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The problem for me is that i enjoy Roberta more than the original me. I am more comfortable being her than him.
I'm at a point in my life where Rowena is a huge part of me, so no...I surely would not want her to go away. I accept the challenges that come with being Rowena, understand that even though I try I'll never be 100% passable, and embrace the feelings of attraction that have changed. It's my new world and I love it.
I struggle with this a lot. Even now I'm getting emotional just thinking about what to say to this. Even though I enjoy crossdressing very much, I feel very guilty about it. I would like to believe that this is just a simple matter of preferences, but sometimes I wonder. Am I damaging society? Am I confusing children? Am I annoying adults? Am I offending women? Am I being irresponsible with my choice to live my life how I want to? And most important of all; am I hurting my wife? In regards to the last question, I've asked my wife and she says she's fine, so I have to believe her. I would like to think that living my life as Orchard makes me feel better, and that the positive energy I get from being Orchard would flow outward and would spread to others so they can feel more positive, but the stares really get to me sometimes and they stay with me. Maybe I just have a garbage brain that just focuses on the negative, or that it interprets everything negatively, but it's that same brain that prefers women's clothing so it makes me wonder if everything I think is wrong. Or is that just apples and oranges? I don't know. Would I take the pill? For now, I'll say no and try to work through this, but I'm getting so tired and every time I receive any type of compliment it just seems so empty, like the person is only complimenting me so they can feel better about themselves. I hate my brain.
@orcharddwee Orchard,
Our Patriarchal society is messing with your mind. What we do is not wrong, we just have to figure out the best way to be true to ourselves, and loved ones. It sounds like you have the support of your wife, and that is an awesome thing to have!
Be you as best you can 
@orcharddwee This may be one of the best thoughts on us I have ever seen. Thank you.
I'm one of the lucky girls. Before I had the talk with my wife I wanted 'her' to go away but my wife has been understanding and has encouraged me to be comfortable in my own skin. I'm free to express my masculinity and my femininity whenever I choose so I'm no longer interested in getting 'fixed'.
Elizabeth
Most definitely not, I just recently accepted my true self and I love who I am. I just love that side of me and how she makes me feel. The opposite would be true but I would probably accidentally lose the anti-reverse pill. I have truly embraced Andrialynn she is who I am. So sorry Giselle I wish you the best.
That’s a difficult question. I want to say no but I think my answer would be yes. Being a closet crossdresser is a confusing and stressful way to live especially when you are growing up. Now this is purely hypothetical as I cannot imagine seeing a pair of heels and a skirt or dress and not wanting to wear them or at least try them on out of curiosity.. and then wouldn’t that start this whole crossdressing adventure over once again ?
