Welcome to Crossdresser Heaven, a safe and welcoming place for everyone in the crossdresser community.
Join Crossdresser Heaven today to participate in the forums.
I can't recall exactly what got me thinking this about a week and a half ago, but I thought about the inner goddess. I think I was thinking about my wife being more of a goddess then a queen and I started to think of myself, or at least the woman needing to get out in some way.
Throughout my life, I have always been unsure exactly how much I am ruled by her. I question if it's just denial, but the idea of being a feminine soul in a masculine body for this current lifetime has made more sense than being a woman in the body of a man as my ultimate truth. I got to thinking about all kinds of mythology and seeing myself as a goddess who was turned into a man. A goddess transcends time, and the powers of another deity who could turn her into a man transcend that man's power? So with that I thought, "why change the mortal I am when I could use my male vessel as a goddess would?"
I can't think of any myth like this, as divine gender transformations tend to either be giving a feminine spirit the male body to their advantage, rather than as a punishment/experiment as I feel. I think of what a powerful goddess would do with the large male body I have, the male fertility, the physical presence. Wouldn't that be so much more than a temporary aesthetic change? It seems like a mentality that could give me the satisfaction of being a woman while also making the most of the conditions of my birth. However, these powers may be harnessed with a little more.
As a person who always associated power with toxic masculinity, perhaps it's time for me to embrace my goddess powers and I think maybe some goddess style clothing and a little makeup may do it. women are supposed to find power sexy, right? perhaps this will work out for everyone...
That genuinely makes sense. In understanding spiritual energy and the metaphysical I think it makes sense. That’s why I identify with non-binary. Spiritually, I feel male and female energy evenly and that is the universe, balance. But our physical bodies are just temporary and not our souls or energy inside.
Hi Aoife,
I think I see where you're at. If you're interested, it might be worth checking out tales from the Hindu mythologies. I think pantheistic mythologies compare to monotheistic ones like technicolor does to black and white.
Male and female entities are often intertwined. For instance when Brahma created 'everything' he didn't quite get it right, and needed to cosy up to Shiva who detached his female aspect to produce the goddess Parvati - shades of 'adam and eve'.
Ardanarishvara is a variation on a theme, and is the representation of the duality of Shiva and Parvati in one form.
A domina situation whereby the female aspect messes around with the male aspect rather than the more usual opposite situation is hard to think of - I'm not saying it's not there though.
(Apologies to any hindu scholars out there if I've simplified things to a degree that frustrates you - please jump in and correct me)
Marti xxx
Yes, when i first started thinking of it this way i started looking into Hindu mythology as well. It seemed like it would fit there. I will probably give it a closer look, but it almost felt like there was just so much change and fluidity that it's just not the perspective I am looking for right now. In the end, it might be the most relatable conclusion, but at the moment, I would connect with something less transient.
It makes sense to me Marti and quite a thought provoking thread.
Likewise, I had been thinking about what would have always made me happy, what will make me happy, and what is doable and forgot all about androgyny. Shortly before I met my wife I really was heading towards a bit more androgyny, "girls usually aren't into that though, even bi ones," so it cooled off a bit. Why would I ever not want to be androgynous!? In mythology the androgynous ones are always the most powerful! Oh right, I don't like power, that's masculine? ...Or is it?
Whatever comes next, more androgyny will happen first.
Hi Aoife you girls are way over my head with this just saying you girls are so smart wish to be you for a while someday ..
Hugs Stephanie
Hey, Stephanie,
None of that please 😉 We all have what we have - or don't have - and get on with life. In my case I'm reminded every day how nice it would be to have a social and emotional intelligence quotient that was measured in more than single digits , lol.
You'll do for me, just as you are.
Marti xxx
another thought is that my wife's soul only chose female in this life to stay with me. i guess she has a lot of masculine energy that i needed for "balance." i did FaceApp with her image to see if i could turn gay for that and... no, unfortunately.
Thanks Marti you are very sweet thank you ..
Stephanie
