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So over the weekend I found this site. I got on here and started to open up and express for the first time how much I enjoy dressing as Samantha. I have gone out in public only as a child and when I was in my 20’s but there has been a 17 yr gap since going into public. . So Sunday comes around. I have planned to go out as Samantha. I went to Target got a new top and panties. Wound up buy shaping panties which I completely love now. Then went to Ross to get new leggings. After that I went to A Beauty supply store and asked to get a wig. As I picked my wig out the sales lady asked me if I wanted to try it on. I was kinda shocked and before I said anything she said a lot of men come and buy wigs here. I told her OK but I didn’t want to try it on. So after buying the wig I went to CVS for some make up. As I walk up to the counter and lay down the make up the clerk says those colors will look good on you. I said I hope so and she looked at me like she was joking but I wasn’t. So I got all dolled up at home. I was actually on here until I went out. It was about 12:30 am when I left. I drove to a known gay part of town where I knew I wouldn’t be the only person like me. I drove up and down the street to nervous to stop. So I pulled into another CVS I sat there and told myself I have to do this I cant have done all this work to not be seen. So I shut off my car and went in. As I walk in the clerk says hello and say hi back. I walk to the cooler and see 2 men unloading boxes both look at me and keep working. As I go to the counter the clerk ask if I was paying cash and if not I had to go to the back to pay with a card. I said card so he and I walked to the back of the store he asked how my night was going. I responded just out and about and kinda laughed it off. I was so nervous but I was me. I was dressed as Samantha and I felt amazing. So he rang me up and I left. He told me have a good night and I said I will. At that point so much pressure was lifted and I really felt a lot more comfortable. So I stated driving and passed a gay bar 3 or 4 times before going in. As I parked a lot of guys were walking around and looking at me I felt really nervous and all my fears came back. I parked and and sat there for a few minutes. At some point I told my self to stop being a sissy and be the woman your dressed as. So I got out walked up to the front. Dozen or so people were out front I felt like the whole world was staring at me I was starting to turn around and told myself that I’m already here just go in. So I did I walked in and was greeted by the hostess who was dolled up and said welcome. The place wasn’t crazy busy but had a crowd. There was actually a Drag show where the girls were dancing around like strippers but not naked or on a pole just dancing and singing. I was getting ready to get a drink and I realized I didn’t have cash only a card and didn’t want to put a drink on my card in case my wife asked what it was. So I walked back over and watched some of the show. Must have looked at my phone 100 times for no reason. I look back at the bar and as I do a guy asked me if Id like a drink. I said sure bud light. He went and got the beer for me. We spoke a little I told him my name his was Jerry. He asked if I cam there much I told him this was my first time ever at a gay bar and that I hadn’t been in public as a woman in 17 yrs. He laughed and told me I should do it more often. I told him I would be back that I had to use the ladies room. I walked over there noticed he was back talking with his friends so I left as fast as I could.
I got back in my car and I have never been so proud so happy and so exhilarated by being Samantha. I talked to people I had a conversation I was over the moon and felt amazing. I as I’m leaving I stop at 7-11 to get gas. I got out there were 2 other people pumping as and nobody paid any attention to. I went in side bought another water like I was queen bitch without a care in the world. I spoke to both workers who were woman. We laughed and as I was leaving they said have fun girl and be safe driving home.
Again I got back in my car and started to drive home. I was so happy I felt amazing. I was completely liberated. The first time I went out 17 yrs ago I had nothing like this experience. I truly believe that if I would have had the same experience back then that I would have really gotten involved with my femme side along time ago.
If I hadn’t found this site last week and started talking openly about Cross Dressing with you ladies this would never have happened. The ladies I have chatted with help me build the strength and go out as Samantha. I am very grateful for this community and plan to be a member for as long as I can. Thank you ladies for reading my story
October is coming and Sammy is getting ready for her next adventure
That is AMAZING! So happy for you...and jealous😉
The most thrilling night ever!!! I cant wait to go again
Hi Samantha,
Congratulations on your first outing in many years. It can be scary but you were courageous and succeeded over the fears. Enjoy many more outings.
Alice
I Love this story....