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This question just might be more centered on us who are in en-femme a significant amount of time.
When in en-femme from MtF, while in en-femme the decision(just for fun)to crossdress as a man are you back to your original self or are you actually crossdressing as a woman this time?
Consider this a tongue in cheek question.
Crossdressing as a woman the moment I leave the house and back again ( happily) as a male the moment I return and clean off makeup undress and put away clothes. 3-4 hours of Female Impersonation is enough to satiate me until the next time. I think of myself as a female impersonator first and crossdresser second and totally get a kick out of fooling people I am out and around with. The sexual arousal part disappeared years ago.
I am always just a guy in a dress, and male even when fully en femme. I have wondered what it would be like to be female, but nothing beyond that mild curiosity.
I'm not a different person when I dress up. If I'm going out in public, I may change mannerisms, gait, voice, or any other deportment. I'll likely wear a wig (although it may simply be clip-on bangs). But I'm not a different person, just as any female in you life isn't a different person when wearing makeup or a dress. If I'm at home, I may be partially or fully dressed (I may or may not have forms, wig, or makeup on). But I'm still dad to my kids.
So changing back is just that - changing back. I'm not a man crossdressing as a woman crossdressing as a man.
As I understand your question you are asking if someone who mainly presents as female dresses in male clothing are they cross-dressing FtM.
I am always "me" however I am dressed, I am always both genders and I suspect the answer to your question is very much dependent on any given individual's motivation for dressing.
For me it always feels more normal when dressed en femme - that, I consider my norm. I therefore indeed feel like I’m crossdressing when I go drab. On the other hand this apparent FtM crossdressing doesn’t feel good, it doesn’t feel at all like me, not least because I feel I am lying to myself and the world.
I have only been cross dressing for 3 years. The first 18 months was always underdressing. I now cross dress (except for wig and makeup) about 50% of the time if not slightly more. I do spend about 3 hours each night with a wig on and lipstick in place. Both drab and en femme dress feel normal. Yes, when I'm in a dress, tunic tops and jeans, or a nightie, I feel 100% natural dressed that way. I suspect if I were cross dressed 95% of the time, including wig and makeup, I doubt I'd feel I were cross dressing when in drab mode. I think what I would feel is disappointed some circumstance dictated that I dress that way.
