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I have worn woman's clothing for as long as I remember so that must make me a crossdresser, right??! As a young boy I experimented with my Mother's make-up, her shoes, dresses and lingerie. I loved the way I felt when dressed as a girl and even created a female persona. As I became a teenager I got a job and purchased my own girls clothing, I would wait for my parents to call asleep, get dressed up and walk around our neighborhood at night. It was such a wonderful feeling to go out in the summer night in a short skirt and heels, I felt so girlie. After I moved out on my own living 1500 miles from home, I began spending more and more time en femme and still considered myself just a crossdresser. I was a guy who was sexually attracted to woman, but I wanted to look like the pretty girls I would see. I had NO clue what was brewing inside me!! I pretended when I was with the guys to like football, I talked all the nonsense about hating gay folks and on my god!! Those crossdressers!! Who could do such a thing!!! I was not being upfront and honest with myself, as well as my family, friends and society!! As much as I enjoyed crossdressing, I would often feel guilty and ashamed after but I simply could not stop. I went thru embarrassment and humiliation often when getting caught by my parents, friends, girlfriends and wives!! Why could I not stop???
I believe all men, and woman, who Crossdressers must ask themselves this question from time to time yet many, are not able to answer this question. I for one finally came to terms with why I wear woman's clothing, I am a girl in a boy's body!! It took me 58 years to finally understand and accept the truth about myself!! I knew when I was just 5 yrs old, why did I forget? Because my family pounded it into my brain that crisscrossing was bad!! I was told I could not be a girl, I was a boy!! This was a very long time ago and things have changed for young transgender children since my day. Thank God!!! I now know who and what I truly am, my consciousness is female but my body is male so does that make me a crossdresser?? Not in my opinion, I am simply dressing to reflect how I feel inside and I always have. Is crisscrossing or being a trans person a bad thing?? NO!! God and Mother Nature Love diversity, human beings in their limited, ignorant perceptions fear the unknown, therefore persecuting those who chose to express themselves as they feel, not according to society's standards. Today, I am a very proud transgender woman on HRT, planning SR S and living full time, 24/7, 365 as a girl. I am no longer crossdressing, I stopped doing that the day I stopped living as a man and purges my male attire!!!!!!
Anyone, Anyone who's struggling with their identity, struggling with your feelings about crossdressing, your in the right place and if I can help in anyway possible, please don't be afraid to send me a message. Sometimes we just need a shoulder to cry on, a hand to hold of some kind words to get thru the hard times. I know!! Thanks for reading and I hope this helps someone out there!!
Hugs, Brenda Leigh
Bren, you're the best!
We're all different, so it's confusing for some.
I am not a girl trapped in a boy's body, I am a boy who is not as boy-like as the image society demands.
For example, I prefer wearing girls clothes. As girls have no doubt found, girls clothes are really interesting, fun and exciting.
Boy's clothes do nothing for me, in fact, I don't like them, although I can tolerate them and use them to my advantage.
It's all about making the best of what you have, looking after others, and making room to be yourself, even if some people hate you for it.
Haters gonna hate.
Good to see you around, hun!
Love Laura
I began wearing my mother's hand me down pantyhose and an old pairs of her heels when I was 4. I outgrew the heels by 11 and didn't get my own until I was 17. I outgrew the pantyhose by 13 and began immediately buying my own.
At 17, I also bought some short girl's shorts to wear with my pantyhose and platform wedge heels. I began wearing that out after gathering up the courage to do so. It was so much fun, exciting, thrilling and such a rush to be dressed like that and be out shopping for shoes, pantyhose and more fem clothes. By 18 I had every clothing item I needed to dress fully fem. I went to a Halloween Party fully fem and loved it. I had created Patty and went out and partied a lot.
I loved and still do love being Patty. I never figured I was anything but a guy who just loves to wear pantyhose and heels with short dresses. I'm definitely just a crossdresser and I love it.
