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So my day begins normally, as usual in male mode. And I expect it to be so all day, just like normal. A familiar tension between what I am expected by others to be and what I long in my heart to be is ever present.
In this setting this question is generated, "Do I want to be feminine or do I want to be female." I see a great gulf separating those two possibilities.
I could now wax eloquent on my perception of the difference, but may I simply ask my sisters here, "how do you answer that question?"
My answer you ask? I want to be female, able to exhibit all of the feminine graces to their fullest as something completely acceptable for me as I "be" the woman I choose to be. Dispaying feminine is beautiful but for me being female is my impossible dream and therefore displaying feminine just doesn't quite make the dream come true.
And you?
Hi Charlene, for me I want to feel feminine but have no desire to be 'female'. It's hard to describe my feelings on this subject, in my youth I would have possibly said I want to be female, but not now, my male side is as important to me as the feminine side is. It has taken me a long time, almost all of my life in fact, to get where I am now. I am in a happy place and I think as regards becoming female, I've gone as far as I am presently happy to do. But, as my life has changed so much over the last year or so, who knows?
Hi Charlene,
I'm with Andrea on this one, though I'm also in the camp of not knowing what's next: "Never say never."
If the definition of being female includes HRT and SRS, then I have no plans or interest.
But part of the confusion for me is that when I'm feeling feminine, it seems I am feeling a lot of the things that females feel, act the way females act. And when I'm feeling feminine, I am disconnected with the male part of me. Conversely, when I am feeling male, I have little interest in the feminine. It's all so capricious, I never can say who will manifest tomorrow.
I'm not complaining, don't get me wrong. I am loving being able to live both sides of my identity. There are no rules, in spite of my self doubts and concerns that genderfluid is not as legit as transgender.
I'm just having fun being me, feeling the feminine expressing as Lorie, a complete person inside and out.
I like to be feminine. I love dressing up and jewlwery and makeup and shaveing and all the things a man is not supposed to but i do enjoy my man side too. I love motorcycles and working on my mustang, teaching my sons how to shoot and fish. I have the best of both worlds and although being Ronnie is a huge big part of my life, so is just being me. I wouldnt cahnge it for anything.
Charlene. I would love to become female but at my age, money and health won't let me be that. Should have thought about it long ago. So...I do what I can....that is dress and act like a female to the best of my ability. Becoming female is a long drawn out action. The pain and the cost is quite high. Do give it a lot of thought...........once committed, there is no going back.
Lady Veronica
I want to be a female it's my dream all my life
Hi Charlene, Thank you for the question. As I continue to explore and grow with Michelle, I have been asking myself this a lot more lately. At first, I would have completely denied wanting to be female, now I am not so sure. I agree with Andrea's comment about "possibly yes" when I was younger. I find when I get to express Michelle more and more that it definitely blurs my answer.
Charlene. I would love to become female but at my age, money and health won’t let me be that. Should have thought about it long ago. So…I do what I can….that is dress and act like a female to the best of my ability. Becoming female is a long drawn out action. The pain and the cost is quite high. Do give it a lot of thought………..once committed, there is no going back.
Lady Veronica
Lady Veronica, methinks based on your reply you and I are in nearly the same place in our journey. "Too little, too late" sort of speak.
Your sage counsel is much appreciated. Thank you for taking a moment to help steady me.
Blessings.
I definitely don’t want to be female. I am happy as a man and comfortable in my own skin. I do want to dress in female clothes and express the feminine side of my nature.
We all have both male and female attributes and dressing as a female allows me to let the more relaxed part of me out.
The feminine is really good fun. Male clothing is boring and always over-engineered. The feminine has many more possibilities, whether you want to be female or just feminine.
I would love to female but Veronica said, my age, fiances and overall health would be hard, yet I still want to be totally female. It's hard just "playing" the part but I can't imagine not being able to at least "play" the part right now. I feel "right" dressed as a woman, I wish I looked better than I do because I would at least "step up" the game and maybe have some "work" done. I feel I am still in my "newbie" stage, I still haven't gotten to the point where i want to be so who know what the future will yield. Being "accepted" is important but you also have know your limitations I guess, for now i will continue on "dressing" the part if not living it.
I feel different like Ifeel feminine inside i imagine my self makeing love with different men and women I feel like i'am two sexes male and female I calmley switch from ono to the outher I have erotic fantices i would sleep around alot but i'am affraid of vd and emotional intanglements so i don't sleep around
