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Hello girls....
I left cdh suddenly, under a cloud and bitter!!
I have found out things this week that does not condone my behaviour, but could explain it.
Since the turn of the new year, I have literally felt awful. Self doubt, sluggish, moody and snappy, tired...and basically down....but throwing myself fully into CDH, I just couldn't understand what was happening to me
I work with wonderful people, some for a long time, and one or two had asked if anything was wrong?? I literally broke down at work on Monday.....boss was super and so understanding!!!
I pride myself on my honesty, but also I am approachable and like to think I'm usually bubbly and easy going....that's all gone....and it's got so bad I even left here....a place i have grown to love.
I'm not going into medical facts and figures....to cut a long story short, I fell apart on my doctor's shoulder ( I have known her for years, she is a friend as well)...I blubbed out everything, including my crossdressing and also my involvement on cdh....I even took of a shoe and sock to show her my toenails...she was so wonderful.....and " I'm out!!!!"
So it turns out, since the beginning of January, I have developed depression and it's been getting worse......
.I didn't realise...but apparently accepting it is a good start....I'm starting to feel good about myself again, because now I know what's actually wrong..and my doctor thinks that I need to talk more, as I live alone, so basically.....I almost have you girls on prescription!!!
Thanks for all the messages when I left, they were wonderful....all making me smile....
I would like to single out four girls, no names, but my god!!!....three literally pulled me out of the abyss by my ankles....and the fourth.....would not take "no" for an answer until I spoke to her...she literally stalked me "via email"....
You know who you are, and you have dropped me into a debt I can never repay
So to end....I'm coming back to give it another try, once again I'm sorry for my behaviour when I jumped ship.
Please, no sympathy..but I'm taking it slowly, I just need a bit of time and space.....
Thank you for taking the time to read this...love,
Grace Scarlett x
As far as I see it, no need to explain or apologise - good to see you back where you belong, honey.
Don't ever give me your email, coz if you do another disappearing trick, I will be at the front of the pack of stalkers!
Love Laura.
My goodness Grace. I have shivers up my spine and tears of joy and hope in my eyes for you! Welcome home!
Love,
Clara
Love and forgiveness conquers all.... Sending both to you with all my heart!
Marcellette
Laura.....that's the profile pic I LOVE...
thank you xx
Many sweet hugs, Grace!
Grace,
Welcome back you were surly missed by everyone. I am going to tell you this on this public forum. You pulled me out of my depression and made me feel better. You know my whole story. So I am extending the same medicine to you I am here for you to talk to 24/7/365. I dumped my problems on you at your worst time so go ahead and dump yours on me. You know my real first name and I think you have my personal email address. So I'm here and I'm listening.
BIG HUGS XOXOXO
Kathleen
Grace theirs no need to worry about things you just get better take it slowly as yes you were gone a short time and missed so much and now so happy you are back home where you belong .. Im sitting here crying like the girl i am just so happy your home ..
💖💖💖💖💋💋 Stephanie 💋💋💖💖💖💖
GRACE!!!
Welcome back Girl!! 🤗🤗❤️❤️
Thank you for filling in what happened. Depression explains a lot!
I too live by myself in an apartment. Feel free to reach out if ever you need.
Grace...your loved and cherished here. Don't ever think you can't rally us Girls to help out.
Love Ya Grace!! 🤗🤗🤗❤️❤️❤️💋
Robyn
Grace,
Good to have you back.
Looking forward to hearing more from you.
All me, and no Faceapp, thanks to the incredible artistic makeup talents of Poppy Tallulah!
She is happy to work with CDs 😊
https://www.poppytallulah.co.uk/brighton-makeupartist
😍😍😍
Where's your profile pic?
😋
Love Laura
Stephanie,
I'm here crying also because I am so very happy that Grace is back. I'm going to celebrate and toast grace's return with a glass of wine. It must be 5:0o PM somewhere. Well Okay it's 1:42 PM here on the East coast of the US. Cheers to Grace.
Kathleen
Kath..i admit I bit off more than I could chew...I know I did!!...but it's not just you !!!
you have climbed through a whole heap of grief...If I helped, I'm glad...grace is glad is a good thing at this moment...so unknowingly, you ARE helping me....thanks for the offer anyway...
love you girl xx
First welcome back sweetie, so wonderful to read your name here again. Absolutely no need to apologise for anything, we have all been there, some way or other. No more details needed. You concentrate on your health, that's priority over anything, and if you need a break "bloody take one sweetie" we will all understand. Welcome back you were missed tremendously sweetie. Lv Amanda xx
Welcome back Grace.
Absolutely no need for any apologies.
Depression is a total bastard. I have suffered from depression partly due to my cross dressing and I thought I was a completely lost soul and could never return to any sort of normality. The doctor said to me that I needed to think about it like this: When you break your leg I can fix the break in a 20 minute operation but it will probably take at least 6 months if not a year for you to learn to walk and run again. It's like that with depression. Your mind is broken and with your help we can fix it but it will take time. I didn't believe him but he was right and now I am much better, completely at ease with cross dressing and looking forward to the next part of my life in which HildaRuth will play a much bigger part. So take it one day at a time, remember that all your sisters are here for you and you will emerge stronger, more confidant and the person you want to be.
Love and hugs in abundance
HildaRuth 💋💋
