Bonjour mes amis

Hi girls, I am Sophie

I've been living in rural central France since 2005. I am, on the whole a very positive and happy person who doesn't worry about things. I go though life taking on the things it throws at me and if I get knocked down, I get back up and start again. I found my confidence though my professional career and not in my personal life. But more importantly, I found it. But I am still fairly reserved and listen and think before I make a move.

I started dressing at an early age, I think about 7 or 8 in my sister clothes when everyone was out. I also recall my mother finding me in her bedroom in a sad attempt to wear her stocking and suspenders. Perhaps she knew about me all those years but we never spoke about things. And now too late, she passed away in 2004.

I've been married twice and a have a child from each marriage and then a long term relationship. All these failed although I did try to live as a man but dressed through all three relationships secretly. After many years and countless times of throwing out my beautiful clothes, shoes - everything I lovingly bought, only to simply buy it all again at a later time. I've suffered all the guilt, shame and all the other feelings that you acquire along with depression and meds that I shook off quickly.

It's March 2017 and I have now lived alone for just over four years. Towards the end of last year I finally accepted who I am after feel that need to restock with my life with all the things I missed. Since that point I have been much happier and enjoying being Sophie almost as a lifestyle. A lot of things to deal with and overcome, but I am quite happy and making progress. Where I live, the idea of support is highly unlikely so I have joined this site to be among like minded others. My life is still undisclosed to the world at large but I live in a village I am quite well know as is my car that I drive when I go out shopping. I am hoping to move forward to a life as Sophie this year but have some work commitments as 'him' such as cooking in a restaurant during the summer. All my ID is for a male, so even if I was ready to reveal Sophie to all it would still be complicated here.

My biggest worry is telling my daughter, but I feel that she may well be the most accepting of my new life.

It's nice to feel part of a community that is supportive from what I have seen so far. I am unsure about the paid membership but will see how things progress here.

We need each other and to break down the stigma that still exists in this day and age when violence and aggression are common place as are so many atrocities world wide. Woman have always been more caring and loving in my experience and more emotional, none of which is a bad thing at all. If only more men spent time experiencing life as a woman the world be be such a nicer place to live for us all

Thank you if you have managed to read this far and showing interest in the things I have written. Perhaps we may chat sometime, or something else.
Lots of hugs and kisses to you all

Sophie xxx

PS: I have begun to put together a blog/site titled 'Finding Sophie'. It describes my life from a young age and the things that affect me. I am honest, open and truthful. I will also be writing about my life here in France and recording my progress as Sophie. Wish me luck!