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That sounds crazy.....Maybe a newer car, those panties from Victoria Secret, or maybe that Christmas bonus. For most of us tomorrow is a given...It will come. But for many of us "silver Cross Dressers" there comes a time when tomorrow becomes obscure. I recently had a visit to the Emergency Care to fix a relatively small plumbing problem. While I was there the very thorough Doctor decided I needed a CT Scan. About an hour later she pushed her way into my cubical an calmly but matter of factly started her views as she saw them. Mr Schreiber in your scan I saw some things that were not normal. You have a mass on your liver which worries me since its right where your cancerous prostate was when it was removed. I also noticed spots on your kidney and lung and......... It took a few hours to digest, how bad is this, surgery, chemo, radiation...too far along to even treat. i didn't know and I still don't know. Modern medicine is a marvel but is painfully slow.
Where does that leave me. My future could be a year or maybe twenty.
First a look back, I raised two of the best children God ever put on this earth along with my grand daughter, and my children's spectacular SI's. The people on this site that have instilled in me the confidence to follow the hard road when it's the road that will finally take you to your goal. I joined this site several years back after a long day with a closet and a mirror and found people like ME that wore high heels with dresses and false "titties". Maybe I'm not a freak as my ex-wife called me. That revelation came from every photo and every article I read here.
Now a look forward. I am afraid, afraid of death although I firmly believe in John 3:16. Afraid to say good bye to family and friends. Friends like Paulette, April, Trish, Lorraine, Marg, and Martha to mention but a few....My Green Bay girl friends.
Maybe I got the buggy in front of the horse. Time will tell. But thanks to the best support team a girl could ever want I still have the strength to climb mountains, swim rivers, proudly go to town dressed as the woman I am and change haters to best friends.
No matter where this journey takes me I would like to thank each person here for giving me the confidence to "just do it", and I have, and I will. I love you all- never be ashamed of what God planned for you. LuvNHugs, TERI
You know we are there for you! You are a very special and dear friend!!!!! 
Thank You- Since you have assumed the roll of ring leader (maybe not by choice}of our rag tag group of MISS fits. In the last twelve months I have put you through the test, my divorce, girl friends that weren't, and now this. Thank you for that shoulder I kept wet with tears. But thanks also for more wonderful moments we shared both as friends and most enjoyably Girl friends. LuvNHugs, TERI
Thank You- Since you have assumed the roll of ring leader (maybe not by choice}of our rag tag group of MISS fits. In the last twelve months I have put you through the test, my divorce, girl friends that weren't, and now this. Thank you for that shoulder I kept wet with tears. But thanks also for more wonderful moments we shared both as friends and most enjoyably Girl friends. LuvNHugs, TERI
@borealis Teri, I'm sorry for what you're going through. May you have a complete healing of body and spirit.
I have an understanding of what you are feeling. After having been diagnosed with and having surgery for cancer earlier this year, I underwent chemo until I had a rare reaction to the meds and had to stop. I just had a CT scan this week and they found another two nodules near the surgery site and another on the lung. I'm going for a biopsy this week, but it is still a scary situation. I lost a younger brother to cancer 4 years ago, and I'm still determined to fight this as I too would much rather things be closer to a few years than a few months. But as you said, you just don't know what tomorrow will bring.
@alison-anderson Thank You Allison for sharing that with me. I realize now that I am not alone fighting,THERE ARE OTHERS LIKE YOURSELF FIGHTING AS WELL. I will send prayers. LuvNHugs, TERI
@borealis I feel for you, Teri. We all have a tenuous grip on this Earth and sometimes we just don't know when or how we will let go of it. Knowing something is coming at us is a different story. I wish you the best of luck.
@borealisTeri, sorry to hear of the likelihood of your cancer returning. Today's medicine is something else though might be the treatments they recommend will give you many more years. I look at my progression of my CDing I am thinking at my age (69) I might have 28 days of life or 28 years i don't know. Health right now is good so i will see where my dressing or transitioning??? will take me.
Cassie
@loneleycd Thank You Love.... I pray for a safe jouney for us all. LuvNHugs, TERI
hi .................sorry to read that .................you will be in my prayers........... karley
I'm right there with you. Lost my prostate twenty years ago. Now they are finding cysts, polyps, and nodules. They think I may have liver disease as well. All this because I went into Urgent Care for an ear ache. Sheesh.
