Two versions of me?

If crossdressing leads ruination then what a great way to go. But seriously it takes time to come to grips with one self. And that is all aspects of ones self. Being a CD is no different. We all go thru it. We all deal with it in different ways.  And eventually we all get thru it. And once you do you will find a happiness that no one can describe.

Head up shoulders back sis. Be proud of who you are. We are here for you.

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Trisha.

Hey Christi, relax, I can recall having those very same emotions and feelings earlier in my CD journey.  Your female self is blossoming, and it is a beautiful part of yourself you are experiencing.   Once I came completely out of the closet some people, very few, thought I had "ruined" my life.  No Way!  I was just starting to live my life to the fullest!

You are in the right place.  Ask away any questions you have.  Lots of love and support here.

Peggy Sue

Being A crossdresser for almost seventy years has brought me much joy and made me  A much better person. I think if I hadn't started my life would have become A terrible  mess, not the happy successful one I have enjoyed all these years.  No there is nothing wrong enjoying your fem side we all have it but only the lucky ones like us  know what  pleasure it can bring. So go ahead buy some new panties and bras be happy and enjoy the good life . Don't punish yourself for being you.

Thanks, I needed to hear that.

Hi again Christi No need to feel any shame here as we have all delt with this feeling .. You were born with Christi in your heart just didnt know how or why till the feelings got stronger as she wanted out for a spell she will not go away she is part of you so embrace her and enjoy her ..

Stephanie

Wow. So I may be fretting over something that could bring more positivity to my life. Hadn’t thought of that possibility. Idk why

I have always said that I am the same person everywhere I go. I can safely say that I am not. There is public me and private me. Most likely that will not change.

Shame comes from what you feel others think about you. I got good advice from a salesperson at Penningtons. What other people think is their problem not yours.

Christi, I used to be in the same position you mention.  I'm growing older and enjoying my feminine side more and more.  Learning to dress better, applying make-up more effectively and reading about everyone else's experiences has given me great joy.  I enjoy my two versions, especially how different they are.  The shame is fading away.  ❤️❤️Megan

Sorry I cannot give you reassurance but I can say that I feel the same way. I flip back and forth, sometimes gradually, sometimes suddenly. Just know you are not alone.
leslie❤️

Hi honey, there's definitely two versions are of me. The happy one in a dress and the one shy one who was scared to live,who wore the same blue jeans and t-shirts everyday.  There no shame in having feminine feeling and you only live once so enjoy it.

Early in my life I felt the shame about what I was doing. I would be dressing in private and felt the elation of dressing then I thought 'What am I doing' and quickly change back.

I think it is a stage where we have our doubts. If you know this is for you just press ahead and you will become stronger.

Just my $.02.

I think we all have a few more than just 2 sides. The person at work. Then the one at home. The coach. The parent. The spouse. The neighbor.

It's not a small stretch to consider changing genders even if its only for appearance. The shame - it comes from a conscience - some of it taught, some instinctive.

Everybody has something in their life they wish they could or should handle differently. Some more easily than others. So far (may seem small and silly to some of you) just holding lipstick to your lips brings on terror. Am I ready to jump into this rabbit hole?

Any shame dwindles as we continue the act. The dwindling can even get scary.

Gwyn

Hi Christi. I have felt shame about dressing as well.  Dressing used be a roller coaster to me.  I remember being disgusted with myself while dressed I took the clothes off and swore I wasn’t going to do it again. Afterward wondering why did I do that, why did I like it, telling myself that I don’t need to do that, I’m not one of those people. A couple days later the urge came back and the scenario would repeat. As the years past the guilt has lifted with the realization that it was a part me and it wasn’t going to go away. Why be guilty about an activity that doesn’t hurt anyone. I think it’s our upbringing as males we are taught from a young age how to act and feel. Any deviation from those feeling and behaviors is frowned upon by some even sometimes by ourselves.

Thanks for lending some perspective. It’s wild how one of those sides can be at odds with another.