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Hi all!
Oh my goodness, this took so much courage.
When I was 13 (back in the 80s!), I tried on my mother's skirts and it felt exhilarating. The experimentation was sporadic but something drew me to it in a way I can't explain. As I matured, all my relationships were heterosexual and the dressing stopped (but was never forgotten).
When I finished university, a girl who I had been dating left some clothes in my house after we parted. One evening I was overcome with the desire to wear the shiny leggings, bra and girly tee shirt. OMG, it felt incredible and from then on, I'd often return to this very small stash of clothes for pleasure and stress relief. Balloons filled with water became my boobs 🙂
Once involved with other relationships, this other side of me was suppressed until my mid 20s when I met a girl who was quite kinky and suggestive. One day I dressed in a mini skirt and leather boots for her and again it felt so damn good.
After that relationship ended, I met my future wife who I spent the next 20 years with and the dressing almost faded away. About 12 years ago and at a very stressful time, I found myself alone, wearing her underwear, a skirt, tights and knee high boots and a blouse. The feeling was amazing but I was also overcome with guilt. The introspective questions started but I could not get over how good I felt wearing those clothes.
Fast forward to August last year and we'd been separated for over a year (now divorced). I was browsing a well known online emporium and found myself looking at female clothes. Before I knew it, a number of deliveries arrived and for the first time, I had my own clothes, breast forms and wigs. For a few weeks I enjoyed my double life and became the girl of the house in private. Whilst this felt so good, I was also quite confused about who I was. I did open up to my mother (the only person I have told) and whilst she was accepting, I also think she's of a generation that doesn't quite understand.
Guilt overcame me and a cycle of purges and binges (at expense) then started. Each time I binged, I bought more clothes than before.
So here I am today. I love dressing up and feel so relaxed en femme. I get so much pleasure browsing online at clothes and imagining what I'd look like wearing them. Whilst I present as a man to the world, I can't wait to get home and become Danni. I have spent full days dressed and have been out on a couple of night drives which was euphoric and also very nerve-wracking (the fear of getting caught). I've not worn makeup yet but I have painted my nails. I love shaving my legs and applying the false tan too 🙂
Anyway, that's a quick bio and warm hello from Danni xxx
Hi Danni,
Welcome to CDH from another UK girl.
Thank you for that wonderful and candid intro.
Your past will resonate with many of us here, myself included.
A lot of us have arrived here thinking that we’re the only one who does this, but then soon realise that’s really not the case at all.
What you have discovered is that this never really leaves you, however long it sits in the background.
This is a really warm and supportive community where you can talk safely about this side of your life.
We’re very friendly and love to chat, so have a good look around and feel free to ask anything you want to know.
Lucy
@dannibuckle welcome Danni
I'm reading your story and you are in the right place in the right time.
CDH (crossdresser Heaven) is my second home now, I also had my purge and renew females clothes cycles, mostly when I was single.
Now married, I had some episodes where I got female clothes and hide it from my wife to crossdress me in private, and I still doing it.
My wife doesn't support me on this journey, but this week , after join me to this lovely family of sisters, I had the courage and I told about my crossdressing to my daughter(20years) and she support me and I feel so happy and a sense of love and happiness is now flooding my heart !!!
Feel free to surf the CDH webpage and enjoy this journey as I am doing now.
Only 1 week here at CDH but now I feel more comfortable with my inner woman and I hope you feel the same.
Anything you need feel free to ask us , your sister , we always will give you our friendship and support.
Welcome my dear!!
Odeth Romero
Hi, Danni, thanks for your detailed introduction! A "quick bio" indeed, you've told us more than many of us did in our first posts and it's great that you feel able to do so.
It's a pleasure to welcome you to our unique community, you now have a safe place to share your journey with like-minded sisters and you'll be encouraged and supported in doing so.
I try not to give advice, it's too much like telling someone what to do 😱 but I'll say this, Stop purging! It's a waste of money and, five minutes later, you'll wish you hadn't done it. I could cry when I think of the lovely things I've thrown away in the mistaken belief that doing so will "cure" me🙄.
It's not the enjoyment of crossdressing that needs cured, it's the unnecessary guilt and shame that we feel because we enjoy it. Believe me, Dr Allie prescribes more time spent here, sharing your successes, and your fears. That will banish those two demons for good.
Take some time to look through the forums and profiles and you'll be delighted how similar our stories are. It's also great fun.
Don't be afraid to ask for anything you need or questions you have, we'll do what we can to help.
Allie x
Hi Danni, welcome to CDH from another UK girl. I'm just up the A1 in Tyne and Wear.
Thank you for that fantastic intro. A lot of us have had very similar experiences, so you are in good company here. I've tried the balloon boobs. They do feel great, but I fretted in case they burst, so I stuck with socks!
And rest assured, a lot us us here remember the 80s only too well! 😀
Take a wander around the site to see what's what, and feel free to ask questions. Have fun!
@dannibuckle Welcome to CDH Danni from another UK girl, I'm a fair way south of you, not too far from London 🙂
You've come to just the right place as I'm sure loads of girls here will tell you. There's just something so right about living as a woman in your own home, isn't there? I've started to do exactly that this year, except I then quickly extended it to every area of my life 🙂
Trust me, if you go out feeling relaxed and comfortable en femme, you'll get treated like that's who you are. No-one will point, laugh, or anything worse - at least, not in my experience thus far.
