THANKS! 🙂

Well, I guess I’ll put another coin in the slot machine and see what happens…

Hi Ladies!

Today is my one-month anniversary since joining CDH. It’s been an absolute hoot!

I lurked around for a couple of weeks prior to joining, but once I realized that this is a very safe and friendly place for crossdressers and transgendered folks, I cannon-balled in!

I can’t over-emphasize the importance of what this past month has meant to me. I’ve been a lonely crossdresser for 59 years never realizing I’m really not alone. I’ve made many friends all over the world and we have spoken intimately about our crossdressing desires and needs, something I can never do with most others. I’ve also explored and re-examined my own sexuality too. My god! The dormant memories that are flooding back in! I’m giddy with my new found honesty and acceptance.

My mom influenced my crossdressing behaviour and values and I thank you for them! My CDH name is a tribute to her. She had a sharp and acerbic wit and she raise me all on her own. She worked in the fashion industry for Levi’s, Jordache and others. (Btw, I know how to operate a sewing machine and surger).

So, I got to see some very lovely ladies as a kid. And I’ve always wondered why I couldn’t dress like them? I asked my mom about this when I was 10 and she said tongue-in-cheek, “Heh, maybe one day!”. I stole her nylons and she knew it, but never really said anything. (However, I also stole her smokes as a teenager and that pissed her off!). When we lived apart, she would let me know when she’d be travelling, so I stayed at her place. Well, what a coincidence! High heel shoes and nylons in the spare bedroom and just my size too! Thanks, mom!

She died young (too many smokes), and crossdressing took a backseat for many years. When I told my SO before we married, she just smiled, shrugged her shoulders and said, “Well that explains a lot!”. Never been much of a guy’s-guy. I always preferred hanging out with the gals. My SO and I are very much “As” in the “LGBTQA+” world and I can certainly include an additional letter or two for me!

I have not ventured out fully yet, although I have worn my nylons with short-shorts, but I don’t think that counts. But I am working towards it. Las Vegas is on my “to do list”. The World just isn’t yet ready for us crossdressers, especially when alone and vulnerable. For those who have found a way to express their femininity to the outside world I say, “God Bless You and Carry On!” I’ll get there one day…

HOWEVER, I am encouraged and delighted with younger folks these days. I see many young adults managing their careers and all that they need to know to survive and thrive. I couldn’t keep up anymore. And, best of all, their attitudes towards the old ways of thinking frustrate them! They want a new paradigm, a way to accept everyone openly and with love based on one’s heart and state-of-mind instead of what they wear, their colour or what they drive. My nurse daughter gets a kick out of my gynecomastic boobs and we’ve had some good talks about bras and my ongoing health (which is just fine!).

So, I just want to say “Thanks!” to everyone for making me feel at home. My world has blossomed tremendously. I wasn’t looking forward to growing old as a closeted crossdresser, but I’m now really looking forward to ageing gracefully, with ample love, as we don our apparel with no nicks on our legs, with a jolly & hearty laugh as we gab the night away, and realize our blessings; all with your guidance, support, humour, and love!

All the best!

💓 Barb :B

(Hmm… I wonder if anyone got my riddle?)