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For me it was both.I longed to be a little girl of my own age from the time I started Infant Schhol at four.I would see them playing together wesring their ribbed tights and wished I could join them,dress like them and be them.This got worse when some of them started wearing adult nylons from about ten.By the time I got to Secondary School those feelings got even more intense.By the same token age 12/13 I wished that I was an adult young woman.Pop stars,variety tv chorus dancers with their hot pants,go go boots and American Tan tights were my ultimate role models.I also envied my cousin who was five years older than me.When she got into her teens I envied her pretty skirts and tights.When I was ten I begged her to dress me up in them.She wouldn't oblige with the pantyhose/ tights but did allow me to wear one of her dresses and she made me up too.
When I first started closeted crossdressing in earnest at age of twelve,Helen Reddy was in the British charts with 'I Am Woman'. I triumphantly sang this to myself as I put on my mum's skirt and tights
I love the memory of one of the boys in my class teasing me because I took typing and shorthand with a classfull of girls at my high school.He said I wanted to learn those subjects so that I could be a mini skirted leggy secretary when I got older.He meant it as a joke I am sure but that stayed with me forever.Little did he know that was a prospect that I would relish if it was achievable which of course it wasn't.
Hi Roberta
What an interesting subject. I suppose for me when I started dressing aged about 5 or 6 I would want to be a little girl, I wore my cousin’s dress and she was a couple of years older. This continued until I was probably about 13 when I then started fully dressing in my mum’s clothes, I would wear her best dress and shoes and also always wear her bra and pad it to give myself breasts, since then I wanted to fully dress and look like a woman. Make up and nail polish were always a must at this time as well.
My mother’s clothes were the easiest to access until I was able to buy my own, while my mum had quite modern taste when buying my own I have tried to reflect the current fashion and I guess I have developed my own female style.
But as Roxanne says ‘I love it’ but then I always have.
Jessica x.
Sounds as if [/postquote]you had a great time wearing your mum's clothes Jessica.My mum was 38 when she had me.When I started dressing at twelve she was 41.Her tastes were fairly modern too.I remember the exhilaritating feeling of wearing a lovely red skirt when I was 20.I wore it when my parents were away on holiday.I didn't try any her dresses until I was twenty.Used to put them on when she was out shopping when I was out of work.I looked nice in them.How she never suspected I will never ever know.I wore her things in secret for twenty years.I did start buying my own tights at the age of 21.It wasn't fair or very to carry on wearing hers.
I love hearing stories about all our childhood and teenage dressing escapades.They are so sweet.I loved being a girl but I still have guilt about wearing my mum's stuff.What else could I do.No internet shopping then.A boy buying girls things was unknown.Although I have read about some young crossdressers who were brave enough to do it.
Well Rosanne.You look lovely in all your pictures.Very feminine.You were certainly meant to be a girl dear.I know I was too.
I first started dressing up with my sister when I was very young (5 or 6). So I would have to say a girl of my age.
Roberta.........You know.....my grand-daughter said on July 31st...........I am a big girl now I am to bigger!
I went was a boy and May 29th, when I what you be 6th. On May 29, 2018 I a 70 years old........and a cried my years for eyes out. I WISH YOU I MY AGE OF 5 YEARS AGAIN!!
Lady Veronica
SSOOOOOOOO BBOOOOOO
Definitely felt both ways. The women I saw and wanted to be like were usually in their 20s and 30s. The rock chicks... Yeah, still the best. I didn't connect with any girls my own age enough to want to be like them, but I was definitely envious. Had I been one of them, at least how it looked from the outside I probably wouldn't have wanted to grow up so fast!
There was a time when I was young that I thought the only difference between a boy and girl was the length of their hair. I thought that if I didn't get a hair cut, I would turn into a girl. That was an age when I thought that girls had the cooties. I still had an interest in their swimsuits though. Even that young and wanting to wear one to play in the little pool in the back yard or the creek close by, I still had a voice of wisdom inside my head that told me to keep it secret.
I just wanted to a girl my own age, so depressing even at a young age not being able to join in properly with all the girls my own age 🙁
when i was young i always wanted to be able to wear the party dresses my younger sister wore to birthday party's but really now i just want to be a mature woman and function normally in society
Like Ms. Alexis, when I was young I would go to bed each night praying I would wake up the next day a girl the same age as my boy self. I would also pray that God would make everyone think I had always been a girl so I could go to school as a girl and grow up just like my friends who were all girls at the time.
Love this topic thank you Roberta for me I guess I always wanted to dress like my mother her beautiful silk dresses and pantyhose and high heels and makeup looked so nice when I would watch her freshen her lips with her lipstick I would almost felt like I wanted to cry I wanted to wear all of the beautiful clothes and makeup I did a lot in private and I still do and I still love dressing up as a woman and applying my makeup just like she did
I had to think back for this question. I think it was always age appropriate except for when I was 14 -15 I wanted to look older. I wanted to be with the older girls like me. I was introduced to trans life style at very young age . I have met other older girls that enjoyed dressing younger in cute frilly dresses . Fortunately for me i got that opportunity when I was. younger. I had three sisters while i was growing up. One of my sister clothes fit me. Now that i think about it I was so fotunate to always have woman that were about my size in my life. Luv Stephanie
I remember those days i would dress in my sisters school uniform and roll up the waistbband to make the skirt as short as possible. I loved feeling cute. Great days luv Stephanie
I always wanted to be a girl of my own age from about 6 years old. I had several girls among my closest friends throughout school and even at university.
Now I sometimes wish I could start all over from that age or at least had come out much earlier. But off course those are only beautyful dreams not rooted in the contemporary reality.