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I had my 2nd therapy session today and it made me really scared for the first time. My 'homework' is to put some narrative to the various scenarios of what my future could look like - living 24/7 after hormones to everything staying just as it is, and everything in between, my family, my marriage, my career.... So far, it's all been a little bit detached, but now it's getting VERY real and it's frightening. I know I can't go on living this lie; it's slowly been killing me over the decades, but I honestly don't know if I have the courage to do anything else. They just seem to be impossible choices. Advice anyone??
Rian x
I had to read your post 2 or 3 times to get a feel for what you are saying. When lumped altogether it seems like an imposable task. You must break it down to smaller portions or it will overwhelm you. I believe by breaking each of the down you can get a better handle on each scenario. You have already have the hard part, you are voicing these fears here and now because you are not the only one going through the same thing. you know if you don't it will eat you up inside. If you ever want to chat I will always be there for you.
Me too. At least I was about a month ago. I’ve calmed down considerably. I put everything that could possibly happen together and panicked. I still don’t know the path I’ll take, but focusing on the present and near future was a start.
you can only eat an elephant one bite at a time...
Hannah Jeanne
