Plus 1 !

I built up the confidence, shoved aside the fear and insecurities. Then hit the call button.

Ive been waiting for a little over two weeks to talk to my wifes brother.

I'd built up the courage to talk to him once before, but as it hsd turned out, he had just arrived in Maui for a 2week vacation.

I had several questions to ask him and disclose my secret for advice.

For reference; my brother-in-law used to do drag shows up until a few years ago (not sure on all the reasons). Anyways...

Him and his husband got back a few days ago from their vacation and so i politely waited, letting them settle back into things. (Impatiently waited to be honest)

I sent him a text checking to see if he had a moment to talk and that i needed to ask him a few things.

A couple hours later and he called.

Admittedly it took me a good 15min or so to get to the point of my call. My nerves were a wreck. I had no reason to worry about what he would think. I knew he would be accepting, supportive, and keep it a secret. Still, i had to battle down the swelling panic to tell him.

Dropped it like a piano out of a ten story building. Completely took him by suprise. All i got was an "oh?" Followed by several seconds of silence, then finally, "okay, what do you need to know?"

We talked for an hour or so back and forth, he gave me some pointers for practicing my make up that i need to try, as well as how to take care of wigs.

It was a very pleasant conversation.

He thought that i didnt approve of his drag when i stayed with them for a year while i worked away from home (got laid off and found a quick replacement working in the city, he was the first to offer me a room to stay in while i was out there.)

I explained to him that i didnt find it weird or revolting and told him that i was absolutely fascinated by it, but was way to insecure about expressing an interest in it. Told him i would have loved to have been dressed up and go to a drag show with him. Cleared up a major misunderstanding he had, which just greatly improved my relationship with my brother-in-law.

After that the conversation really picked up traction and covrred a lot of topics.

Ending with him asking if I'd like any of his wardrobe. He said he has no intention of doing drag anymore.

So next time we head out he said we could go through the wardrobe and find stuff that i liked or whatever fitted. Should be an absolute blast.

We are going out wednesday for a couple days, staying with another family member though. Might get a chance to go over there for a bit though.

My trust/support circle is up 1 more, 3 total now. Feel just a bit better about it, slightly less insecure, and a touch freer.