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As the title says, I have my dress on. It has been a while since i have taken the time to remove it from hiding and put it on. Surprising since I have actually had plenty of opportunity. I just wasn't taking advantage of the time I have.
Early in 2024 I found out I have type 2 diabetes. I completely changed my diet and started walking every day. The diet, exercise and medicine all did what they were supposed to and lowered my A1c from over 14 to 5.2. I am glad to report that I am doing well in the blood sugar department.
I lost a total of 65 pounds but surprisingly, most of that was before I went to the doctor. The scary part that got me to his office was my vision. I went from pretty normal distance vision and 2.25 magnifiers/readers to bizarre. I was up to 2.75 readers, and they weren't working for reading...... the bizarre bit was I found I needed the readers to see the TV and to read the overhead signs on the highway. You can't get 3.0 or higher readers in NY and I was waiting for some to arrive from a relative out of state. Luckily the medicine started working before they arrived..... My eyesight now is better than it was for a long time. Using 2.25 readers because I have so many of them around but I can make do with 2.0 and sometimes I don't need anything to look at my phone.
So yes, good news all in all. Going through it though was a total mind-F.
And it wasn't the only one.
During all this, I retired. I simply can't do a job that is as physically demanding the one I had for over 30 years. Another mind-F. Not because I can't do the work anymore like i used to but because they changed my pension plan a few years ago. After being in for 25 years they changed the rules. Under the old plan I qualified for a full pension at my current age. Under the new plan I would have had to work an additional 7 years to get a full pension. I got less than half of what I should have gotten based upon the plan I contributed to for over 25 years. It left me very bitter and resentful.
I was surprised when I logged into CDH last night and found out that I had no activity in 7 months. I did occasionally log in and read a few posts and articles. I gave a few likes here and there. But I didn't post. Just too much in my own brain.
When I logged off last night I resolved to log in today and make a post. Well here it is 😉
I am sitting here at my dining room table wearing my floral dress. There is a picture in my private photos. The hotel picture from 2 years ago. I am surprised that after losing the weight it doesn't seem to fit that much better. Time for a new dress. This one is a 2xl but I am guessing it is based on Asian sizing considering where the waist line falls. I am wearing my favorite black booties with 2 inch heels. They are loose around my feet now. Definitely from the weight loss. I am also wearing black panty hose, and a new white lace bra and panty set that I received in the mail yesterday from a Poshmark seller. Best purchase I have made in a while, exceptionally pretty. I was watching the mailbox like a hawk for 2 days to be sure I got the mail before my wife did.
There are some things I need..... I didn't used to think I needed them but now I do. Brest forms, wigs, makeup and makeup lessons...... just to name a few....
There are lot of lovely ladies here that I have missed. A lot more who are no longer on CDH and I miss many of them dearly. Weirdly living though the past year you might have expected me to turn to some of these ladies for support, but that was another mind-f*** all it's own. With the other important things going on in my life my brain convinced me that this other part of me wasn't important. Stupid brain.
Well, that's me
For now
Love,
Autumn
Well Autumn,
You have certainly been through alot in mind body and soul. I'm glad you've have a handle on your weight and sugar levels.
Wearing a dress is freeing for me. Why we are the way we are adds to the confusion. That's why we seek others like us to communicate with. Here we're without judgment. We get it, still don't understand it all, but we get it.
Call it a midlife crisis but alot of us rediscover ourselves in our senior years.
I believe you've made the right choice to come back home to CDH.
So plug in and enjoy the Pink Fog!
All the best to you.
XOXO Fran 🥰
@augustvaliant Hey Autumn, gosh you've been through a lot. Well done you for addressing your diet and making positive progress honey. I had a peek at your dress. It's gorgeous. There's just nothing better than a beautiful floral dress. Rest assured there are still a lot of wonderful women here who will be more than happy to support you, particularly if you're a bit more active here. I wish you well with your development, but for me breast forms, wigs and makeup are all game changers. I just need the full package.
Hugs, Chrissie xx.
@augustvaliant It's great to hear from you again Autumn. When I saw your name on the post I thought there's one from the past.
Sorry to hear of your health problems, but glad to hear you are starting to get them straightened out.
I feel for your problems with your employer, changing the pension rules like that is unfair. I am heading to retirement in a month and they have changed the insurance rules for retirees and the paperwork is insane. I was recommended an outside agency to make sure it was all done right and I get all the benefits I was entitled to.
GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR RETIREMENT.
Cassie
Hi Autumn,
It sounds like you've been in the wars, so to speak. It's good that you're sharing. Spending time on CDH is a good way to catch up on some TLC. It won't set the world to rights, we all have to do that on our own individual terms, but here's wishing you well on your journey.
Emma x
@augustvaliant Welcome back! I'm so glad you were able to navigate through those struggles and return to something that makes you happy.
Interesting about the eyesight problem. I had a rare side effect from some prescribed drugs I was taking. I'm assuming it was the combination rather than one or the other drug but I found I could only drive when using reading glasses and my eyesight was so altered that I could barely see if there was a clock on the wall let alone tell what time it was. I think it was a combination of fluoxetine and tamsulosin—just in case anyone else gets depressed because they can't pee properly. I stopped the fluoxetine and after about 10 days, my eyesight was back to normal. It was a very strange period in my life; it gave me an insight into what it must be like to think one was going blind.
Until my eyesight got better again.... I had no reason to expect it to get better. It was crazy scary. One other weird thing. In the more distant past..... during a visit to my optometrist my eyes tested better than during a previous exam. I asked the Doc if that could be a result of having lost some weight. I was told that idea was ridiculous. I can't help but wonder if during that period of dieting and weight loss there was a connection to my body's sugar management problems that were yet to be diagnosed.
Hey Autumn,
Welcome back! Congratulations on losing the weight. Type 2 Diabetes sneaks up on you and can reek many other health issues. So happy to hear you are walking and have Type 2 under control.
Sorry to hear about your pension plan changes. As Cassie says many companies have moved away from their pension plans.
Alice
HI Autumn
wow...............that's rough. After all those years and they do you like that. Scary episode about the vision, but glad you are seeing better now. yeah, missing friends on CDH tears at your heart. I have three that I dearly miss. They helped me be more girl inside and out. Glad you are back. I have missed the things you would write. The seasons changing ......................Happy Autumn .............Autumn (giggle). karley
