@juliarey I took it as agreement. I didn't mean what I said to be the #1 most important thing. God definitely is #1 and my daughter 1a.
Accepting that I was not the center of my own universe and that someone else with higher authority than me, a mortal human being, was a big deal. Also, I don't know when it was exactly that I came around, but when I learned to love myself was a big deal. I am enough. I am awesome just as me. For so many years I didn't like myself. I didn't even realize I didn't like myself. That lead to a negative self perception & self destructive actions.
It might just be a couple compliments here & there as shallow as that seems. There is a female self help influencer that gives dating perspective to women from a man's viewpoint. She said that men get so few compliments on their appearance that you would be surprised how far a simple compliment gets you. I was at an introspective point in my life, & a lady friend remarked how genuine I was. I can tell you where I was, what the time of day, & what I was doing. That's how much it meant to me.
As it relates to crossdressing, it gives me the courage to dress how I want. Yes, people are going to recognize me because I am a man dressed super girly & w makeup on (classy, from the waist up, but very princessy 🌺) But I will be judged on if we have a fun, flirty conversation.