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........my thoughts are all over the map this morning.
Here just to ramble and "talk". Hope all you fabulous Ladies are having a fine day, where ever you are!
I'm in my hybrid state of dress, very obvious today I'm wearing tights. I'll have to see how this goes with my SO.
No interruption of the routine this morning, although I was expecting it. I actually locked the bathroom door this morning, while getting dressed. Feel better because I was able to do my full routine. Felt good!
It was a little scary yesterday, scared with myself at how upset I was when that routine was interrupted. Brought up all sorts of questions. Am I carrying this too far? What is my end game, do I have a goal? What am I expecting from others? Should I expect anything? I'm beginning to think of people/person I may come out to. I even though of, but quickly pushed out of my mind, the "do I purge" question? What if my SO "discovers" all of this and gives me an ultimatum to do so. My answer at this point is a firm "no"!
As we were driving around yesterday there was an interesting discussion on the radio. About homosexuals in the past, and how they were diagnosed with some sort of psychological disorder, needed some kind of treatment and counseling, etc. I made my point and we both agreed, it is not the LGBTQ community who needs treatment or counseling. It is all of those who think or believe something is wrong with "us", that need it!
Forgive me I am as I said, rambling. I Love having CDH and you wonderful Gurls here to "chat" with. It really helps!
Umm, maybe I should seek out a counselor!
Love and Hugs to you all!
R.
Smart people seek therapy when things get overwhelming, the worst thing to do is nothing and wait for something to happen. Sounds like you have a lot of racing thoughts today..
My thoughts anyway..
Lisa
hi rebekka, nah you dont need a counsellor, youre lovely just the way you are 🙂 . sometimes, I think, we can look too deeply into things and I must admit and hold my hands up, no-one is more guilty than me here. things happen along the way, just put it down to experience.
with what you heard on the radio is a typical example of why many of us are scared to go out or come out of the closet. peoples stupid opinions, when they dont have a firm understanding what makes us tick.
nice post, take care rebekka 🙂
love fiona xxx
Thank you Fiona and Lisa!
I appreciate the feedback, always. Yeah, I am over thinking things, and I always have a lot racing through my mind! Trying different things to quell that some!
Love and hugs,
R.
Hi Rebekka, My mind races constantly as well. So maybe our minds are on the same track. I just wanted to pop on and say do what you feel is right for you, in terms of counselling. Having conversations on topics like this have helped me and my wife in accepting and continuing figuring out who I am. As for what happened yesterday, your human and having a moment like that happens. You are awesome lady!
Hugs,
Michelle
Thank you so much, Michelle,
You are fabulous, and I'm really "feeling it" today.
Pretty femme in presentation, and hoping today goes well!
Love and hugs,
R
Given her response, she may not be as closed as you think. Wait a few days and open another conversation, keep it light
Lacey
Hello lovely rebekka. I too have a problem dealing sometimes with schedulus interuptus, I expect things to go the way i plan them (too rigidly). We all have times when we are more sensitive than others and probably alot going on. I swear sometimes I have cycle...complete with PMS, it seems near the middle of each month I hear and react to things more critically than others times, knowing this I watch my Ps and Qs. As to your SO, we as the individuals on our journey have dealt with our own questions, theories, and answers for a period of time. It's seems only fair that when we disclose ourselves to somebody we allow them the time to catch-up a little, reflect and adjust their thinking a bit just like we've had to. Communication and time are paramount to possible success. Almost everything we do in life comes with limits of somekind. Best of luck. Love and live a good life.
Thank all of you wonderful Ladies for your responses. Love you all!
Had a good day, no real words spoken about my dress but more on my little adventures in another post.
🙂
Dearest Rebekka,
We are what we are because our Higher Power or God as you chose, made us the way we are and nothing is going to change that. St. Peter does not give a crap how we dress, but how we conducted our selves as Humans. I do not think my wife was overjoyed but she Love me very and I Loved her just as much. She passed away 8 years ago from Cancer and I miss her every day.
I hope some how this helps you and your S/O. Other than that I'm not why I wrote this.
LoveYou,
Vicki E.
Dear rebekka.
I don't think you need to get therapy or counselling, nobody says this when a woman wears men's clothing, this world is full of hypocrisy and double standards.
The way you dress is entirely your choice, dress how you feel you should, not based on what others think but based on how it makes you feel. Right now I'm dressed in the usual male office attire and I feel like I'm missing something, like I'm not complete.
Be yourself and do it with confidence, those whom truly love and respect you will accept this simply because it makes you happy, others? Who cares about some random on the street?
Thank you Victoria and Chris, for your thoughtful replies.
Love the Ladies of CDH!
Love and hugs,
R
