What a year it has been, as a real woman, facing a New Year!

 

This is it!! It will never happen again! You only get to enjoy it today until the ball drops tonight and it is gone forever!!

Today's calendar date, if written like I do each day, is, ready for it?

 

Here you go: 123123

Pretty cool! At least I thought it was, LOL

 

Today is my second New Year's Eve living as the person I've always known I was since a young child. As I've written numerous times in earlier posts, I knew I was supposed to be a girl when I was only three years old. This past year contained an incredible day that, literally, changed my life forever! I had developed a medical condition that required a trip to the ER, and it turned out to be something quite common to women, a urinary tract infection.

 

Seven hours after arriving and having numerous tests, I met a lady doctor who told me many things about myself and asked me many questions.

 

As I said above, I always knew I was supposed to be a girl. What the doctor had to say to me confirmed what I've always felt. She said I'd come in identifying as a transgender woman, but there was more to it. She informed me that I am an intersex person, and what I'd come to have treated was due to my "unique anatomy." What she said next is what has changed me for the rest of my life.

"Lauren, you ARE a woman!"

 

Learning all I can about being an intersex female has truly absorbed many hours of my time, and I feel that I've only begun!

 

We enter another new year, and I enter it as a woman faced with many questions, and they all start with the letter W.

Where does my life take me now? Who do I share my story with? When and how do I share the story? When will the rest of my family realize I was born this way? Why do people have such difficulty accepting that there are many of us born intersex?

 

I'm now aiming at having my book finished by the end of March. I have to take what I have completed about discovering about, and living as, a transgender person and incorporate it with the final portion of the book that will deal with living as, and learning that I am, the person I always felt I was from the start, "The Woman Inside", a woman named Lauren.

 

So as we all face and enter this new year in a matter of hours, after having gone through a year that was filled with so many fearsome and challenging global events, we have hope that the new year will bring some promise and healing to a world that needs it badly.

 

I do, with all that is within my heart, wish everybody I know, a Happy New Year!!

 

All my love to everyone,

Lauren