Like you said, the future may be a year or twenty. But it would have been that anyway.
Madeline
Teri -
Sorry to hear this - hope you find something out soon. It is hard to wait to find out what it is and what can be done. Hoping things work out okay for you, will keep you in my thoughts.
XOXO
Suzanne
teri sorry to hear sending out a prayer and positive vibes and a merry Christmas
Sorry to hear about the fight that you are about to take on. I had my own 20 yrs. ago. The good Lord and my family got me through it. While not good news it could always be worse. It's going to be a fight, so I'll Pray that you find more strength and stamina than you ever believed you had. Wishing you the best and a speedy path thru treatment.
My thoughts and prayers are with you Teri. I'm a cancer survivor like you an it is all so hard to take in when the initial diagnosis arrives. Hopefully as time goes on your path will become clear and the best case course will emerge.
Hi Teri,
I’m finding it hard to believe what I just read my dear friend. But I know the type of women you are. You are a strong woman, a fighter and a girl who’s not afraid to take on any challenge. And being the person you are you’re well prepared for this one. Plus you have all of us here on CDH and your girl friends from Confident U sending our prayers and lots of healing thoughts to you. You are going to make it through this Teri and I know we’ll all be together at the next get together. I love you girl.
Trish ❤️
@trish1980 Trish, First off I love you girls and meeting you in person at Deva was another wonderful milestone for my CD life. I'm sorry I couldn't call and talk to you so you wouldn't have to find out by reading this but I'm way to emotional to carry on a phone conversation. Just knowing you are there if I need you means everything. Stay warm you beautiful Canadian treasure. LuvNHugs, TERI
One way or the other, we’re all here for you girl and always will be. Stay strong, you are loved ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Trish 💕💋🥰
So sorry Teri. May the Good Lord protect and comfort you.
@dovemtn2016 Thank You Christine. I so appreciate your prayers. LuvNHugs ,TERI
I am in that silver cross age now and have will take any scan or test the doctors offer. They have led to tests, scans with a lot of angst waiting for results when the tests are complete. So far nothing major but one never knows as I age further. I feel for you Terri but you are taking it in your stride, looking at a wonderful life and ready to take what comes on with gusto which is an example to us all.
Big hugs
Angela
Hi Teri,
Thank you for being brave enough to share all of this with us. Girl, you are now on my list of people I pray for, praying for strength, peace and freedom from anxiety. May you rest easier knowing you have friends here on CDH who care for you and will be holding you up.
Big hugs,
Ms. Lauren M
@reallylauren Words will never state how I appreciate the encouragement and prayers I'm getting from my CD girl friends. I love you all. LuvNHugs, TERI
Teri
I've been holding back until we met again after the holidays. I don't remember when or how I heard it but I was taken back that my new friend could be seriously ill. I kept our conversations light but know I have been praying for you since I first heard. From what I have seen, you have the personality, attitude and gumption to successfully fight your illness and with the modern marvels of medicine have an excellent future. Keep that pretty chin up and take comfort from knowing your friends are praying for you and are here for you!
Marian ❤xxoo
@mjagirl Marian, Thank You Sweetie and my newest CD girlfriend. I so appreciate the prayers and support from you and all my girlfriends on this site.
Every year my list of girls I have meet and enjoyed in person grows exponentially.Time with girls, dressed like Princesses in a crowded setting builds a strength within that I believe allows you to look ahead and know whatever is out there is something to overcome if desired. Please keep praying. LuvNHugs, TERI
Teri, I don't know you at all. But as a member of this wonderful community I send you my thoughts and prayers. After 40 years without seeing a health professional I've spent the last year in and out of doctors surgeries and hospitals trying to get to the bottom of my health problems. Nothing clear emerging so far. Bless you my dear xx.
@chrisfp99 Thank You Chrissie, I will send prayers your way as well. Hopefully we will both find some answers, it's hard to put up a fight when you don't know what you are fighting. Keep strong and I will try also. LuvNHugs, TERI
My prayers are with you,one day at a time.The rendition by Elvis titled The Impossible Dream comes to mind,it always inspires me.Michelle.
@heels234 Thank You Love...... The CDH girls are special in so many wonderful ways....Love you all. LuvNHugs, TERI
Wishing you the best. Never give up Teri. Sometimes in the darkest hour there is light and hope.
