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Well, doesn't time fly?!
By midnight tonight, I will have been a member of Crossdresser Heaven for one year, and what a year of highs and lows it has been.
I haven't been backward in coming forward about my medical problems so suffice to say that it's taken a year, but my operation has finally been done and hopefully, will heal itself in the next few weeks. That's the lows out of the way, not that they were (are) trivial in any way.
However, that is not what this is about, it's about cross-dressing, Crossdresser Heaven and finding my feminine side.
Obviously, because I actually took the step of joinng CDH, I was already doing a little bit of dressing: a skirt in the evenings, perhaps some water-filled condoms as forms in a cheap bra just to feel what it was like. After I joined CDH and read about other people's activities, I started to use makeup, paint my nails, and in (I think it was) February, I had my ears pierced and bought a cheap wig. The wig, and most of my clothes in those days, came from the Chinese company Temu and were very good value while I was finding my style. I did feel a little guilty, knowing that the stuff from that company was not necessarily very good for the environment and realised, quite quickly, that their production methods for clothes used way too much formaldehyde (which gave me a rash). My clothes are now bought from reputable(?) companies and although I pay a lot more, they are better made and unlikely to be binned after a couple of disappointing wears. The two wigs I use the most often are twenty times the price I paid for my first one from Temu but they give me confidence.
It is with this confidence that I now go out in public on a regular basis, having been to a theatre packed with other people. I go shopping in town and often visit garden centres (usually ones that also sell women's clothing).
As I've said elsewear, I bought a car suitable for a woman-about-town. OK, I may have mislead a little previously as I was probably going to buy a car at some point anyway, but Becca wanted something different so Schmoo (as I call her), the Smart car, came into the family and is also graced with a vanity number plate which ends in the letters CDR and lots of flower decals and pink pawprints.
Just after the mid-year, having already made hundreds of posts on here myself and writing an article, I became an editor and I hope, in my time, what I've done with the articles has come across well and that I haven't upset the authors too much with my pedantry for grammar and spelling.
Throughout all this my wife has stood by me, only really getting upset when I got carried away for a while and thought about going around the village 'dressed'. Hindsight tells me that she was right and I've backed off a bit locally--although my next door neighbour came to my door while I was dressed and there was no escape, so I just ignored it, spoke to her, and bluffed it out. She has spoken to me since but time will tell what, if any, damage it did (not that I care much; it's my life, my house).
I have become so much more in touch with my feminine side. I like bright, shiny things and my male dressing has become less dowdy--although trying to find bright clothes for men is so difficult. I take much more interest in women's issues and their daily struggles with idiot men, nationalities and religions.
I like being a man, but I like being Becca whenever the time feels right and I am lucky enough to be able to do that. Would I change to Becca forever? No, not a chance. Would Becca want to disappear back into the cupboard? Equally, not a chance. I like to think that with two lives living in the same body, I get two goes at everything (but sadly, only half the time as each).
CDH has become a daily place to visit for me--usually several times from morning to night--and has rather become a home from home. CDH is not intimidating, there is no flaming (that I have seen) and its gentle, supportive atmosphere has given me a haven from world news and the trials we all live with outside of here. Long may the site live and I'll do my best to do my part to keep it here.
Best wishes to you all in this new year and I hope all your dressing goes from strength to strength.
Kindest regards
Becca
xx
PS Sorry to go on. I was going to make it an article but it's too much about me (no, that hasn't stopped me before 😀) to have a general interest, so I made it a topic instead.
@rebeccabaxter Congratulations on your anniversary and thank you for all that you contribute to CDH! May Year 2 be as productive and happy for you! 🙂
Happy anniversary Becca! Hope that you're continuing to heal well.
Thanks for the interesting and thought-provoking topics you bring to the forum.
Hugs,
Anna xx
A year already Rebecca it has gone so quick yet you have come so far despite the medical issues, which of course hope they improve. It took me many years to get to where I wanted to be and my Temu of the day was mail order through the magazines or newspapers, the Temu product would have seemed like Gucci compared to what I received!
I just wish CDH was available during my formulative years as it would have perhaps accelerated my dressing due to the mine of help and information that is available here but then things were different all round back then so staying secret was better for the health as it were. Still once I was out the accelerator was hit and away I went.
Discovering the world of crossdressing at a later age seems quite a usual thing and I often wonder if it is actually there all the time but lays dormant, in some cases stirring occasionally until the testosterone starts to wane.
It was nice to read of your progress and thoughts around your dressing and wish you a great 2025 of more adventures, progress and posts.
Congrats on your one year milestone Becca! (love your new car)
I too passed the one year mark recently, and on the night of the Lake Erie Gala..
It's been an eventful year for you Becca, can't wait to see what the next 12 months brings. I look forward to hearing more of your odyssey.
Hey Becca,
Happy New Year! Congratulations and happy 1 year anniversary.
Alice
When do you have time to go out and have Becca time? You have made quite a few posts in just one year! 😀
Congratulations on your anniversary! Keep up the good work, and take care of yourself. I can't wait to see what the next year brings.
Hi Becca!
Happy CDH-iversary!!!
Hugs,
Autumn
Becca -
Happy Anniversary and continued speedy recovery from your surgery.
It is nice to read of your journey over the last year, may it continue to be a joy for you. I do enjoy reading your postings and articles.
XOXO
Suzanne
Happy Anniversary Becca wishing you a speedy recovery from your surgery.
Allison