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I use the term 'en homme' or sometimes man mode; 'en femme' for when dressed.
I voted "other" because my two "sides" are really just the same person wearing different clothes. I *am* more relaxed and confident en femme, but still, deep down, it's just me whether I am wearing a little black dress or a suit and tie.
I almost feel like my male personality and my female personality are like Siamese twins in a perpetual conflict. Like the character in the Arnold Schwarzenegger movie Total Recall who has another person living inside of him who is wise and powerful and insists on coming out and being more dominant, my efforts as a host body trying to keep my female persona under control are becoming more and more useless as the years go by. My male side is faltering with all its inherent weaknesses and failings while my female side is strong, sexy and self confident to the max. Resistance is futile. It's almost like a kind of schizophrenia overpowers me and she HAS to come out or I will lose my mind entirely. So be it. Can I also say here that I hate the term "drab"? It's not a good term to use about our decision to dress up and realize our feminine sides. It's pretty derogatory and does nothing to lift our self confidence as hidden women.
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1.lacking brightness or interest; drearily dull."the landscape was drab and gray"
synonyms: colorless, gray, grayish, dull, dull-colored, washed out, neutral, pale, muted, lackluster,lusterless, muddy, watery; lightish brown, brownish, brownish-gray, mousy, dun-colored;dingy, dreary, dismal, cheerless, gloomy, somber, depressing"the landscape was drab and gray"uninteresting, dull, boring, tedious, monotonous, dry, dreary, wearisome;unexciting, bland, nonstimulating, unimaginative, uninspiring, uninspired, insipid,lusterless, lackluster, vapid, flat, stale, trite, vacuous, feeble, pallid, wishy-washy,colorless, limp, lame, tired, lifeless, zestless, spiritless, sterile, anemic, barren, tame,bloodless, antiseptic;middle-of-the-road, run-of-the-mill, commonplace, mediocre, nondescript, characterless,mundane, unexceptional, unremarkable, humdrum, prosaic"a drab suburban existence"
I'm with you Tina , however how my wife has several ( tasteful ) references depending upon how she's feeling & the vibe she's sensing in me . Those references are her husband , her wife or her person , this is in public & private , Tiff ☺
Bryan is the shell I live in, I am Heather
BOBBY THE BOY ,GIRLY BUT BUTCH ,WHEN I NEED TO BE A TOUGH BXXH ,I STILL REMIND HATERS THIS CD HAS CLAWS AND BITES , SO MY BUTCH SIDE WOULD BE MY DEFENDER ,I DO HAVE A BLACK BELT ,SO THIS SISSY CAN HANDLE THINGS , THATS BOBBY THE BOY
Like many others have expressed, I am me regardless of what clothes I am wearing, and that 'me' is predominantly female in spirit. Talking specifically about my male side or presentaion I mostly use that expression with those who only know me as Marianne and my given name among those who know both sides of me.
<p style="--original-color: #333333; --original-background-color: #ffffff;">I said other because I always say "when I'm in him mode" not meaning anything bad it's just I am me and he is him I know it might sound strange . But I try to keep the personas separate, anyone else crazy?</p>
Important to note that both drab and drag are historical theater references use by Shakespeare as to whether a particular role was to be played DRAB -Dressed As A Boy- or DRAG-Dressed As A Girl. Not the standard dictionary definitions of the words drag and drab.
Cyn
For me it's usually "male mode" or more accurately "stealth Cyn mode" as I am always in al or mostly female clothes -just not always obviously so without close observation.I have come to realize that Cyn is the part of me who makes me the person I am. I used to think of two personalities haring the body , but now think of myself as one person with many facets.
Cyn
Cyn, I read that it's folklore that Shakespeare used DRAG/DRAB as acronyms. I suspect these are backronyms, mnemonics created after the fact to help remember or give an alternate meaning to the word.
I'm two different beings. I like my male side, but I love my female side very deeply. I feel that I was socialized into my male life in which I strove to build a successful, loving, and rewarding existence. I was so successful in this endeavor that I could never leave or eliminate that part of me. My family times are simply so very special and meaningful to me. If I had been socialized as female I know that I would have been more content, peaceful, and so happy to live with absolutely zero internal struggles. My brain and sole have no doubt always been female, and so it is truly my catch 22!!!!!!
When changing back to male clothes, it's either back to Man Mode, or Back to Boring, or Back to Normality (not what I call normal, just what people expect of me !)
I have an alter ego one male one female, I don't think there are two of me, if I talked to any one I would never mention the other me, boy or girl it is still.....me!
Sally xx
I have moved from using DRAB to using Handsome Husband after reading Scarlet’s article.
While I am not offended by DRAB/DRAG I like the sound of Handsome Husband because while being Paula is great fun, I still love my wife and doing Handsome Husband things.
