Hidden Emotions

I don't think of myself in 2 personas, this is it, the total package. I am Heather, I've said on here before the only thing left of Bryan is the shell you see. I like to think being like this makes me a more rounded person, I see things with a practical view, the facts 1+1=2 and then my more open side 1+1=? so if I don't get to dress for a bit it doesn't matter, I'm me. I find this keeps me on a constant plane.

Hi Sweetie,

For me, there has never been two personas but I can understand that crossdressing for you is like an aphrodisiac, it calms the beast within. HRT did that for me! My SO, friends, everyone tells me that I seem more content and calm and I have to agree with them. It works like a drug without the negative side effects. I say there is absolutely nothing wrong with that, your not hurting yourself or anyone else, so enjoy. If necessary, dress more often, be happy, life is much to short to live unhappily!!

Totally agree Breanna

I'm not really struggling with this as it's more of an observation and evolution. In the big picture it's just showing growth and prosperity.

Thanks

Dana 💋❤️

I find there is a constant battle between Glen and Gigi Dana.

Everybody is different but dito on everything said, for me dressing as a woman is an elixir which makes me feel a supercharged high beyond explanation to anybody that has not felt this feeling. What I experience when I alternatively dress and not dress as a woman are noticeable mood swings from a normal to a high and then back to normal after a emotional low overshoot. As far as being hidden, unless you are a completely closed book, these mood swings are very observable to anybody close.

I think your Rami.  Hidden might not be the right word. Its more of an observation from others about me. I don't always notice my slight overall changes to my personality. But my SO does.

Thanks

Dana 💋❤️

Thanks Dana
At the beginning of this journey I felt the same swings. As life has moved forward and I have allowed myself to blossom it has more stable. There are least some femme components to my daily attire and spending time on the site was definately a factor in the positive growth.
Liv

I believe that dressing brings out things and emotions that are  buried deep within us, that first rush we get when put on panties slips or what ever releases those feelings. For me it changed my life forever and I owe my successful life to my sister and parents and later my wife for their total support. I am now eighty and still feel much younger and am in very good health, I can still do A good days work outdoors with A chain saw or what ever the job requires. And I spend most of that time wearing ladies jeans and tops and of course bra and panties underneath, and when i'm indoors and relaxing I wear some nice cozy lounge wear. So don't try to hide those emotions and thoughts bring them out and they will make you A much better person, Life is short enjoy it to the fullest.

Essentially you describe a situation that I have heard or read a number of times before, a transition of personality as well as gender. You do raise an interesting aspect as well. Generally, the issue is raised by those in transition to conditions apparently created by Hormone Replacement Therapy. That is, they reported that the lowering of testosterone and raising of estrogens caused massive, emotional changes with events such as crying jags or other outbursts that were essentially beyond control.

The mosaic of gender has a societal context as well as a personality context. That is, what is defined as masculine, androgynous or feminine can be largely a matter of convention within a specific, cultural group. More specifically, males are usually forced to be masculine whether they wish to be or not and whether it is beneficial or not. Full-blown masculinity, however, is something I believe to be actually rare and confined to a very small (if vocal) sub-set of humanity.

This means that most males are also taught to stifle and subdue so-called ‘feminine’ behaviours thereby presenting in a manner that is nor real and not consistent with their actual selves. This is obviously harmful.

The change in hormonal balance seems to allow the restraints imposed when one was masculine to be released in an overwhelming flood. That the same conditions, if, perhaps a bit, with less impact, occurs in cross-dressers seems probable. So, in both cases, is it simply a matter of being ‘allowed’ to be yourself freeing what your society would define as your feminine self? Or, in both cases, is it a matter of changes in body chemistry? Perhaps both. Perhaps there are other, shared factors.

Certainly being feminine is conducive to happiness, even joy, it is soothing and comforting, it improves our awareness of ourselves and others, it promotes beauty … and all sorts of marvels and delights. I have always been of the opinion that being feminine is far more preferable, in myself and others, to over-bearing over-masculinity.

Araminta.

Dana,
You are describing what I call two different personas (for lack of a better term), and it seems to common to us in the CD world. As I have admitted before, my guy side is basically a hermit and a bit of a grouch, whereas Bettylou is a chatterbox and most empathetic. My guy side also suppresses emotions...or did. I find that Bettylou now presents most of the time, fully dressed or not. My wife appreciates the difference (perhaps that's why she has become more supportive)?