Do you think you were meant to be a girl?

One of my earliest memories from about 7 years of age is asking God to let me wake up as a complete girl in my evening prayers. So yes, l think I was not only meant to be a girl, but actually always have been one, if not to the full extent. I have many female traits, both physically and mentally. I always went better with girls than boys and during puberty, i was jealous of the other girls evolving their secondary characteristics, breasts, body curves etc. I've been dressing in secret from the age of 12 and finally started going out as my real self in 2012. Today, dressing femme is my normal and as soon as I am out I tend not to think about it in particular but go on doing my regular business. To the world, it is a statement saying this is who I am. I see Marianne as my real self and the guy as an image I have to project out of convenience, since people in my daily life anticipate it because of my physical sex.

No is my answer. I have had to many good times as him for it to be anything else. There again I grew up in a time and place where we were at the very least frowned upon to put it mildly and you could not show a weaker side (poor choice of words but you know what I mean).

Some part of my brain says I am female and another male suppose its that spectrum thing.

And then there is that Nature or Nurture question.

Anyway I enjoy the choice of being whoever I want.

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I have thought I should have been born a girl since I was very young.  Never understood it, but thought a mistake was made.

when Im dressed or not I feel very fem and want to dress as one but cannot

No, I wouldn't go back and change anything, If I could. I'd never transition. I'm as happy with my male side as I am with my female side, both are part of who I am.  I don't think it would have made my life significantly better. The only thing is women can fully embrace their masculine side in public, and no one will bat an eye, it happens all the time, though it was at least frowned upon in the past at one time or another. But they can also be as feminine as they wish too.

But men being feminine? If we're even slightly fem in public we're assumed to be gay. As a crossdresser we need to at least fully blend in as female in public. to get away with it.

I keep my miniskirts hidden in the car and i swear i can hear them calling me sometimes.  When i give in and wear one whether in the car or a store it is like an invisible femme force takes over and i become Jemma for real!

i always knew i was different and believed my mother wanted a girl, i functioned well as a boy and was reasonably good at sports and fighting.

i was a high strung kid who walked on my tip toes and my mother often said i should have been born a girl i fought that on the outside but on the inside i knew she was right.i have lived a lie all my adult life and have a great wife and two great son's but have never been truthful to them or myself

i love nothing more than dressing up as a women.when i walk down the street i always look at what other women are wearing ,always shoes first , i love shoes ,seeing a girl in a pretty dress i just feel jealous . every morning i walk my dog and at a house round the corner a little girls party dress is hung in the window im sure its her pride and joy and wish id had the chance to own something like that when i was small , but should i be a women ??? no i dont think i should. i love being who iam most of the time just wish i could be who i want to be when i want to be , i love me as a man and a woman and should be able to choose which one i want to be on a daily if not hourly basis  xxxx

Defiantly Yes,

When I dress,my feminine side takes over, I get this amazing euphoria all over.

I sometimes wish I could be a full time tranny.

Sorry if not PC.

If my circumstances where different I think I would like to present as a women full time.

every time I put female cloths on its harder to take them off.

Patty

Patty,

Interesting choice of words you used.  I also get that euphoria every time I try on femme clothing.  I bought a pair of capris and a denim skirt today, and couldn't wait to try them on at home.  And I think I would dress full-time if I could do so.  BUT I wouldn't give up my wife and family for the privilege, or my relationship with them.  And I must admit that life has been good to me as a guy, both military and civilian.  It almost certainly wouldn't have gone as well for me as a woman.  Ahhh!  If only I (all of us) could have it both ways........

Hugs,

Bettylou

Well-said, Janice.  There was a time when I was younger, I would have been banging on that same button; but with 20/20 hindsight, I can tell that would not have worked out as well  for me.  Every choice we make means that we have to give up something else.

Hugs,

Bettylou

Didnt even give this question a second thought! certainly a big, massive, huge, enormous yesss!!!!

being a male sucks, for me anyway!

Fee xxx

I have always felt as if I was meant to be a girl.  In 1947 my mother took very heavy doses of a drug (DES) which helped prevent having spontaneous abortion during her pregnancy with me.  The drug interfered with sexual organ development of the fetus.  Many female children exposed to DES suffer from vaginal and uterine cancers.   As it turns out, I was born with a tumor on one testicle, which was removed before my 1st birthday.  The drug she took during the whole pregnancy was heavy with female hormones.  I truly believe that my dna was altered during critical points in my development in the uterus.  As a result, I believe there is enough feminine-stamped brain matter that makes me the person I am today.

I also believe that I was blessed by the accident of birth, to be male.  I have had a good life. Married, with children, (now grand kids), military during Vietnam, law enforcement in a large SoCal city for 30 years.  My whole family lives within a few blocks of each other.  Life has been good.  Not so sure it would have turned out anywhere near as satisfying living as a woman during all that time.  We guys all know the journey that women of our generation have had to travel.  God bless em' all!

Anyway, sorry for the long missive.  Yes, I do think there was enough chemical intervention to have allowed me to be born more girl than boy, and I would have enjoyed that role.  I do, very much, enjoy, and relish my time dressed as Kathy.  I appreciate my bride's acceptance that allows Kathy to have time to express herself.  I am fully dressed as I write this, feeling all girly, but, I know Bob will be hard at it in about an hour, doing his man thing.  Life is good,  Gotta roll with the cards you were dealt.

I would definitely dress full time if it were a possibility, so my answer was a resounding YES!  I am so much more comfortable dressed as Emily. It’s the only time I actually enjoy looking in a mirror.

If I were younger, I would absolutely consider fully transitioning, but alas, it is not to be so for me. I commend those with the courage to do so.  Thanks for the question!

Ever since I was 4 yrs old, I wanted to have loooong hair & wear a dress, but 50 yrs ago I never dreamed that would be possible> Now I want to also have breasts. The only thing i like about being a man is the ability to pee standing up.  esther