I don't know

Teresa, none of our journeys are the same. We have different goals and different dreams. That, however, does not mean that each of us doesn't have a place here

Mackenzie Alexandra

Beautiful :  I too see to love ones self and only be who you feel comfortable with. To see and hear from others in their quest ,in their developments and their levels of dress . I too can not be you. I'm in my little world,  to what I feel confident in. It may not be much but to me that's what I'm doing . To be closet,  quite, to be passive is all I can make this.  I too am not you so to what you see of me is all that is here. To pass or not that's not important but in time all things evolved. And as time goes on I'll enjoy  now who I am and hopefully beyond. 🌹

Terrisa. We all belong to our community with different characteristics. Each one has her own path and her means to travel it. There are not two identical people. We are here to support each other down the road.

Gisela

Yes, we are all on our own paths but share a similar journey. Be what you need to be.

Melodramatic I know, a night of red wine, interesting conversation and frustration.  I wanted to tell a dear friend that I will be doing a lot of artwork with soon about it and I couldn't haha And of all people I could tell it would be him.  Thanks all and Hugs - Terrisa

Terrisa, i can so relate.  I still don;t know if i am cd enough to be here, especially in chat.  Everyone seems to chat in terms of transition, which i still don't quite understand. And i do know that i will be stuck living two lives and at my age, way too old to change.  Bronwyn

that is the mystery and a great question. I have been thru and still dealing with this question. {Purging and denial do not work I don't have the answer. I now dress most of the time. Easier now I am retired and live alone. within the last year after 50 years of being in the closet and always hiding I told some dear friends I liked to cross dress their response was very positive. I have since shared my passion with most of my friends. being honest has freed me up to be me. The challenge is always their and I don't have all the answers but I feel good about myself. I feel much happier knowing people know the me I never shared. Kind just one day at a time. Good luck in all you do. Know you are a special person in God's eyes and he loves you. life is a journey we all deal with. I have seen many things but people and friends are what makes the world special.

It makes me wonder if we are just actors and actresses playing characters during our lifetimes. We share this journey in different roles. With love and respect. I am who I am and I glad of being.

Gisela

All the world a stage and we are mearly actors - Shakespeare

Gisela, I had to remind myself that I am me for me and no one else.  I'm separated as me wearing a skirt was the last straw.  Hugs - Terrisa

Hey Jamie, it is so true that true friends only care about what is in you and not the packaging. Clothes are really just to cover ourselves and we should be able to feel comfortable in what we wear.

Denial never works when it is there for the taking (metaphorically speaking) and when it really just you lying to yourself. I'm happy for you and that you have accepted your self.  Hugs - Terrisa

Bronwyn, good to meet you and yes it very hard living two lives at once and harder to live more.  I do understand what you mean about the chats, it does carry a certain amount of influence and does make you question yourself. When I was much younger, sure I might have transed but then again maybe not and it probably wouldn't be a for real thing.

I stumbled on this site because I wanted shoe sizes but I ended up accepting myself as I am; I truly understand that I have no desire to go any further than just wearing the clothes and honestly not even all of it.  (I hate when the tackle falls out lol)  You have to accept your self, your being and your reflection. Just be you for you and I will be me for me and they will be them for them. You belong here for there are many others like us here.  Hugs - Terrisa

My dressing started at 4 wearing pantyhose. I liked wearing them with an oversize shirt that looked like a short dress. I would borrow some heels and go prancing about the hose showing off my pretty lady legs in nylons.

At 17 I shaved my legs and began wearing pantyhose out in public with shorts. Soon after, to show off my legs better I began wearing short women's shorts and women's shoes. I had long hair and a slender physique. I was able to pass as a girl or boy. I enjoyed my androgynous look. I got to wear my pantyhose and show off my legs.

I hadn't thought of or planned on eventually dressing fully fem until one afternoon I was in my pantyhose, short shorts and girl's sandals buying a lot of pantyhose. A girl behind me on the cashier line was intrigued with my outfit but was surprised I wasn't taking my dressing further. With her help I did.

Why we dress and how far we take it seems to depend on the individual with support and encouragement or condemnation from others.

I don't either and I have said that for probably 40 of my 71 years. Myself now at this point in my life as crazy as it sounds. I dress up and go just about any where I want in my own town. I love dressing clothes makeup the more complete the better but that is me now. I never expected to leave the house dressed up and be comfortable with it. It true your confidence seems to erase other people's concern for your dress. In fact most times that don't even look at me. That being said I have no plans at special surgeries or augmentation ever. if it ain't broke don't fix it. No physical changes but other than church and planning golf I dress as a girl. Nobody or society can tell you what to do with your body related to gender. good luck in your decisions I wish you the best.

Cheers to you Jamie do what you will as long as your will brings no physical harm.  We all have choice, free will and the right to pursue happiness and I do feel sad for those that don't.  As always Hugs - Terrisa