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Living my life as an intersex woman

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(@reallylauren)
Noble Member     Victoria, British Columbia, Canada
Joined: 3 years ago
The Woman Inside, Lauren's Journey
 
I know how I feel, but the big question is, how would you feel?
How would you feel if you found out that for almost all of your life there was something about you that was hidden from you?
 
Something very important.
 
Something that would explain things you had felt since you were a very young child.
I knew, I didn't feel it, in the depths of my very young soul, I knew, that I was supposed to be a girl.
 
I was different. I am different. I have gone through my entire life with that feeling.
 
Now I know why.
 
After years of having various doctors poke and prod my body, only to have them scratch their heads and say it wasn't important, I met with a doctor who was able to figure it out, and explain it to me.
 
I am intersex.
 
Intersex people are born with physical and sexual traits that are a mix of male and female. I have both and there is a distinct possibility that there may be internal differences as well.
 
But why was I never told? Why was that hidden from me?
My parents and all those doctors have passed away, so there are no answers to obtain from them.
I finally know what I was feeling, and that those feelings were true.
 
But I am left wondering what my life would have been like if I had known at a much younger age.
 
So many intersex people feel cheated, lied to, lonely, and many have always felt like they didn't fit. Society and culture has not been kind to intersex people.
 
I have been working on a book about my journey as a transgender woman. I now know that I am more than that. I am an intersex female and will live the rest of my life as that person. People need to know who we are, why we are, and learn to accept the fact we were born this way.
 
I have taken it upon myself to spend time and share words and stories that will, hopefully, be informative and educational.
 
How many intersex people do you know? I can say this to all my friends: You do know somebody now, who is intersex.
 
Until next,
Lauren
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Lady
(@sashabennett)
Joined: 1 year ago

Noble Member     Wick, Caithness, United Kingdom
Posts: 803

@reallylauren Up to this point I can't say that I knew any intersex people (at least that I knew about) As to how it would make me feel? I doubt I could answer that honestly unless I was in that position. It might explain a few things but I doubt it would change much. I've always been able to just accept myself for who I am, fortunately, otherwise I'd be a complete mess by now LOL 😀  

Writing a book sounds like it could be a good theraputic excercise, even if it just ended up being for yourself it would be a great way of getting your feelings in order & now it sounds like you will have a whole new chapter (or 2) to add to it. Hopefully it will see the light of day at some point & I wish you success with it.

X

Sasha

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Lady
(@ilandkathy)
Estimable Member     San Diego, California, United States of America
Joined: 9 years ago

Best of luck in your writing about your journey.  I believe there are many individuals, who unknowingly, live as a gender assigned to them by others rather than the gender their DNA  reveals them to be.  I was a DES baby in 1947.  My mother took DES, an artificial female hormone, prescribed to help support a full term pregnancy.  She had previously suffered two spontaneous abortions.  The over exposure to female hormones upset my bodies development as a normal male or female.  I have always felt more femme than male, however, circumstances demanded that I live as a male.  While I am satisfied that I've lived a good life as a son, father, and grandfather, a veteran, and retired Police Officer, I often see women around me whom I admire as as examples of women I wish had a chance to fully emulate.  Jealousy rears it's ugly head. Life as a woman seems to be something that I was robbed of.  Closet crossdressing is as close as I can get without destroying my family and their image of whom I am.  Maybe the next time around I will get to live the life of a female - a girl, a woman, a mother and grandmother.

Again, best of luck and know that I understand.

Kathy

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(@heels234)
Prominent Member     Mesa, Arizona, United States of America
Joined: 9 years ago

Good luck on your book.Please let me know when its in print.I want a copy,please.

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Lady
(@jincrocker)
Prominent Member     Oregon, United States of America
Joined: 5 years ago

I am happy that you have found yourself Lauren.

My body developed unconventionaly. My penis stayed thin and short well into my 20s, never did have much body hair. I was raised in an all female household so was often dressed like one of the girls. I did develop my own natural breasts at puberty. While I now have fully functional testicles, I have often wondered if there was a tiny ovary hidden somewhere inside.

Please feel free to share your journey with us.

Love ya,

Jinny

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