A life of struggles

At a very young age I started exploring my feminine side. Albeit is was for more sexual reasons than realizing what I would soon become. I always tried on Pantyhose for sexual gratification. It wasn't till years later I realized it wasn't for that gratification. It was for something more. I started buying pantyhose and nylons and different attire and dressed in secret. Behind closed doors.  I always felt guilty doing it. Almost like half a dozen people were standing and pointing at me and scolding me for doing what I did. I did what most Crossdressers did when they started out. They purged their attire and thought it was wrong and wanted to live what society says is a normal life. Normal by who's standards? It wasn't till i was in my 40's that I realized who I was. Lesa wasn't born just yet. I was on the road to self discovery. My soon to be ex wife said she was supportive, but she didn't really understand what I wanted or what I needed. She attempted to help, but her heart wasn't in it. My makeup job that she did made me look more like a drag queen than anything. The outfits she picked it was all wrong. I think she figured that what I was going thru was just a Fad or a phase. I met a wonderful and incredible woman several years ago who I introduced Lesa too. Remember Lesa wasn't born yet. I wanted this new lady in my life to be accepting of who I was and what I was. She took one look at me and started to laugh and my heart sank. Then came something from her I didn't expect. She said you are so beautiful. You took my breath away. I was relieved. From that moment on I have had more support in over 2 years from this one lady than I have my entire life. At that Moment Lesa Madison was born. Since I have met that woman,  Lesa has grown into her own woman with a distinct personality and in the process has made me a better male. I say this with Confidence and Pride and say My Name is Lesa Madison and I am a Crossdresser. No more sitting in the shadows. No more hiding behind closed doors and wondering if I will get caught. No more wondering if someone will laugh at me.  Take that step. Be that Bold woman that you are striving to be. Show people who you are.