Out for the first time in 3 months....in drab

When I decided to be Beth 24/7 I purged most of the men's clothes. I  saved a few things in case I had to appear as male somewhere for legal reasons. Today was such a day for the first time in three months. I had to take care of a couple of issues that would be best if done as a male. (I could have gone en femme but it would be quicker and less complicated as male)

So I dug out the men's jeans, t-shirt, sweatshirt, socks and shoes. I kept my panties on, I won't compromise on that. Dressing was such a fright, UGH ! No wig, man's baseball cap, of course no makeup or flashy jewelry.

Finally convinced I looked (horrible) like a man I set off. I stopped at a store for smokes and went in. I found myself looking to see if anyone was looking at this strange man. Wow, my confidence at being a woman has grown so much it has made me insecure at being a man!!!! I went to the counter and requested my cigarettes ......with my female voice!..... I still often slip up and don't maintain the proper female voice throughout a conversation but here I was as a male and automatically spoke in female voice! It is becoming a natural part of me! As soon as I spoke I realized I used the wrong voice and had to consciously change my speech.

Another thing I realized is that my internal voice (yeah, the crazy one in my head....) is now female. My thoughts have a higher pitched tone and are definitely female.

Ok, I'm definitely accepting my female life as MY LIFE.

Has anyone else experienced difficulty switching back and forth between your male and female self?

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Beth