I don't think I could have done it without the support and encouragement of this wonderful sisterhood though, and I'm very hopeful that you'll be able to blossom out in the same way. Do PM me if you ever want to discuss any aspect of femme life, hopes, fears, joy etc. Looking forward to getting to know you on here 🙂
Hugs,
Fiona xxx
@dannibuckle Welcome to CDH! I'm a UK girl, based in Cornwall. I do visit Yorkshire a couple of times a year, bought my wedding dress in Pocklington, have also found a fantastic CD-friendly boutique, Angela Bare who sell a great selection of dresses, shoes, bags and accessories.
Hugs,
Anna x
Hi Danni
Thanks for a VERY full intro. I love it when people take the time to really tell us about themselves.
You've already got the message from other girls' replies that this is a safe space to talk and a wonderful place to make friends. I've been a member here since last July and I'm a bit of an addict.
There's lots to explore. Have fun looking around, and if you need help with anything just shout.
Hugs
Ellie x
Welcome to CDH Danni,
Thank you for your candid introduction. You'll find many similar stories on here. Seems we become interested in our youth. You will find a lot of knowledge and support here. We girls stick together! I love the freedom of wearing a dress.
Enjoy the Pink Fog!
XOXO Fran 🥰
Welcome from a South Yorkshire lass,
Welcome Danni to this lovely area. Yours is a story shared by many here as we go through life trying to figure out our desire to dress. From an age where expressing this was taboo to a more enlightened time where we can be ourselves and know we are not alone.
I hope you enjoy yourself here and become an active part of ths wonderful community.
As always, if you have any questions, ask away.
Hi Danni,
Welcome to CDH it's nice to meet you,
I'm a mature crossdresser I've been dressing most of my life since i was about 8 or 9 years old when i tried my older sister's lingerie on I'm still in the closet to my wife and family,
Don't worry about feeling guilty we have all been there and we all felt what you have been through, feeling guilty then purging then buying new clothes and purging again and again going through the cycle, but now you have accepted that being a crossdresser is part of your life, I accepted I'm a crossdresser many years ago and i don't feel guilty apart from not coming out to my wife I'm sure she wouldn't understand and feel betrayed,
I'm a UK girl too I'm down in Shropshire I'm sure there are lots of girls near to where you live who will be happy to meet up with you for a coffee and a chat, the girls on here will help you any way they can all you have to do is ask X
Hugs Rozalyn X 🤗
Welcome to CDH Danni!
Hey Danni. Congratulations on taking this brave step. Welcome to CDH from another UK girl honey. I expect the girls here have already given you a fine girly welcome but I prefer to respond before reading all the comments. This community is the best, most supportive resource you could have accessed and I'm confident that the girls here will provide you with all the validation you need. You'll find girls at every step of a journey which, whilst having certain common facets, is in the end an individual one. I had a 35 year hiatus from dressing, although the thoughts never left me. Unlike you I never experienced any guilt. It all seemed pretty cool to me! I have sort of returned after that break, with a number of challenges.
Hopefully we can get you to a place of comfort and acceptance. Have a good look around and let us know a little more about your story. Join in the forums and chat and you will really reap the benefits.
Hugs, Chrissie xx.
Hi Danni,
Welcome to CDH. Thank-you for sharing your story.
Alice
Thank you everyone for the warm welcomes.
Joining this community was my first step towards that comfort and acceptance. The need to "come out" has been burning inside me and this is a massive step. I recognise that my inner girl is strongest at times of stress and when I'm Danni, I have a spring in my step and am smiling again.
I came home from work yesterday afternoon and slipped into a business skirt, blue shirt and formal shoes (no wig) and continued working remotely 🙂 That felt fab and I could't stop looking at my tanned legs.
I do really want to experience (and learn how to apply) full makeup as the transformation can be quite remarkable. That's definitely a topic for another discussion.
Ultimately, I don't know where the journey with Danni will take me, I just want to be happy and have a bit of fun 🙂
Danni xx
@dannibuckle Thanks for the thanks Danni! I'm sure you will soon feel quite at home here. I wish you well with your makeup journey. It really does take things to a different level. That last part when I put my lipstick on is just such an exquisite and thrilling moment.
I think there are some video tutorial links here and of course hundreds on the Internet. And if you have any specific questions just pop up a post and the girls will be more than happy to help. Best of luck with your journey, and do let us know how you get on.
Hugs, Chrissie xx.
Hi Danni nice to meet you and so happy you found and joined us girls here so do some looking around and reading of the forums and posts from so many ladies here telling there stories about there journeys down the femme road they are on in life.. So as a new sister and family member you are welcomed with open arms into our home as well as yours now also.. When you get comfortable with us please join in with a story or two about the life and times of Danni s she travels down her own girly path in life.. Now as for making friends here there are so many ladies from all over the world to build long lasting friendships with and best of all we are just a simple click away from you... Once again girlfriend nice meeting you and hope to see you around for a chat sometime soon..
Stephanie Bass
Hi Danni!
Welcome to CDH!
Thanks for a great introduction!
I think you will find the community helpful, encouraging and supportive.
Again, welcome to CDH!
Catherine
