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The nearest I can describe my feeling is an "out-of-body-experience". Carl Sagan referred to an out of body experience as a "rebirth fantasy".
I ask my wife each night if I can " dress". She rarely says no and I go to our bedroom and transform as best I can. She critiques and usually makes suggestions. When I finally emerge in an acceptable form I feel euphoria, contentment and peace.
How do you feel when you transform and finally see the new you in the mirror?
This is exactly the question my counselor first asked me. I told him that it just fits me in a way that nothing else does. I enjoy it and when I'm dressed up I feel a certain peace. It's no longer erotic like it was in my youth. It's just expressing another dimension of myself that demonstrates the diversity within. Thanks for asking!
When I dress for the evening and look in the mirror I feel relaxed & sexy, as if I was supposed to be this way. But I also am happy with my male body and do not want to transition. In my youth I thought it was erotic also. But as time wore on I now find it EXTREMELY relaxing to crossdress. My wife is OK with my dressing, but does not like make-up. I long for a professional makeover. Maybe someday she will go along with the idea.
Grace, thank you for starting this topic.
I am 66 years old and have been dressing totally in private since age 9 or 10 until I told my wife a year ago. With her help I have acquired a cute feminine wardrobe... but my wife will not allow me to wear makeup.
Still when I dress I see in my mirror a lovely middle-aged woman who has waited most of her life to fulfill a need to become feminine, if only for a few hours at a time.
Transforming into Stephanie is a dream come true and corresponding with other girls at this CDHeaven site is a confirmation of who I really am.
Stephanie
oh Grace, thanks for asking...
when I 'see' myself dressed in the mirror I see my true self emerge - the other day I was dressing and as I applied lipstick, I could truly see the woman that I feel inside me. even though I am putting things on (clothes-wise) I feel that I am actually removing years of putting on the 'masculine uniform'
I am pretty much okay with the masc/mask that I wear much of the time, and don't (really) aspire to 'full time Julie' - but when I do dress I feel lifted and freed...
I also find the inner peace while dressed. My wife is accepting within limits, I usually dress in the evening and wear nightgowns or nightshirts to bed. When I look in the mirror is see a new "me". Although not passable, I try to do my best to feminize. I've been CD over 20 years, and still learn from reading posts like this. Thank you!
I feel like the real me. I have to carry a male persona because of family and I hate every minute of it. When I'm dressed what you're seeing is the real me.
When dressed it gives me that warm, fuzzy feeling. I feel complete and totally at ease with no stress. It really feels like a weight has been lifted from me!!!
Lanna💋
Any chance that I get to wear my favorite clothing, lingerie, stockings, heels, dresses, or anything feminine, I feel stronger and much more confident, than I ever have, when wearing men's clothes. I totally feel like I get to be the person that I was born to be.
I feel totally relaxed and free of stress. It has also made me more aware of, understanding of, and concerned about women's issues.
When that last bit of lipstick has been applied, I just feel complete. I am home and so happy with myself at that moment. After that moment, getting dressed, selecting jewelry and a final spritz of perfume just feel so normal. I feel sexy, erotic and ready to go wherever life takes me. It is a shame that I have to remove it all and go back to being drab. Maybe someday I won't have to do that.
It feels so natural and I see myself as I was meant to be. Putting on new outfit always gives me a warm and fuzzy feeling too
Expressing my feminity by dressing seemed so natural but incomplete. When I had my makeover something magical happened. Not only looked very much the lady but felt it within... your comments and encouragement on my photos was really special...Leonara
I feel very relaxed - no stress.
I feel and look at least 10 years younger.
I actually start to feel my feminine side as a woman.
When I dress everything around me seems to slow , relaxation sets in and the feelings just build having a cup of tea and dream.