and I was a much happier girl for it.
Hi Erin,
To me it's being caught and then the fallout afterwards of explaining myself of why i love to crossdress and then losing everything because i think my wife would ask me to leave,
Hugs Roz X
@rozalyne I understand your feelings hope she wouldn’t that least you be able to work something out my SO dose not support but dose accept it came with lots of questions and concerns but do understand your fear Thank you ☺️ for the post TC
