Questioning...

You are NOT ALONE!!
I to have the same thoughts, i work in a office setting where i see all kinds of women and how different they all dress.
And there is always a day or two when someone will be wearing something and i think to myself dam i would love to try that on. Or i bet i could pull that outfit off.
I look at women now with the eyes and feelings of another women i think i dont judge them i just want to be lime them wear whar they do. And yes i am only M2F crossdresser, but it seems to me more and more i want to dress play now in the fall wealther.
Hugs and kisses to all my sisters that feel this way. Why i dont know i just do😚😁

JaiymeLynne,

I still feel the same way as you!! You are not alone in your thoughts. It's some thing we all deal with everyday.

Love and hugs,

Lanna💋❤

Hi Jamielynne,
You're no different from the rest of the girls on this forum. And are you transgender? That is a question many of us struggle with for years. IMO, it's a question of semantics; do you want to live and present as a woman, or do you really feel the need to transition? Either one causes a major change in your life, and shouldn't be rushed. You will figure out the answer in time. Meanwhile, enjoy this life. And no, you are not "wrong".

Hi JaiymeLynne

You’re not alone.  Many struggle with the same questions you bring up.  Enjoy the feelings and desires.  After all life can be one step then another.  And many will say it’s too short.

We should enjoy seeing a GG in a lovely dress or skirt.  And enjoy our pretty dress or skirt.

As far as being TG goes Bettylou bring a great point home.  Do you want to transition and present and live full time as a woman?  It’s a complex question only you can answer.  I wish you good luck on your journey.

Alice

Hi JaiymeLynne,

You are certainly not alone. The gender noise can get very loud in an office. There are times i find myself admiring the shoes, purses or earrings some of the ladies wear. The gender issue only you can answer. Bettylou said it best, do you want to present or transition to be a woman. I'm seeing a therapist now who is helping me figure it all out. The first thing she told me is take my time to decide what I want to do. Take your time and don't rush into anything.

Hugs,

Angela

Hi Jamielynne

I think most off us are all ion the same boat, this is something that we can only decide for our self, Just have fun with your journey

Paula

Hi JaiymeLynn,

We have very similar stories. I  have also said “never again” a number of times.  Then I would see another woman wearing something cute and the whispers would start. The little voice telling me that I could look like that and telling me how unfair it is that I can’t. I’m 64 now and fear that I missed my chance.

Am I transgendered?  I don’t really know.  I may never know.  Does it matter?  Who cares?  Right now, today I just want to feel good myself and who I am.

All perfectly normal, dear - don't worry about it, but I'd stop purging as it only leads to regret!

Love Laura

As others have stated, you are not alone with these feelings. Personally I have dressed & purged too many times until I finally went to a therapist, she helped me understand that I might be more gender-fluid (her term) and I told my now wife that I consider myself 80% male & 20% female, like to dress but not considering transitioning. She accepts that & allows me to wear panties everyday & even went shopping with me for some under garments & I am going to our Halloween dance as a sexy witch, she loved that idea.

Enjoy yourself & seek the help of a professional if you think you might need it.

After suppressing my inner feelings for so many years, a couple years ago I accepted that I was a woman inside and wanted the world to see me as a woman on the outside.  I accepted that my crossdressing was about my connecting with my inner woman.  I think about it every day.  I see the man parts in the mirror and wish I could change it all to breasts and a vagina with nice curves to complement.  I love everything that goes with being a woman...the clothes, the makeup, that togetherness that women share.  I understand your conflicted feelings.   Why do the dressing if it cannot be more?  Unless you are going to take those additional steps of HRT and the ultimate journey of GRS, what is this dressing all about?  For me, I am taking the baby steps of electrolysis and laser treatments to rid myself of facial and body hair.  Is HRT in my future?  At the moment, I say not but who knows if that might change a year from now or beyond.  It's why I am taking the step of hair removal to be ready for that next step if it happens (plus it makes it so much nicer for putting on and wearing makeup all day).  So for the time being I dress because it makes me feel good inside to see how beautiful I look outside and I would wish for you to take the same enjoyment in dressing.  Are you able to dress and share the moment with likeminded others?  We human beings need the company and comfort of others and it's wonderful to share dressing moments with other CD's whether it's at a coffee shop, a mall, a club, etc.

And I recommend you STOP the purging.  Why do you purge?  Is there an SO in your life that you are hiding this from?  I always recommend to others that if they are considering a purge, to put their things away for two weeks minimum, a month is better (don't even look at your things), and after that lull in the dressing, go ahead and purge if you must.  Most times these feelings of purging go away and you won't have the regrets that come with throwing away wonderful clothes and cosmetics.

and more expense when we replace what we purged

Thanks everyone for your kind words. I like the idea of putting things away for a time, instead of purging. I did it earlier this year, and really regret it. I also will be looking for a therapist, in person. I tried an online set up, but I need to be face to face, now, I think. I think about this all the time. So there must be something to it, I guess.

thanks again for your support,

JaiymeLynne

Anne, my journey sounds so similar to yours. I don't know how far it will go, but I know I love JaiymeLynne (so far) and would love to be out with friends exploring the world en femme. HRT...wow that seems like a big committment, but hair removal is a must. I am searching out friendly places in Las Vegas to get started. I will get a therapist too. I need to understand more about the journey, is it real or just fantasy.

Thanks for your words of support.

JaiymeLynne

Few things in life are black and white, gender and presentation included. We are all somewhere on a spectrum, some far tot the rights, others to the left but many of us are somewhere well away from those end points. I would just advise taking your time exploring these feelings and desires and just wait and see where you end up and feel most comfortable. There is no right or wrong answer to these questions you are asking about yourself, just where you ultimately find the best fit or most comfort.

Good luck on your journey.