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Hello, I'm Edie. I'm a older transvestite. To be honest, after reading some of your stories, telling my
story isn't much different from your stories. They are so much alike. I've been crossdressing for as
long as I can remember. As to when I first started, I don't remember. I do remember trying on any little
girl dress I could get my hands on. Eventually, my mother caught me trying on dresses. She, of course,
disapproved and did everything she could to discourage me. As to my father, he never knew.
When I reached my teen, just wearing a dress was no longer satisfying. I wanted to expand my need to
express the feminine side of me and to look like the other teenage girls. I now wanted to try on makeup
and to wear stockings, short dresses, bras and even wigs. But as a teen, I didn't have much money to buy these nice things. Those were difficult years.
Eventually I got a job and moved out on my own. It was like heaven, being able to express my feminine
side without my mother or anybody else seeing me. There was just one problem. Back in those days
there was no internet to go online to Amazon to by what you needed. PC didn't exist. Of course,
this meant going directly to the stores and buying what I needed. Imagine how embarrass I was
walking up to the casher to buy a 36 C bra and trying to make up some stupid story as to why I was
buying it.
I did marry, and my wife eventually learned of my need to express a feminine side. At first, she
was not happy being married to a crossdresser. However, crossdressing was becoming more acceptable
to the public, and she actually found herself on the defensive, getting on one's support not even
from her own mother. Though I knew she was never really happy with my need to express a feminine
side, she dealt with it. She was also a photographer and took pictures of me as a woman. I never
felt happier in those days. It seems crossdressers have a love for mirrors and love to have their
pictures taken.
My marriage eventually ended, and I moved out on my own. For one year after my marriage ended, I
did no crossdressing due to difficult time. My X wife took it on herself to destroy all my dresses
and other feminine items, leaving me to start all over. I was starting to believe my need to express my feminine side was passed, but it returned stronger then ever.
Today, I still live by myself, and there is no woman in my life. Even though I'm now older, a
time you might think my need to express a feminine side would be over, I still need to express
it. Unlike when I was younger, and able to look so much more feminine, I no longer fright the
need. Now that I have a better understanding as to why I do what I do, I except and I enjoy my
feminine side. I am happy with my feminine side. I only have one problem: I'm lonely, which is
why I'm here at Crossdresser Heaven.
Edie
Edie thank you for sharing your story and taken sad on what's happen. You been through so much the stress and anxiety and it surely plays hard on one's mine. Being alone and wondering what's next and could I have done things differently. Now we're here with the company you deserve . The help and most importantly the support to allow yourself to freely express and enjoy your dressing to the fullest. Meet and make lasting friendships. That's what heavens all about . Happy meeting you. Hugs Stephanie 🌹
Hi Edie, welcome to CDH. You do indeed have a similar story to many others on here, I can sympathise with feelings of loneliness I too have often felt I was the only one in the world and there was no one I could confide in. Since joining CDH my life has definitely changed. You will no doubt find many friends here who will be willing to support you. I live very far from you, but always happy to chat.
Andrea xx