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So I met up with Jeff at Dunkin Donuts , I thought it was best to be in a public place when telling him I thought it best not to meet again . He looked very differently tonight, he was dressed up a bit (jeans, sweater) but kept that cute grizzled unshaven look I personally like on a man. I wore my favorite red angora sweater dress, black pantyhose and red heels . I told him he looked nice and he said the same and before I started my speech he asked if it was ok for him to go first. Reluctantly I said yes and here is where my night got extremely shocking .
He started with that he knew from our first meeting that I looked familiar and that there was just something familiar about me too him but he couldn’t put his finger on it. It just felt too comfortable for there not to be something familiar. Anyway when he walked me to my car the first night he said while I pulled away he wrote down my license plate . I was like why and he said he had a friend of a friend who was a Trooper and asked that he run my plate ..... Oh MyLord!!!
it was then that he said he found out it was me !!! I asked why he kept our second coffee date and why he didn’t say anything then? He said he had a nice time the first time but wanted to meet again to see something? I said see what ? He said see if that fact that he knew and the feelings he had was similar to the ones he had almost 30 years ago when we were in high school and college.
I was taken aback, I said what feelings? He said that he always felt like he was attracted to me but at that time was unsure and never wanted to ruin our friendship, then life happened and we went our own ways He said 3 marriages later he has finally realized that he was never being who he really was. I was in total shock for at the time way back when I never thought of him that way , and of course never thought this was going to be our discussion?
I told him i was surprised and shocked and I don’t know what to say . He said he wasn’t looking for me to say anything but did say seeing me who I am tonight leads him to believe that I am also not living as who I really am. Was I really happy he asked ?? My eyes welled up I didn’t know what to say but if for no other reason he got me thinking about my most recent thoughts of men over the last several months and if I was being the real me?
At this point I’m totally flummoxed and have no words. He said tell me you aren’t feeling something right this minute! I told him I’d be lying if I said no but I’m not sure what that feeling is right now... Suprise , shock, relief, more shock, etc. All I know is that I had to process it all.
He promised me he would never say anything about me it was a secret , but he did want to see me again on my time frame to discuss what he said and my thoughts . I told him i appreciate his promise snd how’s he kept it but was worried for the last time we met it smelled like you were drinking and I know what can happen when we all drink , He said he only had something because after finding out about me and it being our second meeting he was nervous.
I said ok I trust you and quire honestly at that point I had no choice but to believe it. At this point I totally forgot what I came here for !! We agreed they I would reach out to him to discuss this further but until then nothing. He walked me to my car and said you have my word this is just between us and at that time he kissed me..... and I kissed back !!!!!
I have lots of thinking to do most importantly whether my future life is meant to be as a current husband or maybe all along it was went for me to be a wife.
As crazy as it sounds there’s a sense of relief to me that I am going to find the eventual answer and how I go about it what the results I will finally get the elusive answer I have bee looking for.
Thanks for listening girls and hope you’re full of thoughts and advice!!
Hugs and Kisses
Happy Weekend
Candace
Ohh, shit! What a conundrum he has posed for you! Wow... well, a huge thing for both of you to think through, negotiate your way through!
I really wouldn’t want to be in your shoes... though I do have a little story to tell that is somewhat along these lines.
In my drab years, I met a wonderful, attractive young woman, Sandy. She was the epitome of the woman I was most attracted to... A skier, a mountain girl, well shaped, a great smile, a fab sense of humour etc. Trouble was... I was married! Oh, yep... I tried to make it so that Sandy was the other half of the woman I thought I loved!
So... that didn’t work out so well and I left NZ leaving Sandy behind and began my adventure in Europe. I divorced over there and returned to NZ a few years later to literally bump into Sandy in the supermarket. We began a torrid love affair (she had gotten married as well) but sadly... my love-of-my-life had feet of clay and we parted after a year or so! We had fulfilled all of our desires for each other but realised that, in spite of all those years of yearning, we weren’t meant for each other.
To return to today... you’ll have to balance your heart with your mind over this! Someone’s unrequited passion from the past may not suit today’s wishes. We all grow and whatever you decide to do has to be determined on today’s timeline and nothing from the past.
Sorry... but your story has struck a chord with me. Message me if you think you might need an assist!
Big Hugs Polly 💋💋💋
To be kissed by a man!
Oh my! Would I like that.
Lee Ann
It was on our third meeting that Steve pulled me close and kissed me...passionately 😍 Never had I imagined that a deep, yet simple kiss would unlock something in me that I had never felt before. Even though I was introduced to my bi side years ago, I had never even remotely thought about kissing a man...but Haley loved it! Sex and intimacy may be intertwined, but they are different and kissing for this girl is the ultimate form of intimacy, and an indication that a true human bond exists. Am I still surprised I enjoy/enjoyed kissing him so much? Absolutely, but I’m sure we will do it again next time!
Haley😘
Wow Candace that is a great story I am happy for you other than the part where you mentioned you are a husband .
That makes it very tough.
However it is a beautiful story and I dont know the whole situation.
I hope you get it sorted out.
Hugs Patty
Haley
It feels more and more comfortable for me every time it happens that the suppressed bi in me is/ has come to full light of which it becomes harder and harder for me to to suppress!!!
Candace
Imagine head to toe shivers than toe to head shivers 100 times over!!!! Like nothing I have ever experienced before in my entire life!!!
Candace
Most girls like boys, and most women like men. I’m not sure you can suppress what you really desire. I tried for years, but as I allow Haley to blossom within me, my fears and the guilt that used to feel so heavy, especially “afterwards”, has begun to disappear. No longer do I feel the remorse, and I now feel free to enjoy a very special relationship that provides tremendous pleasure for both of us. I’m a little different than many of the girls here, and am happy to share with you...if it helps you sort through it in some way. But best to PM me if you would like more details.
Haley😘
Thanks so much Haley I could use your expertise here!!
Candace
Call it expertise, or just call it emotions🥰 After all, isn’t this all about how it makes us feel?
Haley😘
